Going In First

I don't know why, but recently i'm always first, now being first doesn't necessarily mean bad, except when you're the first one to go to present, i mean it's not such a problem if i'm good at presenting, but to be honest, actually i think i'm able to present, just that a little part of me is still a little scared to speak in front of a class, or like most people know it as fear of public speaking, i've been dealing it since i was in school, but now, i'm facing trouble with speaking clearly, i'm still a little scared going in front, but at least i wasn't like when i was in school, which i really hesitate to go in front, but this time, there's no avoiding it.

Well, for the first class, some unfortunate luck made me pick a random number, and surprisingly that number was 1!, at least i'm a little prepared, i don't think i did a great job, but i did great, sure i stucked for a little while, but hey, i'm no pro, i'm still learning, i guess i really want to explore how to actually give a presentation, what i learned is that you have to know the stuff before you actually present, other than that, it's like you're giving information to people, so that's kinda important, and the most important thing is to be prepared i guess.

So today, more surprising stuff happened, i have a team that i picked out of spite, not really my crowd, but hey, i'm trying new things, don't know if my risk would be worth it or not, anyway, my team was the first to go next week!, we have to present something about supporting agency, well the good thing is that i don't feel any pressure right now, but i'm on it, i'm gonna try to do it tonight, and then i'm gonna finish it tomorrow, then i'm gonna prepare myself and give on good presentation.

I guess this is like a turnover for me, i always like going last, because that means i don't have to rush over things, but now i guess it's kinda good for me to go first, at least i can't procrastinate. Well i'll try my best and see how it goes.

And it's been a little hard to post stuff this time around, i don't have a proper internet, and all the internet i used are either crappy and slow or fast, free but some part of the internet were blocked.

So yeah