So tomorrow is my test!, the july paper test which consist of 2 subject which is Mathematics and BM, it's a 2 day event, not really an event but whatever, so i've been studying for about 2 weeks now, but not directly, probably be crazy if i did that, but on the other hand would probably be worth it and have more self assurance on the test, but oh well, it's like studying and slacking back to back these few weeks, but i've only finish 2 books, oh scratch that 1 and almost finish 2 books, but it would really be weak for me if i didn't finish the book, cause i have 1 more book and research to do, there's just not much time, i wish i did study back then when times were empty, but you know the disease, last minute syndrome, it always hangs on.
Kinda wish everyday is a last minute so that i could make myself believe that it had to be done early so i don't torture myself in the end of the real last minute!.
It's been probably 2 years since i last took my July test, after knowing that i didn't get credited in my BM during the SPM, and sadly my mom cried which i don't really know why at that moment, turns out local university wouldn't take people who didn't credited in their BM papers, well i didn't really know much about that, all i knew is that you won't get a job, well it's not like i was looking for a job, but strangely i was more looking forward to pursue my studies even though i don't like studying, maybe i don't like studying what we were given, but rather what we chose, and there's the other thing, that i can't picture my self working.
Strangely enough, yeah strange, i was suppose to be working these few months, which ended up being nothing, seriously, i don't know what to say, but the good news is that, my aunt actually wanted me to work for her, yeah strange, i mean i just help her with her documents in excel, and i wasn't really on the working mood, but i did finish it, and she suggest that i work for her, well actually, she already asked when i could do the job, but i'm studying for my test, so probably after the test, but i still have my reports, oh man when am i gonna finish.
But, i learned that we have to take one step at a time, my biggest problem is thinking of all of it at once, that would just increase my anxiety, therefore creates stress, though i haven't really felt stress that is so critical, so, i'm just gonna focus on the important stuff right now, prioritize..
I don't really know why i'm blogging, my test is tomorrow and i haven't finish studying yet!, i do hope that this would be my last, and by last i meant get a credit in the BM test finally, not that i hate taking it, though i don't really care for it, but yeah, it's really wasting time if i'm taking it over and over again, well at least i'm trying, i'm not busting my ass of for this test, but it's a start, and at least i'm reading, and knowing that i could finish a book, well, it's a random feeling, like never in my life feel that i could finish a book.
Here's the type of books that i actually finish reading, magazine, books of jokes, brochure, etc..
Okay, yeah, i'm kidding, but reading it, just makes me want to read more, maybe not read all of it, but i really want to read Twilight, well not right now, cause i can't but maybe later, but it would be great if i have like a pdf tablet reader rather than reading it off my laptop, cause it's not really suitable i guess, but there's not a lot of options that i could choose, well hope fully i could finish Twilight.
Not that i'm a fan, but there's a reason why it's the Number 1 best seller on the New York, what's that again, i lost it, and i'm here to find that reason, and who knows, maybe i'll even enjoy myself while reading it, here's the thing i find different between a movie and books, mostly about movies that are adapt from books, well movies are 2 hour long, maybe even 3 hours if it's lord of the rings, but in books, it's gonna take probably weeks or months to finish, in my case probably years, but here's the thing, books are a little more accurate from movies, but then again, it is books to movies rather than movies to book, but i haven't really find the difference, cause i haven't read a book then watch the movie, so i'm trying to do so with twilight, reading all the books and watching all the movies.
Breaking Dawn, if you don't know what that is, it's the final installment of the Twilight series, though the movie actually have 2 part, and watching the trailer it does seem awesome, i mean reading bits from the books is already shocking, yeah, you'll understand later.
Not really much, and i have to study!
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