That's my birth date man, the date, the month, and best of all the year!
No wonder i'm so attached to this internet thing, but then again, aren't we all
That was kind off a fun and exciting fact for me, cause now i know that my birthday symbolize something, the Internet, yeah but there's lots of things, like the birthday of Malaysia's Hollywood Actress Michelle Yeoh, Sixth Sense Movie Director, M.Night Shyamalan.
Other than that, oh yeah, one of my friend birthday is also on that day, anyway, i guess there's only one thing that i could do, is to make a name for myself, yeah hopefully, in a good way that is, i wanna be one of those people who are famous, but at the same time gives joy by doing something, i don't wanna be one of those who gets famous because of bad stuff, not really famous, but they have like this attention, you know crimes and all those crap.
But yeah, i'm turning 20 this August, and to be honest, i don't think i'm gonna get famous or anything, i guess the one thing that you have to pay for being famous is privacy, once you get famous, you won't get any privacy, but here's the thing, Malaysian celebrities aren't that big, so if i do get famous, i don't think it really matters, like the celebrities, i don't know, just that i haven't heard anything from Malaysian celebrities.
Turning 20, honestly, i'm a little bit disappointed, thought that i would have a band right now, i search so desperately for a band, but no one really takes me seriously, then i thought i should just go solo, then crappy microphone recording gets me down, other than that, i thought that i would do something with English by now, well blogging is a start, but it doesn't really brings me anywhere, i tried Vlogging, but i failed, maybe i should do like Shaycarl, he started vlogging when he hits 29 years old, that's it, if i'm not doing anything great by the time i'm 28, i'm gonna start a life documentary when i'm 29 years old.
I don't really have faith in myself, i let myself believe that i'm a failure, and that it's almost impossible for me to pass something, and few days ago i was working on my book, and then i stopped for a minute, i was kinda slacking i guess, then i say to myself, What are you afraid of?, like there's something that's making me lazy, so yeah i asked myself, of course i didn't get an answer, but i overlooked that if there's something that's making lazy, i need to find it and burn it.
Wow, i'm just talking crap right now.
So turning 20, oh i've said that before.
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