I just noticed that my post of 1st of August is like 2 days behind, oh well, im not a perfectionist anyway, let it rhyme... so been thinking a lot, actually just a little, so for the second day im gonna talk about my family i guess, who else to talk about when rather than you own family.
So growing up i don't have any brothers and sisters, till i was 16 i still believe that i could still be a brother, what a bummer, im still alone, well my mom tried to conceive a baby, she even thought of an adoption cause when i was little, there were lots of people giving away their baby, yeah but it never happened, so im still an only child, i have a theory.. im not talkative to other people cause i don't have any brothers or sisters, insane? partly, but i see my other friends, and they don't seem to have any problem talking to people they don't know, so, yeah partly, it was also because there was no one like there to teach me that parents can't teach, not the bad stuff anyway, okay maybe not just teach, but like protect, growing up, i had no one to protect me at least in school, if i got bullied, i just let it go, the times that i stood up to a bully i ended up with a bloody nose.. Funny story actually.. it's not really funny when you have a bloody nose now is it?
Even though i have no brothers or sisters at all, i have lots of cousin like 15 of them in one side and 3 on the other, i have a lot of cousins on my father side, mainly because my father grew up in a big family and they moved a lot, and my mother grew up in a small family, but they also moved a lot, hmm strange..
To me, my cousins are like my brothers and sisters, cause they were there when i was little, but the funny thing is that they actually bullied me when i was a kid, i don't really know but somehow, they turned the other side.
My cousins really influenced me a lot, that's why i thought of them like my B&S, but only my close cousins, wish all of them could be close to me, but you can't always get what you want can you?
Well, i will always remembered what one of my cousin said to me, did i tell you that i wasn't a bright kid in school? of course i did, probably like the hundred time already, anyway, she was entering college when i was still in high school, and i was feeling down all the time cause i didn't really do well in school, but she give me like the greatest advice i ever had, it's not exactly what she said but it has the same meaning, Everything will turned around when you enter college, and so far it did, i got a really nice score, okay here's to not braggin... In semester one i got 5A's, 1B's and 2C's, in semester 2 i got 2A's 5B's and No C, well it's not as great as the past sem, but still great to me.
As for my parents, My father was a hard worker, he always came back late but i kinda feel like he's psychic of something, when i was a kid, he got me everything i wanted without me asking, so that kinda freak me out a little bit, what if my thoughts were foul, would he know?? yeah so i was scared, i turned to my father a lot, cause he approves a lot more than my mom although my mom did that for a reason i guess, my dad like to spend money a lot, till now, kinda feel like im watching after him when we're shopping, cause he seriously can't stop spending money, but my dad is strange right now, when i was younger, my dad use to be playful, but right now, he just stay quiet and study all the time.. But he also likes music a lot , so sometimes we have something to talk about, but he gets upset so easily, he's really sensitive in some cases, so kinda have to watch what i said to him..
My mom on the other hand is also a hard worker, but shes working hard right now since my dad left the bank long time ago, my mom has been supported us through the years, so when im spending i always tried not to spend a lot, but most of the times i failed, but at least im doing better than my dad, more over he's in the city so it's really easy to burn money there, anyway, my mom teach me the value of money without actually teaching it to me, all those times that she was hesitant to buy stuff, it's actually because we like to spend money on stuff, so it was like she sacrifice for our happiness in a way.
Other things i remember about my parents is that they were always there when im sick, i was a really sick kid when i was growing up, so most of the time i wouldn't worried because my parents are around, but now that im far away, my sickness is getting stroger, and my parents aren't around me anymore and im friggin out!! i need them, im sick and i haven't even seen the doctor..
Gonna end it with
"I'm Walking After You"
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