1st Time Waking Up Early

In a very long time.. i wasn't able to wake up early.. and today i was successfully able to wake up at 6am.. yeah.. it wasn't much of a sleep.. in fact.. i'm still sleepy now.. but at least i wake up at 6am rather than sleep at 6am..

It's one of those things that you're kinda addicted to.. and sadly.. i'm addicted to sleeping late.. like seriously.. why can't addiction be like good.. most addiction leads to destruction like alcohol, drugs, smoking.. can't it be change.. let's make addiction good.. like addicted to helping people, addicted to helping people out.. wow.. my definition of good addiction is helping people.. there's probably more good things out there right? let's make the good thing an addiction rather than the bad thing.. why does everything that feels good has to be a bad thing..

I kinda wish that i was doing something right now.. like a job or maybe something in my interest.. rather than wasting my time at home.. doing nothing.. but the weird thing is when i was actually in class or doing something that i didn't like.. i was actually complaining about how great it would be just to lie in my own bed while sleeping and wait for time just to pass by.. i mean what's that all about? this is seriously confusing.. why can't i enjoy pain? and why can't i be grateful when i have an opportunity?

Struggling.. i wish my life has some kind of struggle.. i think struggling are good.. cause struggling actually helps a person to push him or herself from her current state to being more productive i guess.. like i'm not productive.. in order for me to be productive.. i have to be struggle.. it doesn't necessarily have to be bad.. but i can't think of anything about struggling that is good.. my dad always tell one of his story about when he was little how his family were always struggling to make ends meet.. like he would go door by door and sell vegetables, food, wish i had an experience like that.. and he partly blames the kids these days for not being adventurous, kinda felt like he's judging me.. hmm.. well i seriously don't know.. i can only imagine.. but aren't dad suppose to take their kids to camping or fishing in the lake?

Okay.. so that was my 6am rant.. and i made a poem.. since my last poem.. it's actually for mother's day.. and i don't know when mother's day is.. but since i sent out a message for my mom last mother's day.. i thought that i would write a poem to her.. and make it annually..

so it goes like this

Dear mother,

You were always there to show me the way

You were always asking me if i'm okay

I've always used your money but you never asked me to pay

So from my heart and the words from my mouth, i'm wishing you a Happy Mother's Day

Yeah.. i think it was good.. and from self experience.. more poems to come.. i wish..