Can hardly sleep last night.. tried to sleep at 12am.. but ended up sleeping at 5am.. it's funny how you tried to do something and that things doesn't get done.. it sounded so easy in your head.. but when you tried to do it in reality.. you'll never come close as you've imagine it.. there's always less..
Seriously tried to sleep early.. but turned on the TV countless times to watch something so that i would be tired hoping that i would fall asleep.. turn as i turn left to right.. up to down.. there's still strangely no sleeping positions that comforts me.. know that people tend to move around to find their comfort position for sleeping.. but most of those people probably found their comfort position and stick to it... i found mine.. but it might not be safe.. as i have to stop my blood from flowing.. probably.. i don't know..
Hoping to wake up at 8am.. well if you've slept at 5am.. there's really not much you can expect.. but i did wake up at 8am thanks to my alarm.. but it's not waking up for real.. you know how people tend to sleep even if they have already been awaken by someone or an alarm per se.. i tend to do that a lot.. i don't know why.. i just wanna wake up early and feel right with my eyes wide open and can't even sleep even if i tried to.. but all i got is waking up tired feeling crappy and want nothing more to lie flat on the bed.. well there is that one time in my "Kampung" Where i woke up early feeling completely awake and just look outside with the paddy fields and wind blowing through you.. sure keeps you away from stuff.. i do find peace and it's strange how things turned out that way..
So the alarm kept ringing and ever 10 minute i wake up cause that's the snooze time.. but it's useless cause every single time the alarm rang.. i just turned off the alarm and sleep all over again.. till i got a call.. strange how my alarm didn't wake me fully but when someone calls me jumped my ass of my bed and got all my stuff ready put on my clothes and go.. actually i had a meeting with my uncle today..
It's been a while since i went outside during the day.. remembering the days how i used to go to school and always wake up early to go to school and watch outside from the car as my mom sent me to school seeing things all around me.. i might hate it at that time.. but i actually missed it now.. the green colors of the trees and grass.. the blue sky that never change.. well except when it's raining.. the grey colors of the road with white lines on the middle.. that's probably the highlight of my day..
Then we stopped by at Giant Hypermarket to buy some paper.. and they (my uncle staff) bought some food.. unfortunately.. i was in a rush and forgot to bring any money.. but i hardly bring any money cause i don't really buy stuff.. so i didn't buy anything.. Well.. not to worry.. cause my uncle actually prepare us for a Steamboat.. i actually hate steamboat.. but today was exceptional.. the steamboat today was actually good.. with the foods that are prepared like Corns, meatballs, fishballs, Vegetables, sausages, tofu, noodles and so much more.. actually ate till i was full..
Then i tried my uncle's internet connection cause he had recently applied for a line at his house.. and Streamyx was rather fast even for 1mbps.. can't imagine how fast the 4mbps is gonna be.. tried downloading stuff.. and first it was depressing cause the download rate was only 1kbps-10kbps.. but then a few minutes later it strike so high at one point i saw the download rate was 172kbps.. the highest i got from my Digi Broadband was 120KBPS.. unlimited downloading it was.. but unfortunately.. it's gonna take some time before a whole downloads get done..
Then the work started.. we didn't actually work.. just change thought of what the company is gonna be able to do for the future.. didn't do much to contribute.. i just reminded them of some things.. and now i have to do a background story for 4000 characters.. doesn't seem much cause it's characters.. not words.. if it words i would probably.. faint.. well i would not.. i don't really get why people say that.. you should say you would be happy or maybe i would get on it.. or something like that.. what's with the negativity??
And the days are actually passing rather quickly.. after work.. not too long ago.. we actually discuss about a trip to KL since there's a ticket that cheap.. 120 bucks go and back tickets.. that's pretty cheap i guess. normally it would cost 300-500 bucks for air asia.. or 1500 bucks in MAS case.. anyway.. hope it goes well. might have a chance to go to Genting.. it's been a while since i've been there.. the cold weather.. the things they have there.. see i don't remember anything since the last time i've been there which is a long time ago..
Anyway day ended.. i went back.. and now my eyes are killing me.. it's forcing me to go to sleep but i'm fighting it as hard as i can.. it's all mind over matter.. or is it?
Some things will never change..
No comments:
Post a Comment