I'm still on the process of writing, yeah it's pretty bad, i have serious issue with procrastination.
Just hope that i could finish it by tonight, cause tonight is the last night that i'm gonna be spending time at my house, the last time i'm gonna be procrastinating, the last time, well i can go on and on but that would be a little boring now wouldn't it?
It scares me a lot, that i don't think i can finish it, cause i have literally 4 chapters to write, and it has to be more than 50 pages, and i'm only starting with the first chapter! ranting about my work isn't gonna help me is it? i wish it worked that way. But at least i won't have carpal tunnel..
And the other part, there has been a lot of construction work going on around my house lately, and i think it should bug me, but the sound doesn't really bother me that much cause my music is much louder than the banging sound that they make, but it's when my house trembles, it literally shakes, now i know how it felt if there's ever an earthquake, just less scary, cause if it was an earthquake, my house would probably be torn, it's just a little scary that my whole house shakes, and i don't know if it's safe, kinda feel dangerous, and i don't know should i complaint or something, cause i'm a little concern for my safety as well as the safety for my parents, but they don't seem to be scared by it.
Well another six months and it will all be over. Aah, another six months at college, hopefully it won't suck, oh no, i'm not gonna let it suck this time, i'm not even gonna let it step foot in my door, i'm not even gonna make it reveal itself, for once in my life, i want everything to go okay, not perfect, just okay. And the best part is that i'll only have 2 semester left, then off to university, that is if i get credited in my BM test, and i'm leaving my old life, being sleazy, lazy, practically everything that's bad, trying to change myself here, i'm growing up, i don't wanna act like a kid anymore, but i also don't wanna act like an old dude, just a little mature, it's about time.
It's just that, there's no one that could show me those way of being a better person, just have to find out myself, if i have a brother, at least i could like get advice from him or something, but it could turn the other way, of being a bad influences to me, i've seen some brothers around, and yeah, they're kinda a bad influence to their siblings.
I'm really gonna miss the internet, cause i know i'm not gonna have internet connection there, it's not even worth trying, cause i've tried like a gazillion times, but at the same time, it's not gonna make me lazy like these 7 months that i've spent my time doing, but i don't know how i'm gonna blog over there, well that's what notepads are for, but it's like gonna be 2 more semester left, than freedom!, well not really, i'm probably gonna apply to a university or something, and this time, that place better have an internet connection!, it's not like i live in the internet, just that, it gets boring when there's nothing to do, ooh i see it now, so that's how we because lazy, the internet, well i'm gonna live like some caveman or something, and play sports or go jogging in the evening, probably, there's like a low chance of me doing that, but that would really fill the void of my free time, and maybe i could like study for once, cause i've never studied really really good, i seriously wanna feel how it is to be smart, cause it looks like their life is kinda perfect, get to go to good school jobs, me, well i'm on their way too, just slower.
Anyway, i'm back doing my work, breaks over.
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