I Slept Like A Baby

I know, weird title right?

So, i bought this Air Purifier couple of days ago and thinking that it was the most pointless thing that i've ever bought, it purifies air, i mean isn't our air pure enough?, well i am having some trouble cause my room is always closed, i wouldn't even open the windows.

The first night i didn't really feel anything different because i don't really know what Air Purifier does, but now the second night, which was last night, just as i was about to sleep, i realize, i'm drooling, i've never drool in like so long ago, people only drool because of 2 things:

1.They're disgusting

2.They're really tired.

And me, i don't know, cause those 2 doesn't really fit my profile, so i guess the air purifier has something to do with that, cause i seriously rarely drool, and here's the thing, i always sleep late right, and as always i would wake up late also, but here's the thing with the air purifier, i don't really sleep till that late, and waking up is really difficult, cause it's really comfortable, my eyes didn't even wanna open, usually once my eyes were open i would just got up, but this time, it took turns, to the left and to the right and finally to the front.

So, i'm finally seeing the Air Purifier worth, would i recommend you to buy it?, right now i still see it as a pointless thing with some value, i mean it's pretty cheap, it doesn't cost thousands or dollars, which in my case is Ringgit, but saying dollars are cooler, so, i don't know, if you wanna buy it go ahead, it's good, but you're gonna feel like it's pointless cause it doesn't really do anything, not anything that you could see anyway, but something that you could feel, like not able to feel comfortable in your own room, or sleeping with not much rest, you should totally buy it, screw pointless, we should buy pointless thing once in a while, not everything in life makes sense, so why should we buy things that needs to have a purpose..

It's June!

Well, my clock strikes 12, and it's safe to say, it's JUNE.

June, nothing much is gonna happen this month, just that, i have about a month here before i go back, i'm suppose to be happy at home, but i'm not, cause i feel like i'm useless, cause i barely do anything here, i've been like not doing anything for the past couple of months, and it's slowly killing me, i was born to do something, not to waste time on it, but it's not that i haven't tried, i'm just a lazy person, and the more i'm thinking of it, the more i feel like it's a problem and not really a lifestyle, that i should take care of by, i don't know, go to a counseling session or something.

It's things like this that i feel like i need to search for that thing that's stucked within me, so that i could realize what's the problem that i've been having, cause i know there's something, if there's nothing, i wouldn't have these sorts of problem, i just wish i could figure it out sooner, cause i don't wanna be stuck like this for the rest of my life.

At least while i'm there, i'm preoccupied, i don't get to sit on my ass all day doing nothing, i got class, test, projects, assignments, all those things.

Now i wonder, like when i was younger i hated all those things that they made us do while we're in school, but now i realize they make us do it for a reason, i just wish that they kinda make us understand why we need to do it rather than just like shove it on our faces and just not really know what's going on, i use to like slacking when i was a kid, cause school wasn't great, you go to school early in the morning and you left late in the evening and all you wanted to do is rest, but your parents are pushing you to study, and you hated that cause you've just spent a day in school and they want you to read books, as if it wasn't enough in school, and later on you've became lazy and without realizing, it's taking you away from all of the things, you began reluctant to do anything, you're unenthusiastic about everything, even the little things, i'm hoping that parents will learn a better way to ask their children to study rather than making study look like it's work rather than something to be taking truthfully and seriously.

Cause it's all those things that we're gonna be using later on in life, when i was a kid, i didn't realize that, i mean, we're studying but for what? i see grown up out there and i don't see any crap that we've been learning that they are using, so why the hell am i learning?, i mean, i just feel like it's something that we've been force without knowing that it's for our own good but instead we began to hate it cause it's not fun, oh i don't wanna do that cause it gives me a headache.

I'm just sad that i turned out this way when i know that i deserve, no.. i belong in a better place, but i've done this to myself, and i'm like, like there's no hope for me, even with tears, there's no turning back time, i guess the hardest part is realizing, that i've just threw away my hopes, and maybe my dreams, and for what? for something that gives me pleasure momentarily, but ultimately preventing me from being the potential person that i could be, i could be done with taking my Degree by now and on my way on taking my Master's degree, but instead, i'm taking a diploma, and i have to say it sucks, while all the other people already have their degree's, their master's degrees, and probably their Ph.D, i'm still stucked here, halfway, taking a diploma, that's like far from where they are, i strive for success, but the road is not shown, so i'm like lost, in the middle, between cross pathways, I'm sick of it all, just for a moment, i wish i could take things seriously instead of just...

So that's me for june, pouring my feelings onto what, a virtual sheet of paper, i just want my old life back.

One Long Ass Day

I didn't mean that to be dirty, but now reading it kinda sound dirty a lil bit, but honestly, i just mean it to be like tiring or something like that, cause today it was kinda tiring, although yesterday was also considered tiring day for me.

See, it took almost all i had to get up yesterday to go out, my shoulder were sore, one thing i hate going out with my parents is that, it's way too friggin long, if they could, i think they could literally shop 24 hours, i mean that wasn't the first, all i can remember is this flashback when i was a kid, and my parents bought me shopping all around KL and i remember getting blister on the side of my feet, i just thought that it had ended there when i was a kid, and you thought that you're parents are getting old and they couldn't possibly have the strength that they used to have, well my parents are kinda odd.

School supplies, yeah those are the things that i bought today, except that i'm grown up and it's not really school supplies, i mean the pants are no longer dark blue nor are they dark green, remember those days when you're wearing those kinda clothes, glad that's over, then there's these very vibrant color shirts selling in Giant, i would never bought clothes in shops like giants, actually to be honest, i never bought shirts just because i wanted to, i only buy clothes because i needed to, i don't really care what clothes i'm wearing, if it fits, it's good.

Well with that being said, morning started kinda blurry cause i was into this online game, then suddenly my mom called saying get ready, we're going breakfast, and i was like, didn't we just had breakfast yesterday? well, i hated that, because i know i'm gonna be dragged into something longer than breaking fast, and i was right!, i thought we were gonna go back after breakfast, boy i was wrong, i don't really know where we went after breakfast, but i know i had a long ass day at 1 Borneo.

It's kinda like a festive day, it's actually harvest festival, oh yeah that reminds me, Happy Harvest Festival to all those who are celebrating, lemme see if i could get this right, "Kotabian Do Tadau Tagazau Kaamatan", those are like the only Kadazan words that i know of, and i don't even understand it, anyway, it's kinda like given that every festival there's bound to be lots of people going around, and yeah, but it wasn't that many till i felt like i was suffocating, i only had that experience during PC fairs, i'm so glad i'm not a tech geek or a nerd anymore, well i'm kinda still am, but i can control it right now, by that i meant i would only read stuff about tech instead of seeing the stuff in person and possibly buying them like i always do, i think it's good for me that i try to control my urges of buying stuff that are expensive, i don't buy stuff like clothes which are expensive at the moment but they're kinda separated so they don't seem that expensive, but like techs, they're thousand of bucks and it is consider expensive and sometime necessity, but all that is crap when you have 2 or more of those.

My mom taught me a valuable lesson, have you ever heard of "Money Can't Buy You Happiness", well it's different for my mom, cause money inevidently can buy happiness, at least for my mom, but it's more than that, to me it's things that can't buy you happiness, i always hated money since the day that i was expose that you have to give money in exchange for things, but things are a different story, say shoe for instant, you're gonna want like the best shoe and it's gonna worth lots of money to get it, and here's the thing, if you're without that shoe, well at least if you're really in too deep in loving that shoe, it's kinda like you can't live without it, but once you get it, well you do get happy, but it doesn't last long, probably couple of days, then your shoes gets dirty and it's old news, see i hate those type of things, why can't they make us happy long term, i wish all things are long term in happiness-wise, instead of short term which made us wonder is it worth buying.

I'm still dazed, i don't know if i'm even making sense here, i'm thinking of buying an exercise book for English subject and like do all the exercise given, cause i always like to do those things, cause it comes easy, nothing interesting happened today, just that my feet friggin hurts.

But here's an interesting fact

Interesting Fact That I Just Knew Today!:

Do you know a clothing brand named Body Glove?, well i kinda knew it since i was a kid, but back then i didn't know they made shirts and pants, but i only know that people are using that name to make cheap bags, like travelling bags, but that's pretty old, but for now, it's kinda like famous i guess, Body Glove, so i was in 1 Borneo and there's a Body Glove shop over there, not that i went in there, but i was thinking of the name Body Glove, we all know that Glove is a thing that we use to protect our hands from things while doing stuff like planting, something-that-requires-us-to-wear-safety-gear, and here's the thing, It's Body Glove, it means it's a glove kinda like a regular glove, but for our body, of course the direct translation here would be a glove that protects our body, but in this case, that glove is shirts that's protecting our body!, i don't know if i explained it thoroughly, but that's pretty brilliant, then i was thinking of releasing a clothing shop name Shield, you know, like shield to protect us against.. ahh forget it..

Anyway, it was pleasant talking to you, i Wish you a happy harvest festival.

Feeling Flustered

I even had to find out what flustered means before i put it in the titled, but it does make sense as to what i'm feeling today, see, i'm an only child, so basically, i get all the chores done and my parents ask me to do every single thing no matter how big and even small ones, i've never feel like this before i guess, cause most of the times i would just avoid it saying i'm lazy, but now that i'm grown up, nah i'm still a child, but still, i feel like them asking me to do all the things a little too much some times, and i know it shouldn't bother me, but it really did, i'm just scared that i might blow up and say things that could hurt them.

I've never been social about showing my feelings, cause i thought that i had none, well, i kinda feel like i'm keeping all of it inside, and like one mistakes, all of those feelings that i kept inside me could simultaneously blow during that one take.

See, i'm not even making sense, i just feel weird right now, it's a weird feeling, although, i don't really know how i usually feel, it's kinda like breathing, you're doing it every day, practically, and you don't even know you're doing it, but once you thought to yourself that you're breathing, you're suddenly become conscious that you are, in fact breathing, and it's a weird feeling, like all these times why am i not aware that i've been breathing although i am, but after a while it fades out and again, you're forgetting that you are breathing.

I don't hate my parents, if anything i love them, it's just that i don't really know how to show my appreciation to them, oh wait i do, by doing good in school, oh wait i failed at that one too..

It's just that i can't control my feelings, cause i barely showed any feelings, i don't really know how to feel, but sometimes i do, i guess that's good right?, but most times, i don't even know what i'm doing, i am not aware of what i am currently doing, well except now, i'm writing in my blog, well that seems obvious enough, but it's like that breathing thing, who knows, maybe i'm the only one who doesn't have feelings.

But seriously though, i think it's this anxiety of being an only child, see both my parents have siblings, so what i'm thinking is that, all their chores are in fact being given to everyone to even it out, but i'm alone, so basically, i'm the only one who has to do all the things, which i may include is a must as a child to your parents, but i'm like the only friggin one, and all the pressure is being given to me, there's like no one else beside me to even it out, i mean at least if i had a twin, it could been alternating between me and him, look, i don't ask for much, but i would just wish not to be asked to do everything, i'm only human, and i am only capable of only so much, i know i sound like a brat like now, but hey, this is the only way i know how to show my feeling i guess, something like that, now i'm finally understanding why blogging is for people who have way too much time too waste, but not necessarily, okay i guess this is kinda like a pointless post, actually i don't have any reason for why i'm writing this, i guess i am mad.

Anyway, today, it's kinda weird, actually met my old classmate who's actually working, the weird thing is that he became friendly, why is it weird, cause he's one of the bullies who run the school, no not really, i'm just trying to make him sound terrifying, but he did indeed bully some people, and by some people i meant me, actually it's not him alone, he has like a gang or something that targets a number of people including myself, but thinking of it now, i don't really remember being bullied, i mean it's not that bad, it was kinda of a tease or something like that, but it's still bullying i guess, i mean there are more worser case of bullying in this world like cyber bullying which incidentally includes death which is scary, but i believe in a perfect world, bullying doesn't exist, well we don't live in that world obviously, and there's this movie called Another Earth, which looks kinda cool, you should check the trailer on youtube.

Anyway, we got to talk a little, asking bout he's job, and all sorts of crap, saying he changed his habits, okay i kinda understand that a little bit now, actually i have no words.

Okay, looking into more things to write about, i have to say, buying an air purifier is without a doubt the most pointless thing i ever bought, well see, i didn't bought it with my money, my mom had like 2k points in SenQ, so she decided to redeem all the points, well i got like a dual blade shaver which is kinda cool cause it's actually rechargeable, which in most case it is not, actually most people don't even have the privileged to use a shaver with automatic blades, most of them use manual and you don't hear them complaining.

Anything today, actually there's nothing that i found interesting today, it's just a normal day, well except that my shoulders hurt when i'm walking around and my parents pin pointed me that only a little walk makes my body aches, well it's been a while since i've walked, by walked i meant went outside, you probably know me by now that i don't do out a lot.

So there's this test coming up next month, and to be honest, i haven't study for it yet, plus my report isn't even done yet, but it seems like i'm not the only one, but still i'm worrying about it now, i really feel careless, it's like i have nothing to look forward to and i hate it, i wish there's something that i would look forward too, suddenly my life felt empty, which is sad, obviously, well, for once in my life, i want to do something productive other than watching television, playing online games, or writing in some pointless (EHEM!!...) blog, that was directed at me, i see some people do that kinda stuff and i feel the need to follow them, okay i'll come up with something original, (Excuse Me!) there..

Anyway, it's been fun talking to you, although this is not a video, have you ever seen vloggers, the thing i like about vloggers is when you're watching their video, and of course you'll know that it's just a video, but you watch it, and it's kinda like you're talking to some one, well actually they're talking to you, you'll feel like they're talking to you, and it's kinda great to me that vloggers has that ability to make the viewers feel like they're talking to them, i don't know if Vloggers are aware of that, cause you see, from what i can observe from their point of view is that, they're talking to a camera, which is a little awkward, but then, the result of them being like talking to you in front of your screen is amazing, well that's just me..

Hybrid Cars

Yesterday, my parents brought me to breakfast at Foo Phing, it's this restaurant at Lintas, it's a Dim Sum Restaurant, when i was a kid i used to go to Sea Park near Damai, i don't really know why i'm talking about foods.

Anyway, so there was this car parked in front, it was a Toyota Prius, i knew Prius for about 5 years now, i don't know Prius in detail, i just know that it's a car that is a hybrid car, anyway, i was really shocked yesterday, this lady who owns the Prius went in to her car, and instantly, she drove, i was like "Is that car a ghost?", i didn't even hear the engine, and she instantly drove, yeah shocking thing, i mean when my mom drive, she would at least wait a couple of more seconds before moving on, it's really weird, i didn't even hear she starting the engine.

At that time i was sure that she was rich, and my dad told me that she's a lawyer, hmm make sense, i kinda thought that the car cost like 200k bucks, but today i went for my own mini research and found out that it actually cost 140K, i don't know did they slashed the price down or anything, but it's still expensive, but the Prius isn't the only hybrid car around town, i don't know really how many are out there, but the other one that i know is the Honda Civic which is slightly cheaper than the Prius which cost around 90K, which is hefty to me since i can't even spend 10K, how the hell am i gonna spend 90K, but seriously, cars are for people who have jobs, i mean i swore to myself i won't drive and here i am thinking about cars.

Sooner or later, my uncle told me that Proton would be releasing their own Hybrid car, it's a little bit old news but i didn't think that they would go through with it, the car is called Proton Emas which is an electronic car, but my uncle told me they recently planning to release it as a hybrid car, which i think would be expensive, but let's see how expensive it is.

So yeah, hybrid cars, why won't they just make a teleportation portal yet? it's so much easier, you just go into a door and leave from another door. Argh. Teleportation portal might be the future for traveling and transportation, but i don't think it's approved yet, i don't think it's even designed yet, it's still in those space age times, which is way into the future, somehow i wish i can drag the future to the present instead of waiting for it to come.

P For Palui

No offense for people who actually passed the driving test, hey, i'm one of you, but that's an inside joke, but probably people already know it, but if you don't know it, this happened a long time ago, probably when i was a little small kid, maybe not that small, anyway me uncle was passing this car that had a "P" sticker on the car, so he says "P" stands for Palui, it's not really an offend if anything, just humor, as if L is for Lidut, meaning slow.

Anyway, i just got a message from my tutor saying that my "P" license is done, he was suppose to send it today, but i didn't have the money, i actually need to pay 570 bucks, and it's not even my money, but still, that's a heft amount of cash, well, my parents wanted me to drive anyway, guess that's the price they literally have to pay.

Future plans for driving, non actually, i don't plan to go anywhere, i just wanna sit back and sleep all day, not really, if anything, i went to Perdana Park probably 2 times now with my aunt with my cousin, have to say, i don't feel anything, tired yes, but i don't feel the burn, yeah i'm only doing this because my aunt says she wanted to lose weight or something, it's not that, aah, it's hard to say, i tried like so many things, but i've never really stucked onto it, something just get in the way, i just hope when i'm ready and i can finally stuck on it, i can finally finish what i've started.

Strings!, yeah me and my dad went to a music shop to buy some guitar strings, i've been a little bit, i don't know what's the word i'm looking for, anyway, my cousin had this guitar and the strings on his guitar are freakishly soft which makes it easy to play, so my dad asked him about the strings, now i don't talk to my cousin for a long time now, i don't really know what happened between us, we used to be so close, anyway, he text him asking for the name of the strings, and he got no respond from him, but after a while he did respond, well if he didn't respond at all i wouldn't be surprise.

Anyway, the strings are called, D'Addario? it's seriously soft, but sadly the guitar that my dad just bought are, kinda cheap, so the sound that it produce aren't as nearly nice as my cousin guitar, and my dad wasted a whole set of strings, luckily he bought 2, but sadly the big ol' guitar strings won't be changed.

Yeah so that's how my day went, leave me a message on the comment below, trying if that line actually works, seem to work on youtube.

I FRIGGIN PASSED!

I don't mean to be rude, but i'm so proud at myself right now, right here, this moment, in this time and day and month of year where the skies are blue and the wind are always passing and the sun never seem so yellow and birds chirping.. yeah yeah yeah.

So today, you know what it is, it's my JPJ test, of course like most people i was awkwardly nervous, so the day started with me waking up, i thought that it had already passed 6 or something cause the tutor was suppose to pick me up at 7.30am, but the clock was only showing 5.45am, so i slept back, that morning i was feeling so cold, not that it help me cause i was already nervous, nervous makes me cold, i wonder if i could survive in the hottest heat and just be nervous, i wonder if that would work, you know making my body cold, shivering.

After waiting, he finally pick me, but there was a guest, i never had a guest before, it's always me and the tutor, so it's really different, and i usually drive the the driving place, but this time i didn't which is good i guess, cause i don't really like driving, but i kinda have to, so i sat at the back, and the guest sat in the front, she was also taking the JPJ test like me, we didn't talk a lot, she did talk to me at first, but she was speaking chinese so i didn't really understand, then the tutor told her that i couldn't speak chinese, then she stopped, and then we arrive at that place and she was the first to test drive and she did really well, although it's a bit slow, i really shouldn't critic, i mean i'm not so great, and she was just being careful, and she makes a lot of funny faces when she was trying to park the car, she went for 2 rounds before it's my turn.

After 2 rounds, it was my turn, and i feel more comfortable this time than the other times that i did, then it was the hill part, i've always had trouble, not that i fall all the way, but after i release the hand break, i always drop a little bit before i go forward, but then she gave me probably the best advice that my tutor didn't mention, he probably did, but i probably didn't hear it, anyway the advice was at the middle of the hill, when you're already hand-breaking, and after you balanced the car, rev the gas till the meter hit more than 3, surprisingly at the second round, it went smoothly, it didn't dropped, it just went through, that was awesome, i should've thanked her, but, i don't know, i'm just awkward, but after 2 rounds then finally it was time to test.

Basically, it's just taking number and wait for the JPJ, i guess the JPJ were okay, they got me waiting anxiously, i was shaking from top to bottom, i can't calm myself, of course that was only in my head, seriously i felt cold when i'm nervous.

Then the test began, they started off with the second part which is the hill, parking, and that 3 movement thing. The hill was okay, the parking was surprisingly okay, and the 3 movement was also okay, of course at that time i didn't know, in my head was FAIL! FAIL! FAIL!, but then they asked us to go to the hut where the JPJ are marking our score, surprisingly, i passed, i was so happy at that moment, i didn't know that i could do it, but i am freakishly happy when that guy told me that i passed, sadly it wasn't the end for me cause part 3 is coming next.

Part 3 is the road test, i was agitated, cause i almost fail on the pre-test, but it was a long time before it was my turn, actually not at all, it was the wait that was long, i was worried for the proton cause the signal stick is at the left side instead of the right side and i wasn't use to it, but when it was my turn, i actually had a chance to use the Viva which i never used before but it's similar to the Kancil since it's a Perodua car, i guess i'm a little bit relieved, then it started off, the Viva was surprisingly big, even though it looks like a small car from the outside, but i still prefer the Proton Saga cause it's a sedan, well it went well, except that the engine died twice, near the hill, the hill was between left and ride, it's not the test hill, but it's the road test hill, but i could handle it, just turn on the engine, but then it died again, when i was in the round-about when i had already went in and the engine died suddenly, it was shocking cause i've never made the engine died in the middle of the round-about, thankfully it was a small round-about and there's not much car.

I guess till that point nothing worries me, and i felt okay, except that i almost hit more than 60 almost couple of times, but i was just in time for my eye to catch the meter, i thought i was gonna fail because of the dead engine, but i passed, i couldn't be more happier, i've never been this happy since i, i, i.., i can't remember the last time i was that happy, i've never been happy really,

I'm just thankful to god, honestly, that i passed the test, but the score was still the same as the pre-test, it was 16/20, i don't know, maybe i still got issues, but i passed, i passed when i thought that i would fail, i passed when i thought that there's no hope for me to passed.

The lesson that i probably learn here, if you believe in yourself in the right amount, you can do it, wow i sound so uninspiring, but seriously to all those who are taking their driving license, good to you all, and have a safe ride.

Finally I CAN DRIVE!, probably the reason i learn to drive is so that i could move the car when my parents are double parking, instead of waiting for them, there were times, but now i can reverse, wee, probably the only thing i'm gonna do with a car, is to move it away so that people can go.

NO MORE DEAD ENGINE!

Finally, after numerous times of training and.. yeah you get the point, today was not really about learning, it's about getting use to the car cause tomorrow is the moment of truth!, i don't really get what moment of truth means, but i feel like it's like revealing something important, i'm just guessing, cause that's what most people are using that word for, although it's been a while since i've heard anyone say that word anymore.

Anyway as the title says, finally, a perfect day, not really, i just like to imagine how a perfect day is, actually i wanted to drive the other car which is the Old Kancil cause i have a little bit problem with that car, but i got to use the same ol' car, i was a little bit let down, cause i seriously want to get used to that car cause it's actually the car that i'm gonna be using tomorrow for the test, and if i failed, i swore to.. yeah i'm just saying stuff, but seriously though, i didn't have much time with that old crappy car, it isn't actually that bad, but the engine fail on me so many times and the fact that i'm gonna be using the same car freaks the hell out of me, i thought we we're gonna used the new car, oh well, it can't be that bad could it? i don't know cause i actually did fine with the car except for the dead engine, but the tutor say tomorrow the car would be different, let's just hope it's way better than the car that i used last time, i guess i'm a little confident now that i have done all the training, i guess i need that confidence now more than ever, even though i don't really like driving, actually, it's not that i don't like driving, but learning to drive is okay, but i seriously can't picture myself driving a car for real, it's just too much power for me and i'm a weak person, i shouldn't been allowed to drive a friggin car, yeah, but you can't always get what you want can you?

I remember in high school, my friend and my cousins are all eager to drive, well that make sense since they actually got friends, me not so much, and now it's my turn, just hope that i did well as they did, if only an auto-pilot car would have arrive here more earlier, i wouldn't have been stuck in this mess.

Singing In The Rain

For most people who actually live in KK, i bet you know that it rained heavily during 3-4pm, or maybe later i don't know, but yeah, it rained heavily and i was bored playing with my iPad, then i turn up some song, then i realize, it's raining, there's probably no one could hear you, like the last time on my Vlog, i did a vlog while it rained so that no one hears me, so that's exactly what i did just now, i sang while it's raining, and i don't know is it the rain, but i think i sang a little bit better then i usually do, cause i don't sing a lot, cause i know i suck, but then, it's raining anyway, so i thought what the hell, it's not like anyone can hear me sing while it's raining, so even if it sucked no one could hear me, so i sang, and surprisingly, i could sing a little bit higher than i usually do, normally i would sing lower, same reason, so that no one can hear me, but when i sing lower, i can't sing high, when the high part comes in, i immediately sucked.

But sadly, the rain didn't last long, i only lasted one song, i was like trying to see more to see if i could sing more better than suddenly the rain stops, but i thought when you sing it rained, it's weirdly the opposite for me, it stops raining when i sing, probably it's the same thing but different direction, maybe the rain stop so that i can't sing anymore.

Anyway here's the thing, when i was small and i was with my cousin at his house, we kinda have this anthem that we usually sing together, i don't know if you still recall the song called lemon tree by fools garden, back then we used to sing that song every time, and here's the weird thing, every time we sing that song when it rain, it stops, the rain friggin stops, i don't know why it stops maybe it's a coincidence, maybe it's i don't know, but till today, it happened again!, like something that had already happen maybe 8-10 years ago happened again.

So i don't know, maybe when it rains again i might sing, for you try yourself when it rains again, who knows, maybe you could stop raining by singing too. Might sound crazy.

I Went To D Dentist!

Today i went the dentist, well it was a long overdue appointment, to be honest i'm kinda scared, cause the last couple of times that i went there, i mean it wasn't bad, but it wasn't pleasant either, so every time during the day of the appointment i kept making excuses for not going, kinda reminds me when i was in school when i used to give cheezy excuses to my mom so that i don't have to go to school, well all that was fun until college, i found out you can't do that, even when you're sick it will be count as absent, i guess it's a little unfair, but on the other hand, it's slowly changing me so that i will always go to school every single day, day and night and i'm not even joking, some of the class are at night, but not always.

Anyway, so today was probably the longest date of the appointment cause i kept asking my mom to postpone it, well i kinda have to go, but this morning i was hoping that i didn't have to go, i mean i even passed my appointment, it was actually at 9.30, but it really passed, but then my mom called me telling me to get ready, i was like "What?", isn't the appointment passed already?, doesn't really matter, cause the last time, i was also late, so i went, i was feeling nervous as i got closer to the door, unknowingly what's about to happen to me after i passed the door, well the good news is that i got a new dentist, the old dentist, i didn't really like her so much, but the new dentist, well she's pretty, and her assistant is also pretty, so i thought that was a good start, yeah but then it was kinda late, and they're about to finish off their day, like i told you earlier, dentist seriously go back early, that's one of my reason why i think dentist are cool, while most of the people are working from 9-5, they're just working from 9-11.30am.

I have to say it didn't hurt as much as the last time i went to the dentist, the last time was really horrifying, well not really, just not pleasant, but today was a big surprise, i didn't actually feel any pain, okay there was some, but it wasn't bad, cause after i felt that pain, she immediately stop, if compare to the last time, she just drilled my teeth away, but the bad news is that they're out of time so my tooth is kinda left with a big friggin hole, the first thing i thought is "damn, how am i gonna eat?", and seriously there's a hole in my tooth, but they're not done yet, but something strange happen, i don't know why she did it, but she pinch my cheeks, i mean i don't really mind, but i just thought that i'm grown up and no one will ever pinch my cheeks anymore, well the last time i remember my cheeks being pinch was when i was in high school when my teacher squeeze my cheeks so hard that it became red, and some other students also squeeze it, but i don't know why she did it, if it was my reason, i'm just guessing she's curious of how soft my cheek is, but from her point of view i think she's just trying to comfort me after opening my mouth so big and wider for a long time.

I have to say that appointment was so much better than the last time, then i waited a long time waiting for my mom cause i kinda got lost and my phone isn't with me, so they took a really long time to find me, kinda like a lost child in a shopping complex, but eventually they found me, then we went to Karamunsing Kompleks, cause for days my dad kept saying that he wanted to buy the ukelele, well finally today he did, not only that he also bought a guitar, it was cheap about 100 bucks, but the Ukelele, i think this is how you're suppose to pronounce it "You-Ke-Ley-Le", but most of the time's people just pronounce it as "You-Ke-Le-Le", and i don't know how to play the "You-Ke-Ley-Le", but it's still early, so far i can only play the Happy Birthday Song, after we bought the guitar and the Ukelele, i finally got my glasses from McDonalds, but sadly it's Pink, but if you look at it really closely, it's not actually pink, kinda purplish, but i'm gonna buy the next week color, which is Lime, Lime is actually kinda cool, and the meal just cost 11 bucks, which i think is okay, cause i got foods and glass, the last time i ate McDonalds i'm labeling it as the crappiest food i've ever tasted, but as of today, i'm labeling it as the saltiest food i've ever eat, hmmm, maybe i should be a food critic.

But seriously though, that's a huge upgrade to me from crappiest to saltiest, but i think it's the place where they're selling it, i don't know if it has any factor to being salty, but regularly the Porridge that i ate from McDonalds aren't that salty, but this one is, i thought that it was the fries cause i ate the fries the same time i ate the porridge, but the second time i ate the porridge, it kinda reveals its true self, all in all it was a good day.

And next week is my JPJ test!, seriously, WT*, i thought that it was gonna be next month! time for pros and cons.

Pros:For the JPJ test happening next week

-Actually finish my whole driving fiasco

-I can finally drive! which i highly doubt that i would do

-I'm finish and i don't have to do practically anything anymore.

-Finally obtain my "P", *If i passed the test.

Cons:For the JPJ test happening next week

-I might failed, cause even the QTI i was one point from failing

-actually that's about it, i'm scared of failing, oh yeah, and if i do failed, that's bye-bye 110 bucks for repeating.

Pros:For the JPJ test happening next month

-Get me some time to be ready, although i think it's not necessary.

-Actually that's about it, i'm seriously scared of failing.

Cons:For the JPJ test happening next month

-I'm gonna have to wait till next month till i finally obtain my "P"

-Can't really drive, i don't know why that's even a concern for me, "I DON'T WANNA DRIVE!" *Screaming loudly in my head

-Actually waiting for the test happening next week isn't really much of a pros, i mean if and only IF i failed on my test next week, at least i got some more time to repeat it, well i'm gonna start praying.

I Passed The Pre-Test

Thankfully, i've passed it, even though it might have not been my best, actually, i was nearly failing, like by one point, thank god it's enough, yeah i kinda prayed a little bit, i thought i was gonna have to do all the things, but turns out, i only have to drive around the area which is good, cause at the hill when i use the old Kancil, the engine was dead and i have to go back up again, it was kinda hard using the old kancil cause i was already used to the new kancil, difference:

Cons: Old Kancil

-The engine dies without explanation

-Have to use the gas every time you move, even reverse

Pros:Old Kancil

The steering is a lil bit lose which makes it more easier to maneuver the car.

I think that's about it.

The new Kancil was a lil bit easy to use, probably cause i spent 8 hours on it, but after the 2 hours, i waited a lil bit for the Pre-Test, i was so friggin nervous, like every time a car pass by i thought that it was gonna be that car that i was about to drive, my heart beats so much, even though it was a false alarm, but after a while the car came, and i was like "oh great, i'm ready to fail", when i went into the car, the Proton Saga was actually quite nice, i don't know why, but it's a lot better than the kancil, i didn't really have a problem using the Proton Saga except for the signal stick is on the left instead of the right, i got confused so many time and that was one of the marks that i was deducted, i thought i did great until, around the roundabout, i was about to turn left but i didn't really see the car coming on the left, so he kinda hit the brake other wise i would hit it, then he said "Be careful a little bit", of course he didn't speak in English, but you get the point, yeah at that moment i thought i was doom, i was sure to fail, but after that, went back safely to the driving place, then he hand me out the result which i didn't really know how to read, i thought i failed cause i' saw a lot of fishes on the box, by fishes i mean the X mark, they kinda make it look like a fish, but then my tutor told me i passed, well i was relieved a little bit, so now i'm getting ready for the JPJ test, oh man, currently i don't feel anything, but i know soon enough the feeling of anxiousness and nervousity will come to haunt me.

Oh yeah one other thing, i had a problem with changing the gear on the proton cause the friggin steering wheel blocked my view and i was kinda have to duck a little bit to see the speedometer, and that was one of the point that i was deducted by not changing the gear according to the speed that i'm currently at, well it's a little bit hard to see and when i'm in the third gear and at 40mph, i didn't feel the heaviness of the gas as which i had felt during driving the Kancil, so i thought different car maybe there's a lil bit difference, but no, and one thing, i didn't know that the proton steering could be changed, seriously though, the tester didn't even mention about it, how was i suppose to know you could change it. Well, all in all it went well, i'm thankful that i've passed, and now, yeah it's friggin my brains out, well the good news is that i don't have any more hours on learning, except one more for the refreshing before the JPJ test, yeah, but i'm seriously not looking forward to drive on my own, i rather be drove than drive, i don't know why.

Okay thanks.

Say What You Wanna Say

Okay honestly, i'm scared right now, for two things, firstly, okay the first things is kinda two things, the first one is that i haven't finish my report, oh man, i kinda have like a month left till i go back, and my time is actually up, i'm not even working anymore, i don't know why am i being such a lazy ass, but i have to force myself to take an effort to finish it or i'm doomed, i have to like, think of every single day is the last minute and tomorrow is gonna be the day i'm gonna send it in, yeah that would totally work my ass up, anyway, the second thing of the first thing is that i'm gonna have a BM exam next month, if you read my blog you know that i didn't do so well in my BM test, actually i passed, just not credited, and i took it again, and still i didn't passed, why? i don't know, but to be honest, BM wasn't my greatest subject, i did not like it, not one bit, there's a lot of reason, but explaining all of that reason would just remind me of why i hate that subject, but right now i need to be in a place where i actually like the subject cause i have to get credited in that subject, so far, i'm thinking differently, i'm gonna feel like i can conquer all the things, you know what's that called? it's called confidence, yeah i lacked confidence and without confidence, you don't have any motivation towards stuff, which is why i'm probably not the brightest person, but i seriously feel like i could do it and it's just that i let myself be that way i don't know why, i feel like a smart person trapped in a lazy body, yeah that's an excuses, but that could prove that i could get out of this lazy body and be who i truly am, i don't know cause people usually judge you if you're smart by the result that you get on your test, see i get that, but that doesn't necessarily means if you get a low mark on your test, you're a dumb person, noooooo, you're just not making an effort to try to succeed, i don't know, but there's something blocking you from making that effort, you have to find that thing and break it so that you could be free and not be labelled again, i guarantee you if you actually study you would at least pass or get good grades, i can't guarantee you to get an A but with a little effort, it's possible.

Another thing about learning, i learn that, the exam paper doesn't really cover all the topics of the subject, but us being a student, bust our ass day and night trying to cover the whole friggin book just to be safe, see that's a good thing, but it's mental abuse, i mean for one person to cover all the books in what, 1, 2 weeks, sometimes even days, okay i might've exaggerated a little bit cause most test that are given are mostly topics that you have already covered in that week or month, but exams, okay i kinda get it a little bit now, but still, i kinda feel that we don't actually have to cover all topic in the books, you know what we need? it's a little bit risky but it would save you from not reading the entire book, and it's not guarantee that reading the book wholly would get you an "A" cause, you probably won't remember the stuff you just read. So the best thing that i could probably do is, firstly listen to your teachers when they're giving you tips that might be coming up in the exams, cause they have experiences when it comes to these things, and most of the time they're right, wanna know why? cause they're probably the one who made the friggin papers, second of all, you have to use your predictive sense, you kinda have to know what's gonna come in that paper and focus on that, see that's risky cause you can't be certain.

But the things i hate the most is, when i spent a whole semester of 6 months and when it comes to the exam, not even one of the things that i've learn in both class and books came out in the exam, you know what i got? a friggin C!, i mean i should be thankful that i didn't fail, but still, if i knew even a little bit about what's going on in that paper, i could probably get an B, but see, non of the things that the lecturers taught me came up in the paper, and the worst part of it was, like few days before the exam day she told us that the papers are made by another lecturer and the topic that he taught to his students are completely different from the topic that she taught us, and at the exam i was thinking, okay seriously, none of the stuff that i learn are in here, what the hell am i gonna do? i can't fail, if i fail i'm gonna repeat this subject next semester, but the thing that struck me the most is that spending all that time learning and none of it comes up in the exam paper is really frustrating, it's kinda like spending time on something that's useless, like why are we even learning those stuff in the first place if it wasn't gonna be in that test, isn't that why we learned all those stuff? so that we can pass the test? okay i'm done.

Next up, Driving, so i've been learning to drive about 3 times now, 3 x 2 hours = 6 hours, so it was 3 days, the first day went well, even though there was dead engine, i think dead engine is unavoidable by every new learners, like everyone will experience dead engine every once in a while, but it's not so bad once you get the hang of it, by hang of it i mean understanding why the engine is dead and how to avoid it, and now, i'm finally learning how to avoid it, although at the beginning i had a dead engine myself, i was just about to start and mid way after stopping i tried something and it didn't work and the engine was dead, but at the end, i finally know how to avoid dead engine, i would always worried about the engine being dead when i stop cause that's usually the time when you have to balance the clutch and the gas, but i didn't learn it thoroughly, i just thought that you would slowly release the clutch and press the gas, but today it was different, and it's really helpful, see you actually have to release the clutch and press the gas, but here's the catch, hold on to the clutch and wait for the car to move forward a little bit and then fully release the clutch, and the car would even move smoothly, and it won't move like a horse or something, yeah, the first 2 days of learning is both surprisingly fun and horrible scary experience for me, it's fun cause you're actually learning how to drive, something people would actually eager to learn since they can go away with their friends at night and go back early in the morning, but i'm not that type of person, in fact, i was even trying to avoid not to drive, like seriously though, if i could, i would wait till there's an auto-pilot car so that i won't drive or even have to learn how to drive, or probably just get a driver or something like that, but since i was in Mukah, people kept bragging about how it's cheap taking a driving license there compare to my hometown, so i thought i should take it, i may not be interested in driving, but i'm trying not to use my money, cause i hate money, i hate it cause if you use some, you need to find a way to get more, and it's an endless cycle of people being greedy, and i hate that people solely rely on it to survive, i kinda wish that we have others things to look forward to instead of making big cash and have a glamorous life.

Yeah, but since my friend was also taking it, i thought i hop in, and so i did, sitting, listening for the course, then taking the test 3 times, cause i failed the last 2, and thankfully i passed the third one, and it's not over, oh no, see Mukah is a small town, it's kinda like people don't really care, so i passed my test, but they didn't really call me to pay for the license and what to bring to them, and they're always making excuses like when my friend was trying to learn to drive, they say that their car broke down, and my friend really wait a long time, so i kept asking him bout it, till one day he wanted to take back his money because the people weren't notifying him about anything, so he went, and you know what? some miracle(sarcasm) happened, like suddenly their car is okay and it's ready to drive, yeah when people are trying to take their money away from you, ahhh, so i've stayed, and i asked, cause my friend actually get his "P" license after that, and i was interested too because why am i not, it's hard to explained, so i asked if i could do it too, but they say it's too late, cause it was nearly to the end of the semester and we were all busy with exam coming up, but the incredible thing is that my friend actually finished his 8 hours and he got his "P" license directly, like seriously, wt*, and now i'm here, learning 8 hours for 4 days and there's a QTI coming up tomorrow and a JPJ test coming up and i'm friggin scared right now, and he just gets it in one day, see how unfair it is, but then again Mukah is a small town and they don't really have to worry about traffic there, so that's another reason of why i wanted to take a driving license there, but instead i took it here, while i'm still here. Well at least i'm taking it when i'm not doing anything.

So tomorrow is the last 2 hours of the 8 hours of learning and straight up for the QTI test which is like the pre-test before the JPJ, my problems, i don't really have any problems on the driving as i have finally figured out how to actually drive without having a dead engine, but i'm still worry about the roads, cause there's a special road that you have to take and bring the QTI around which i'm still not familiar to it, so i'm a lil scared about that. But the best thing in life is confidence, if you have confidence you can conquer anything, yeah i just hope i have enough confidence to get it through, cause i don't wanna fail, i've spent a considerable amount of time failing at life, and to be honest, it's not a great feeling, it's depressing, and i don't wanna go through that again, and seriously, for once in my life i want to pass, i don't wanna fail anymore, i wanna pass and let that be the thing that i'm looking forward in my life which is passing in everything and put everything that i have failed in my life behind me and take it as a lesson in life.

Lesson learned at failing life: Failing is not a great feeling and there's no reward when you fail.

Thinking Of Stuff

I have lots of things in my head right now, mostly ideas, seriously just being selfish and thinking how the world would be better around us, right now i'm thinking about a virtual room and carbonated drinks shots, okay i'll give you a little bit of idea about what it is.

Virtual Room is, well a virtual room, an empty space with all the things you can imagine being in that room, i had a long talk with my dad about this stuff, actually i've intended to use it at competition called start-up weekend where they gave 20K the the winners of the best ideas, and i didn't join, mostly because i was terrified, cause there's gonna be a pitching session where each person was given 1 minute to talk about the ideas that they have, see i'm not good at explaining things, even more when i'm explaining it into a large crowd, but i tried cause i was eager to get that 20K, seriously 20K being hand out for the best ideas, and i have a few, so what do i have to lose, well i was gonna go there anyway because my family are the one in charge of the catering, so i'm helping my mom bringing all the foods the the place, well my mom was also interested in joining, and i'm still a little bit nervous, but at the end, we didn't join, cause apparently, they've already divided the team, so it's a little bit too late, i'm a lil bit happy and a lil bit sad, i'm happy cause i don't have to force myself to do anything, and i'm sad cause i missed out a chance to get 20K.

So the idea of Virtual Room is really simple, there's gonna be a projector that can project 3D object so that the things you're seeing appears real to your eyes, but it's not, and here's the thing, there's this stuff called augmented reality, i thought it would be fun to use it to they're advantage, but current augmented reality software require you to use a technology that has a camera such as mobile phones, smart phones, basically anything with a camera, most notable is with games, like PS3 and Xbox360 which is practically augmented reality cause they use a camera to track your motion that enables the user to maneuver the game play and instead of of pushing buttons to play the game, you're actually playing the game, but the thing is that you're playing it in a screen, which is as real as it gets, but i'm thinking, making it real, like real real, but not so much real cause there's only so much that technology can do, so i'm thinking like the projector could project the game into that empty space and you're inside it meaning you're inside the game and with the help of augmented reality, you can move things around you, doesn't that sound simple, sure, i barely made it through explaining, so there were lots of ideas, but i don't know anything about the technology, i don't know the existence of it, but i heard that Microsoft is making something similar, but instead they're gonna make like virtual office of something, i didn't read it through, but it's good stuff.

And the second thing is that, i don't know but i'm calling it Carbonated Drinks Shot, you know shot right? not the shooting gun type of shot, but you've seen movies where people get drunk and nasty on the floor, what made em that way? well it's that tiny glass filled with hard liquor that's what, see shots are meant to be as minimal as it could be, because even that tiny amount of liquor could make you drunk silly, i don't know cause i don't drink, but it's amusing to see people make silly things when they drink, i don't know why, but i'm feeling like drinking a shot myself, but not the alcoholic type, instead of alcohols, i'm gonna use soft drinks such as Coca-Cola, Sprite, i don't know, most of the soft drink, so they're gonna be like that, the shot is filled with those drinks, to be honest, i couldn't even finish a can of soft drink, cause the gas is really hard to drink, they're popping in your mouth, so with shot, you're only gonna drink it once, similar to a shot where it is easy to drink, instead you won't get drunk, and kids could probably drink and not get drunk, i mean soft drink is the next best thing.

Yeah, so they could have like mini pack of 6 soft drink, that would be cool, and you can like drink one or 2 and keep the rest, and the next is kinda similar, know the big soft drink bottles, well it kinda bums me out whenever i wanna drink, well mostly when i'm with my family, i can't drink it straight cause one, it's kinda disgusting drinking it by yourself, cause once you put your mouth in that bottle, it's kinda like yours and people will hate you, second of all, you can't really finish that drink all by yourself, it's 1.5 liters of soft drink, if you drink it all, you're gonna get yourself diabetes, so what i'm suggesting is that they make a special type of shot glass that has lines that could be close the bottle, kinda like the normal cap, instead it's bigger like a shot glass, and the best part is that you can drink a little amount of the soft drink without getting your lips in the bottle, the problem is, even when you're drinking the bottle, and you're trying not to put it on your lips, the chances are you're gonna spill it all over your shirt, and that's not a happy feeling.

Okay, so that's 2 and i'm glad i got it out of my chest cause it's been bugging me all month, i need space for new ideas!, anyway, hope you like it, i don't know, maybe in few years there would be stuff like that, i wish i could draw or write the technical of all these stuff so that there would be progress of what my ideas would be, cause right now, it's just words, and words aren't gonna turn into anything, unless, i don't know, what sort of powers can get things done. Well i'm done for the day, i had a blast learning to drive, even though it's scary, i'm gonna sleep, because, i think i'm out of reasons.

Entirely Out Of Topic

Okay, first thing i've noticed is that the font style of blog post has totally change, and i'm not planning on changing them, not because i'm lazy, but because it's fate, fate wanted it to be that way, so i'm just gonna give fate what it wants.

Second of all, blogspot has been down for how many days again? well i surely did not care since i did not blog almost vividly these few days, weeks, give it months, so i'm not really mad about it, i wish it could've been longer so i don't feel like i'm forced to do this post, not that i am, but basic rules, if you're bored, you blog.

Third of all, I'm learning to drive, don't wanna elaborate bout that.

Fourth of all, last weekend was catering week, and do we cater? well, it was pretty, TIRING, i'm not a hard labor so all of the things that i did was, let's say it's not perfect, yeah, but, see i'm not used to being bossed around, of course my parents call me every single time they need me to do anything, now i seriously wish i had a brother or a sister so that they can help me out, oh wait, on a second thought, no i don't, see i have a little cousin, i don't know why, but little kids seem to hate me, WHY? WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH?, seriously, what did i possibly do to make you hate me, well seriously though, i didn't do anything, but see to them, i'm like this feelingless big punching bag, i hate kids, but i will have them when i get married, or something like that.

Seriously though, i bet all the kids in the world hate me for no particular reason, do i hate them? not really, but once they start to bug me, i will hate them, seriously, i wasn't a brat when i was a kid, wait, was i, oh yeah NO, i was practically an angel, err seriously, i was, qy, wait how do you say that word, QUAI,KUAI, something like that, which means, wait what does it means, is it disciplines? okay, i do have my fair share of being scold by my parents, but see, that actually helps me to be a better person, now that i don't do anything wrong, my parents scream at me for no reason, but most of the time, i raise my voice because they're not listening.

See, i thought having a brother or sister would help me so much, and yesterday i realize that, it didn't, my cousin is actually, one lazy pain in the ass, kinda like me except without the pain in the ass, i'll give you lazy, but i won't annoy you if i don't get something, maybe with my dad, but that was a long time ago, and i won't hit you or.. ahh man, that kid is just straight up annoying, and seriously, out of respect, i mean i'm older, i should get the respect i deserve, see growing up, i have 2 cousins, and i have nothing but respect for them, so did i thought, i don't know i was a kid, i made mistakes, i like having them around when i was a kid, but the thing is they always go back every time they come, so yeah, but then, few years later, they came to stay in my house, i don't know why, but i was weird to them, i start to bug them for the least part, but not as much as my little cousin, see when i bug people, i only bug them till the minimum level, but when my cousin does it, he bug, well me to the maximum level, seriously they are lots of people in that room like my grandma, his mother, my mother, my uncle, but stilllll, oh man, i'm feeling like this post is useless, but my title explains it already, oh well.

So yeah, he wasn't much of a help, mainly because i carried all the things in the car by my own despite her mother asked her to help me but he didn't do anything, all he did was carry the polystyrene cup, yeah big help. And it bugs me, okay i kept saying bug, because it's like he has no ears, see, i promise him that i would give him a game but tomorrow, but he kept asking for it and starting hitting me for no reason, and the worst part of all is that his mother was there and she did nothing, NOTHING, i wish i could scream, but i'm not a screamer, well no intentionally anyway, i only scream accidentally, there's like a wild beast inside me that's being kept in a cage, but once the cage is left open, yeah you get the point.

All i can say is that he's spoiled, yeah i can say it because i've seen it, i would consider my self spoiled too, but not as bad as him, see most spoiled kids are alone, by alone i meant an only child, so i guess, he's like taking the chances that he has to bug me, cause let's face it, without me, he'll have no one to bug and the world will be a better place, why am i spoiled?, i don't know, i asked my parents if i'm spoiled, as you can guess, they say now, i think they're trying to protect me or something, but the truth is, i am spoiled to say the least, and the kinda of spoiled that you can actually see instead of feel i guess, cause every single time, people actually knew that i'm an only child just by looking at me, okay that's not a good sign, cause that means i'm transparent, i mean who in the world wanna be transparent, that's like the worst thing to be.

Yeah, i'm getting bored writing, maybe i'll have something better in the back of my head that i will post on the next post. See i don't feel anything.

YawnING

Finally, today, i played badminton, that's about it, and i still sucked..

All in all, i'm glad i played badminton today, but i don't know what the reason is, well i'm glad for no apparent reason.

But the weird thing is that, after playing badminton, my parents bought me out to eat, of course i was hesitant, but there's something else so i had to go, and i just sat at the table just sitting and drinking, i didn't eat anything, but at last, at home, i gave up, i don't know maybe it's the badminton thing, probably i used up all my energy and couldn't hold any longer, but i didn't ate much, pretty much what my mom couldn't finish, which is about 3 table spoon worth of food.

Oh wait, that's not the weird part, it's just that, you would usually yawn when you're tired, so along the way, i guess i am tired, i kept yawning every minute, i don't know why, i mean i'm tired, but i'm not that tired till i feel like i'm about to sleep, it's just that i'm scared that this might happen to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kp8AzHIC0hM

That's pretty scary, and it actually happened to me, well not that bad, but i did feel like it hurt when i'm yawning, but thankfully, it didn't go all the way like that, cause that would be pretty scary.

So yeah, i'm tired now, talking bout yawning is tiring, oh and also, there's something bout yawning that's actually contagious, mythbuster did a test on it, gonna check it out on youtube.

DisappoinTED

Yeah i was disappointed yesterday, i mean, that's why i titled it disappointed, other wise there will be no point as in why i had put disappointed with a capital TED at the end as my title, yeah, i'm a little weird, but it seems fun putting capital letters at the end of the words.

Anyway, remember yesterday? oh how i long for yesterday, well at least until it was before 5pm yesterday, i was up all day, and i watched a game of badminton on youtube, and i was psyched to play yesterday with my dad, and i even came down to hold the racket to show how enthusiastic i was to play badminton yesterday, and to point that the grip of the racket needs to be changed, it's like it's being eaten, there's some spots there and when you hold it there's black substances coming off of it, but i don't think i would buy the grip anytime soon, cause my mom is in her 5-day exam, Good Luck Mom, although the chances of her seeing this is pretty slim, but i still trust you.

So yeah, i've literally waited till it was about 5pm cause that's usually the time we play badminton, actually no, lately, it's been 7-8pm, but if it was a few years ago, it was 5pm, till the kids starts to play football on the lawn, but then again, we didn't use it after all. So yeah, that was about the time i was disappointed, like i was so high spirited to go on and play badminton, and my dad easily slips in his lame excuses to avoid playing.

Come on, i've never in my life ask for something, i mean, it doesn't even cost money, usually when i asked my dad for something, it would require money, but this time, i would only require his time, cause let's face it, if i'm not an only child, it would probably be easy for me to find people to play badminton with, but somehow, yeah i'm not so lucky, so my dad was the only one i got.

But that's not my point, back in the days, my dad used to tell his story how him and his brothers used to play badminton when they we're small, well yeah you we're lucky enough to be given the gift of siblings, and i wasn't so lucky enough, and it kinda pisses me off that he talks about it, but he doesn't seem to show much interest to let me experience what he had when he was a kid, to be honest, i don't have any experience, so that's why i wanted this so much, cause it's lame staying in the house all day, man what has it been a month? make that 7 months..

Yeah, i was pretty bummed bout yesterday, as for today, i would hope that i would have the chance to play, but as they say, don't get your hopes up, i was even finding ways, how, HOW can i play badminton by myself?, back in college there was this person who actually manage to play badminton with himself, all he did was hit the shuttle up instead of front, kinda like when you were a kid and you had no one to play with, but i didn't know you can use that, but i was still a coward, i can't go outside without anyone, yeah, i'm that scared.

So i find alternatives, such as tying a piece of string into a shuttle cock and tie it to the rail and hit it, but i have difficulties in doing that, urgh.. i'm just pissed off that i can't play, i would exercise, but it seems hard, between exercise and playing badminton, i kinda like playing badminton and it's like fun, but when you're exercising, you know it's not fun, and it's not that hard, it's just that i'm lazy, and it's only in house exercise, i barely step in a gym.

Well, that's bout it, see ya later.

Cool Friggin Glass

It's been a while since i post a short post, so here's one, i just can't pass this one, just look at these glass

I don't know why but i feel like it's talking to me "Buy Me!", okay seriously though, there's been a few cola glass, who can ever forget the Cola Glass on American Idol.

Okay, to be honest, it's a little better looking than the first one, but the new glasses are simple, attractive and I WANT ONE!, wish i could buy it all, i wonder how much it cost, but i may have to buy the food from mcdonalds, we all know mcdonalds isn't the best fast food around, but still people go there, kinda strange, okay i go there too, but not to buy they're normal food such as burgers,sandwich, chicken fingers? i didn't know chicken had fingers. No, not those foods, but porridge, all i know is that porridge is fairly simple to cook, but takes time, which i hate, and i don't normally cook, and that's the only thing i'm grateful for mcdonalds for, porridge, although there are restaurant out there that do cook porridge, but still it takes time and there's a lot of people, i hate crowded placed, especially PC Fair, i can't barely move around, let alone trying to catch up to my dad, cause he walks so friggin fast, kinda like he's being chase by a ghost or money launderer, is that what they call them, don't know, anyway, it would be pretty awesome if i have those glass, i don't know why, but i want it.

InspiRED

Well, i'm not a person who is easily inspired, i think that has something to do with depression, i don't even know if i have depression, but i kinda feel like i have, but i'm not certain, cause the most dangerous thing about depression is suicide, and i don't have suicidal thoughts, but i have all those other things like unmotivated, feeling like things aren't important, emotionless all those sorts of crap, and one thing that i found out is asperger or autism, which also makes me feel like i have it, due to my inability to make small talks to other people, but i'm pretty sure i don't have it, and i think i have to be thankful, but it's weird that i have some of the features of those things, i guess nothing is perfect and i hate that people say that no one is perfect and all that crap, okay i may have to agree on that, but we can change, we can be perfect if we want to, there's nothing wrong with perfection, it only means that we're doing good and we should be proud of our achievements, then those trolls ruining the mood, okay first time using the word "Trolls", thanks RWJ.

Yeah enough bout me, so last night was mother's day right? well to all mothers, i wish you a Happy Mothers Day, all i did was gave my mom a hug, i don't know how to show my appreciation towards her, and i'm just hoping that as i get older i can show it to her that she could be proud of her own son, cause all these time, i may not have been exactly the perfect son, i think i kinda feel the pressure of being an only child, like i'm the only one they have, okay but that's unimportant, so we had dinners with my aunts, grandma, uncles, other aunts and other uncles and so on and on, and, i ate, but not a lot, i was only eating vegetables cause i was doing something, that something was what i was doing back in Mukah, haha good luck finding out what i did in Mukah, so everyone was looking strange at me cause i didn't ate 90% of the food which includes fish, chickens and pork, well how you like me now? but amazingly, they manage to finish all those food without my help, what the hell? like all these time, i was the one that they force me to finish all those food, last night they didn't seem to have any problem finishing those foods, and there were like 5 types of food, and i only ate vegetables, and i didn't even ate rice, but yeah, so afterwards we went to my aunts house, but before that, my mom went to KFC to meet her friends cause they have this EXAM thing going on tomorrow, which is today, so yeah.

And at my aunt house, there was this live telecast of a badminton game with Lee Chong Wei and Bao ChunLai, at first i wasn't really into the game, cause i'm only watching it from the side, but as the game proceeded, i went a bit to the right to get a good look at the game, and my god, that was the most awesomest game i've ever seen, if you didn't watched it last night, Lee Chong Wei won 2 rounds straight, is it like that? i don't know, i don't know much about badminton aside from hitting the shuttle, but seriously, i guess the most captivating things that i've seen in that game was when Lee hitting that shuttle pretty quickly, like that's the most awesome thing i've ever seen, like most people who play badminton they only hit it and smash, but last night had so much adrenaline and other things going on, which kinda makes me feel inspired, and i'm kinda happy that he won at the end and at the end he does his move where he falls on his knees, but last night he threw like fast punches to the air as he was on his knees winning.

So, i decided to find more of his match on youtube, and i did, today to be exact, just a couple of hours ago, it was the one at the All England 2011 where he fought Lin Dan, and holy crap, that was even more amazing, and there's always been some nemesis relationship between those two, but man, that game was extraordinary, seriously, i just love that they hit it so fast after one just hit, and i think i may have obsession to speed like Fast fingers, Speed Cubing and the almost Speed Stacking.. Oh well, better luck next time, but badminton, i'm a little bit old and the odds are i don't think i could even play at that rank or even be the World no.1, but i'm left inspired, that's all i can say, i wish i can play badminton everyday, currently, i've only played it 2 times, the first time left my legs hurting like hell, and the second one, didn't really do much, but i did learn that it's easy to control the shuttle if you wait for it to drop a little lower instead of hitting it directly as it approaches you, but i'm still learning and i wanna pursue learning the art of playing badminton, if only my dad is a little bit free spirited, i could be an athlete, but that's pretty much dead now, but i feel like this is something that i could achieve, and i'm not really big on sports, but i feel if i'm this inspired, i could be better, currently these are the sports that i've played and let go:

1.Football, never played in a real match, mostly just standing there, and chase the ball, people don't even pass me the ball.

2.Basketball, i had some lessons from friends at campus, and i did play bout 2 times in a match, but not official, all i can say is that, it's a little bit hard to communicate cause most of them are chinese, and i barely get the ball cause i can't shoot it in during game.

3.Ping Pong, probably one of my favorite sports, used to play it at my cousins house a long time ago, and it was pretty intense, then college came, i sucked, i was even bad mouthing my friend bout how he's gonna lose, and when i did actually play, i lost, seriously, don't be over confident. But i did entered the tournament, it was a double and we beat one team, we lose the next one because it was the friggin lecturer's, seriously, we're just some new students learning to play and we're up against our lecturer who actually teaches us to play the friggin game.

4.Badminton, never took it seriously, but i remember playing it when i was a kid, then at LD where i actually get a chance to play with a girl, too bad it didn't work out, and now, inspired and ready to play, just hope that my dad is willing to play.

Guess that's pretty much the sports that i was into, i was never into those running or jumping or anything in that category..

Lee Chong Wei racket is actually pretty cool, it's the Yonex Voltric 80, according to the video in youtube it's better, but, it cost 800 bucks!, and Lee had 2! that's 1600 bucks!, but he's rich, he even got a free car from proton!, how are you not inspired by that?, be the world number one? get money from your accomplishments!, Cars? womens!, probably.

Yeah, to all, happy mothers day.