Sunday, May 8, 2011

InspiRED

Well, i'm not a person who is easily inspired, i think that has something to do with depression, i don't even know if i have depression, but i kinda feel like i have, but i'm not certain, cause the most dangerous thing about depression is suicide, and i don't have suicidal thoughts, but i have all those other things like unmotivated, feeling like things aren't important, emotionless all those sorts of crap, and one thing that i found out is asperger or autism, which also makes me feel like i have it, due to my inability to make small talks to other people, but i'm pretty sure i don't have it, and i think i have to be thankful, but it's weird that i have some of the features of those things, i guess nothing is perfect and i hate that people say that no one is perfect and all that crap, okay i may have to agree on that, but we can change, we can be perfect if we want to, there's nothing wrong with perfection, it only means that we're doing good and we should be proud of our achievements, then those trolls ruining the mood, okay first time using the word "Trolls", thanks RWJ.

Yeah enough bout me, so last night was mother's day right? well to all mothers, i wish you a Happy Mothers Day, all i did was gave my mom a hug, i don't know how to show my appreciation towards her, and i'm just hoping that as i get older i can show it to her that she could be proud of her own son, cause all these time, i may not have been exactly the perfect son, i think i kinda feel the pressure of being an only child, like i'm the only one they have, okay but that's unimportant, so we had dinners with my aunts, grandma, uncles, other aunts and other uncles and so on and on, and, i ate, but not a lot, i was only eating vegetables cause i was doing something, that something was what i was doing back in Mukah, haha good luck finding out what i did in Mukah, so everyone was looking strange at me cause i didn't ate 90% of the food which includes fish, chickens and pork, well how you like me now? but amazingly, they manage to finish all those food without my help, what the hell? like all these time, i was the one that they force me to finish all those food, last night they didn't seem to have any problem finishing those foods, and there were like 5 types of food, and i only ate vegetables, and i didn't even ate rice, but yeah, so afterwards we went to my aunts house, but before that, my mom went to KFC to meet her friends cause they have this EXAM thing going on tomorrow, which is today, so yeah.

And at my aunt house, there was this live telecast of a badminton game with Lee Chong Wei and Bao ChunLai, at first i wasn't really into the game, cause i'm only watching it from the side, but as the game proceeded, i went a bit to the right to get a good look at the game, and my god, that was the most awesomest game i've ever seen, if you didn't watched it last night, Lee Chong Wei won 2 rounds straight, is it like that? i don't know, i don't know much about badminton aside from hitting the shuttle, but seriously, i guess the most captivating things that i've seen in that game was when Lee hitting that shuttle pretty quickly, like that's the most awesome thing i've ever seen, like most people who play badminton they only hit it and smash, but last night had so much adrenaline and other things going on, which kinda makes me feel inspired, and i'm kinda happy that he won at the end and at the end he does his move where he falls on his knees, but last night he threw like fast punches to the air as he was on his knees winning.

So, i decided to find more of his match on youtube, and i did, today to be exact, just a couple of hours ago, it was the one at the All England 2011 where he fought Lin Dan, and holy crap, that was even more amazing, and there's always been some nemesis relationship between those two, but man, that game was extraordinary, seriously, i just love that they hit it so fast after one just hit, and i think i may have obsession to speed like Fast fingers, Speed Cubing and the almost Speed Stacking.. Oh well, better luck next time, but badminton, i'm a little bit old and the odds are i don't think i could even play at that rank or even be the World no.1, but i'm left inspired, that's all i can say, i wish i can play badminton everyday, currently, i've only played it 2 times, the first time left my legs hurting like hell, and the second one, didn't really do much, but i did learn that it's easy to control the shuttle if you wait for it to drop a little lower instead of hitting it directly as it approaches you, but i'm still learning and i wanna pursue learning the art of playing badminton, if only my dad is a little bit free spirited, i could be an athlete, but that's pretty much dead now, but i feel like this is something that i could achieve, and i'm not really big on sports, but i feel if i'm this inspired, i could be better, currently these are the sports that i've played and let go:

1.Football, never played in a real match, mostly just standing there, and chase the ball, people don't even pass me the ball.
2.Basketball, i had some lessons from friends at campus, and i did play bout 2 times in a match, but not official, all i can say is that, it's a little bit hard to communicate cause most of them are chinese, and i barely get the ball cause i can't shoot it in during game.
3.Ping Pong, probably one of my favorite sports, used to play it at my cousins house a long time ago, and it was pretty intense, then college came, i sucked, i was even bad mouthing my friend bout how he's gonna lose, and when i did actually play, i lost, seriously, don't be over confident. But i did entered the tournament, it was a double and we beat one team, we lose the next one because it was the friggin lecturer's, seriously, we're just some new students learning to play and we're up against our lecturer who actually teaches us to play the friggin game.
4.Badminton, never took it seriously, but i remember playing it when i was a kid, then at LD where i actually get a chance to play with a girl, too bad it didn't work out, and now, inspired and ready to play, just hope that my dad is willing to play.

Guess that's pretty much the sports that i was into, i was never into those running or jumping or anything in that category..

Lee Chong Wei racket is actually pretty cool, it's the Yonex Voltric 80, according to the video in youtube it's better, but, it cost 800 bucks!, and Lee had 2! that's 1600 bucks!, but he's rich, he even got a free car from proton!, how are you not inspired by that?, be the world number one? get money from your accomplishments!, Cars? womens!, probably.

Yeah, to all, happy mothers day.

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