Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Floats

Nope.. not the float that usually seen on parades.. it's Ice-Cream Floats..
Yesterday my parents held like this mini dinner for few of us at our home.. it's really strange cause we don't really host dinner anymore.. the last time i remember my dad hosting a party was on Christmas.. few years ago.. and we had lots of food like Pizza.. yeah.. there we're lots of other stuff too but Pizza is all i could remember..

Floats.. i just realised that float means that the ice-cream in the float floats.. you'll never see an Ice-cream floats that sunk.. sure.. maybe if you stir it real hard till it melts..

Anyway.. since last night dinner.. i can't stop eating floats.. my parents bought these ice-cream and they also bought soft drinks like Root Beer, 7 Up and Coca-Cola..
The ice-cream flavors were Metropolitan and a mix between Chocolate and Vanilla.. Choc and Van are the best for floats.. you can put it with Cola or Root Beer.. either way they still taste great.. i use a bowl cause we ran out of glasses.. and it's better cause there's more space for the ice-cream to fit in.. if i was using a glass i would probably shove the ice-cream to the glass.. and then the soft drinks just bubbles when you add it to the ice-cream.. well it's been a while since i ate floats.. home made floats are actually better than those selling outside..

1. You can add as many scoop as you want..
2. You can choose what flavors you want.. soft drinks and ice-cream flavors..
3. Probably more cheaper..
4. You can use a bowl

Anyway.. one place that's probably the best to get some floats are at Hartz.. it's actually a Chicken buffet.. and the ice cream are actually deserts.. but it's a great place if you want some restaurant that's worth your money.. you'll be paying like 20 bucks for 2 hours and eat all you want.. there's chickens, other foods as well.. but mostly chicken.. and of course deserts.. they give you a free flow of soft drinks.. i usually make floats with their soft vanilla ice-cream and put Cola in it..

So.. last night was really strange for me.. cause it was just out of the blue.. it was kinda like an after Christmas gathering dinner.. there were only 6 of us.. and the food is great i guess... there's Rice.. Roasted Chicken (One of the best chicken i've ever tasted.. They called it a Steering Chicken or something.. cause it was cooked with a Steering wheel.. they use it to turn the chicken around..) Pizzas (My parents cook it in the oven..) Fish, Satay, that's pretty much what i can remember..

And.. looking forward to New Years eve.. gonna wave one last good bye to 2010.. it's gonna be a sad departure..

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Counting Up The Days..

Usually it would go down.. but i wanna be different.. instead of counting down the days like new years.. i wanna count up the days that has been passed.. yeah it doesn't make much sense.. but to me.. counting up the days is just something that i would like to keep holding on till i'm old.. it's kinda like remebering.. and hoping that i won't forget it.. like this Christmas.. 25 December 2010

I never thought that this Christmas would be a memorable one.. but i can't deny it.. i don't wanna forget the Christmas that happened on 2010.. it's not like something awesome happened that day.. well of course there's the birth of Christ.. there was no plan at all.. then we went to an Open House.. and it's something to filled on Christmas day rather than be home wasting time on such a great day.. I just wanna remember that night.. at that house.. there's really nothing to remember.. but i can't forget it.. well.. the night starts as usual.. we went to the house.. it was big.. but not enormous.. it's just the right size.. it's a Semi-Detached house at Taman Malakun.. not a lot of people lived on the Semi-Detached but all the Terrace was filled.. but there was like 5 more unit for the Semi-Detached.. and my uncle thought that it would be great if we bought the house.. but in order to buy that house.. we need to sell 2 houses.. so we took a tour.. but only around the house.. never went up to check the rooms.. i bet it's big.. that house has like 5 Rooms.. the parking space at the front could probably fit 4-6 cars.. and the back yard is big.. you can even build a swimming pool.. building a swimming pool has always been one of my dreams to have in my house.. i thought i was gonna get it living at the current house.. but nope.. didn't get it.. can't even build it even if i wanted to.. there's the stupid management rules where you can't build anything.. my house doesn't even have a friggin gate.. but it's three storeys.. and there's a view of Gunun Kinabalu from afar.. but it's gonna be closed by the buildings that are currently devoloping..

So at the house.. there's the backyard which you could literally build a swimming pool or just make another house.. it's that big.. sure the price is a lot to ask for.. but you're paying for a big house.. and the house is couple of years old.. so the price kinda rise over the years..
Then there's the eating after the viewing.. i could never felt more alone.. since the trip to Kundasang.. i was always on my own.. can't even talk to anyone.. sure.. i could talk.. but it's not more than telling.. it's not really talking if you talk to someone and that person says oo.. cause it usually ends.. talking is like exchanging sentences.. you always have words to respond other than saying oo.. but i guess i can't ask for much.. cause all the people on that trip was older than me..

Back to the house.. after the eating.. there wasn't much food on the table.. but it was nice.. there's was Rendang, Pork in some kind of soup with some coconut thing.. which is thin and soft.. and there was lots of other light food.. inside the house was a keyboard.. two guitars.. and a Christmas tree.. the interiors of the house was great.. feels really like home.. and they had a great wallpapers with grey colors and metallic.. and on the TV it was showing some movie.. i don't know the name of the movie.. but i can see the face of Reese Witherspoon.. she had a big forehead.. and Sara Paxton kinda resembles her.. and the movie was funny i guess.. but i didn't really watch it.. i would like to but the seats are filled.. so i went home and log in to IMDB and hopefully it's Four Christmasses.. there was singing in the Movie.. and somehow i like it..

Anyway.. after eating.. there was fireworks outside.. actually my dad was already outside calling someone.. then i went outside to find him.. then suddenly fireworks started to brighten the sky.. it was short.. but everybody went outside to watch it.. then after that there's a Burn Lantern that flew into the sky... there we're few of them.. it's a Lantern that has fire burning inside and just flew away according to the wind..

And i wish that i would be one of those people who live in those kinda house.. i think it's great living there.. not a lot of traffic.. and did i mention that it's big.. but honestly.. i think it's a great place to live..

It might not be the greatest memory.. but i wanna remember it.. cause it happened on Christmas..

Happy Holiday!
Merry Christmas!
Happy Almost New Year!
Happy Chinese New Year In Two Months!
I'm out..

Monday, December 27, 2010

New Years..

Last couple of days i've been talking bout how Christmas is coming near.. and just like that it has end.. i guess the saddest part of Christmas is that.. in a couple of days it's gonna be another New Year.. it's like this endless cycle of life.. but it's not like we're gonna repeat everthing we've done for the current year.. well i guess it's okay that way.. but it does bring questions to mind like what's gonna come? What will happen? What's new? well stuff like that..

To me new year are the saddest part of life.. where you have this incredible year.. but it has to end to the following year.. cause every beginning has an ending.. and every ending has a beginning..

With the words of Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park
"This is not the end this is not the beginning" i guess it means that nothing ever ends? well probably..

So new year.. i had a few.. i guess we all do.. i spend 18 years of New Year.. and when i was a kid.. i just wish that new year are on working days so that the holidays are longer.. i would so bum out if it was on saturday or sunday.. but it doesn't reaally make much difference.. still go to school.. i wish i could say school is cool.. but it's not.. i seriously wish that college are cool.. but they're just less lamer than school..
I mean the lame thing about school is that you go to class every single day.. teacher or no teacher.. you still go.. it's a bit wasting time when there's no teachers.. but that's one of the best time in a student lives.. cause there's no learning.. all you do is talk to your friends and play games.. i wish i could've enjoy school much more.. but school is lame..

College.. the only difference i spot is. well you get to stay up late.. but it doesn't really do any good.. cause you'll be sleepy in class.. and it's a little bit grown up.. i give you that.. but still lame.. cause you have to wear formal.. it's like your in school again.. but with colors.. not saying that students should be naked or anything.. just wished that college could be more casual.. wear tee's instead of a shirt.. wear jeans instead of slack.. sure i understand that the image it brings might harm the school reputations.. but we spent so many years on primary school and secondary school wearing the same friggin uniform every single day and looking exactly the same as the other students.. well except for girls, class monitor.. and Pengawas? yeah i don't know what they're called in english.. yeah.. but in secondary school they stopped using different types of shirts.. which means it's still the same.. okay talk bout school later..

And new year.. as i recall.. we usually bath our self with waters and flowers.. the flowers are actually on the water.. and pour it on our self as a sign of cleanliness towards the new year.. it's fun i guess.. we'll be eating with our families.. then just before the clock strikes 12.. all of us counted down the seconds to go before the new year unveil itself before us... you can hear all of them shouting.. "Ten, Nine, Eight, Seven, Six, Five, Four, Three, Two, One! Happy New Year".. and with seconds the last year we're forgotten and suddenly we're singing Auld Lang Syne.. while we cry and we hug our loved ones.. and we call our friends and family from afar to wish them a Happy New Year.. wishing that we could spent it with them..

Then there's the resolution.. i never actually tried myself.. cause i know i'll never do it.. but then.. procrastination are always on the way.. why do that when you can sleep?.. well okay.. i guess it's fun to do a resolution.. it's a little different from wishes.. but they're basically the same.. in wishes.. you usually ask for stuff that you're seriously never gonna get.. but somehow it works.. for resolutions.. you're just wishing for stuff that you are just too lazy t do.. big whoop..

New year.. seriously i wanna be different next year.. i'm sick of living like this.. maybe i'll be a vlogger.. well i haven't achieve the ultimate level of being a blogger.. but i can talk and walk at the same time right? i don't really get what beyonce is trying to deliver with those words.. you can seriously walk and talk at the same friggin time.. it's just gonna be a distraction.. but it's doable..
So vlogging.. i'm thinking about it.. i guess it's one of those things that i wanna do but don't think i can do it.. seriously.. you're gonna be on camera.. well it's only vlogging if you do it online.. but i think i keep it in view.. my reasons of wanna do it.. well.. i'm just trying to be better in english.. sure i know the words and i know how to use it.. but i can't speak them.. can't speak them smoothly.. i tried reading the newspaper.. and when i'm talking.. there's no tone.. which is one problem..and who knows.. maybe i can finally be open and talk to random people.. i have this problem where i can't talk to people.. people that i don't know.. i don't know why it's hard for me.. i guess there's the feeling that you might get rejected.. kinda like you tried to shake a person hand.. but they don't shake it.. which is a bit embarassing.. but seriously.. i want to be good in english verbally and not just in papers.. and the worst part of not being able to talk to random people is.. not being able to present well in presentations.. i have this problem where i can't talk infront a class.. it's called public speaking.. i guess everyone has problems with it.. but not all.. i wanna be one of those people.. who can speak purely from their heart and give one hell of a presentation..

Well other than that.. i wanna go out.. i mean inside is good.. i wanna experience what the world has to offer.. travelling.. sports.. other stuff that people enjoy that's not illegal.. cause i've been stuck.. and i think my dad is right.. i've become an anti-social.. well can you blame me.. i don't have a lot of friends.. for god sake's i don't even know how to take the bus to the city.. yeah that's how lame i am.. hey that rhymes..

Happy Holidays!
3 days till New Year

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas

Merry Friggin Christmas Everybody.. well everyone who's reading this anyway..

I'm so pumped up right now... i just got back from my Kundasang Trip.. well it was splendid none the less.. i'm starting to think that this Christmas is gonna turn things around for me.. in a positive way that is.. if you looked at my previous post.. it's just naggin bout how i don't feel merry for Christmas anymore.. well things change.. and i'm starting to believe again..

Anyway.. no i didn't spend my Christmas in LD like i always do.. but these few days has really.. i mean wow.. it's been an amazing few days.. of course there are bad times.. but even those can't bring me down right now... i might just say this is one of the best Christmas i've ever had.. but i'm gonna emphasize on the word might here.. which also means.. Posibilities.. Probability..

Well there's lots of things that can happen in a few days.... anyway here i go..

It's been a long year for 2010 and we deserve this Christmas more than ever.. after all the crap we've been through.. this is the one thing that can light us up for all those hard things we went through.. for sticking together.. for making the best out of the worst in situations...

So first of all.. Mostly the things happens in the Resort.. that place is Dreamworld..

We've got there pretty late.. but then again.. we also kicked off pretty late.. it was 5PM in the evening and it was traffic jam and there's slow cars ahead of the road.. and we reach there exactly at 8PM that's 3 hours drive which usually take 2 hours.. well on the drive.. mostly there's gossip.. and i don't really do eaves dropping but i can't help it.. i was even on my earphones and i can still hear them talking.. well anyway.. one of the things.. which is a good news anyway.. remember when i was a kid i used to spent my christmas in Lahad Datu.. that was like my favorite place for spending Christmas.. like every year i would go there.. in fact i even went there on advance right after my school ended and it was holiday.. i would just spend my holiday in the house.. and it's not like for some days or few weeks.. but it's for a month.. there's nothing special bout that place.. but it does really make me feel at home.. it used to be the house of my grandparents.. well before they passed.. i still remember when i was a kid.. and it was my cousin birthday but it's also my grandfather birthday so they would spend it together and they would have 2 cakes on the table, one for my cousin and one for my grandfather.. but i've only remember it happened one time.. it was on 26 december right after Christmas.. and i was a kid so i don't know anything.. so they we're singing Happy Birthday and i was standing right next to my cousin.. back then we we're really close.. some people even mistaken us for twins.. but we are not more than cousins.. anyway.. after they finish singing.. i blew my cousin birthday candles.. i don't know why i did that.. but i guess it's a little funny and one of those things you've remember from your childhood.. of course then they light it up..

Anyway.. one of the good news is that.. even though i stopped spending Christmas in LD anymore... but there's someone who's taking my tradition.. It's my little cousin.. somehow i'm proud of him for doing that.. cause it's been a while since i've done that.. so i know that it's not totally gone.. well it's been a rough year for him anyway.. and he has changed.. and i'm glad this is one of those things..

Okay not so much but at Dreamworld resort.. it was actually cold.. even at the car all i can think of is how bad i really needed to pee.. it's really cold.. but the last time i went there it wasn't as cold as last night.. so there i was.. feeling alone.. no one really talks to me.. they have their own company and i don't really mind.. dinner was great.. i ordered the Grilled Chicken Chop.. and it's one of the best Chicken Chop i've ever eaten.. other chicken chops i've tasted usually have mushroom gravy or black pepper sauce or tartar sauce.. but last night was my first time eating a Grilled Chicken Chop with a Terragon sauce.. it' this sliced mushroom sauce with shallots.. it's really delicious.. that's the best i can describe it on such short notice..

Then all of us took a walk out to the deck.. it's friggin cold.. we did have small talks and my uncle really knows how to surprise me... when i was a kid.. he told me that he's gonna buy a Mercedes.. well he didn't .. but he's working on it.. then he said he's gonna give me a Ford Ranger that he bought for the Mushroom Company.. of course that didn't happened either.. well last night.. he said that he's gonna buy me a Macbook Pro.. okay it does seem like it's getting smaller.. i mean from a car to a laptop.. yeah but there's the thing... he might just give me a Macbook Pro if he got the deal.. i think he does deserve it.. he worked too long for his life.. he had his rough moments and he finally got married and i think he need this one..

At dinner.. before we went to the deck my uncle told us another news.. which i think is good cause it's a house.. it's actually a Semi-Detached house.. and it's selling for RM 600K.. sure it's expensive.. but we might just be able to buy it.. my uncle says that the house is worth it cause it's a Semi-Detached and at the back there's a land area that is big enough to build a nother house just as big as the house.. well we might buy it.. there's a posibilities if.. we sell two of our house.. i've always hear my parents complaining bout our current house with the guards not working properly.. how we have to pay for service that we rarely use.. and most of all.. how we don't have a friggin Gate.. yeah.. my current house is weird.. they don't have any gates.. and the worst part is we can't even build it even if we wanted to build it..

Well here's to Might.. Posibilities and Probability.. And we're gonna see the house tomorrow.. apparently there's people who already live there and having a Christmas Open House tomorrow so we can check out the house..

Then the night ended.. i can barely sleep last night.. actually i didn't actually sleep.. but i did sleep for an hour.. but it barely counts as sleep.. cause i was tired.. and i didn't sleep till 5 or 6am in the morning.. cause during sleep.. my uncle friend who is his bestman from the wedding really snores loudly.. i was sleeping with my earphones on listening to songs.. and the bed vibrated from his snoring.. it was friggin loud.. and he didn't even hear it.. cause he didn't wake up..

Today.. my aunt was suppose to go to the dentist with her daughter.. and i had a problems with my teeth so she says i could squeeze in.. but we missed that appointment.. so instead.. we stayed for hours at her office.. which my parents we're complaining.. cause they had to make a cake.. and we had to prepare for church.. we could actually make it.. but my aunt got a called for a delivery and the guy couldn't wait so she had to take it.. and it was actually a phone.. a BlackBerry Torch 9800.. well i've tested it and.. it's okay i guess... it's no iPhone.. but it's the next best thing.. the web surfing was great.. kinda like the iPhone where you can use finger gesture to enlarge or make the web go smaller.. and it cost bout RM 1088.. which original price was RM2188 as stated in Celcom Website.. here it is..



Yeah.. but the RRP is RM 2188.. but they're selling it RM 1388.. so RM 1088 is still cheap considering that the phone is worth twice the price..

I don't know.. i might wanna buy one.. just have to wait for my aunt.. cause she's the one who bought it..

After countless hours of waiting.. the office finally closed and we were the only one left at the office.. then we went home.. but we actually went to church.. unprepared.. thank god for my uncle cause he saved us some seats in St. Simon.. and there were no place to park the car.. that place is packed.. i guess we we're lucky that my aunt sent us cause she doesn't go to church..

We arrived at 6PM and the Mass started at 8PM.. and we were just sitting there waiting for the mass to begin.. and i just can't help myself.. i was just too tired.. i didn't had enough sleep last night.. and i fell asleep involuntarily.. my head just drop and i was awaken.. the funny thing is that.. i wasn't the only one who was sleepy.. so was my uncle and his friend.. looking around.. all the people play with their phones.. which later the priest commented on them.. well it's pretty funny when i heard it.. but i'm not a good describer.. i can't describe it.. damn..

Then we went to my cousin house for a Christmas gathering.. but it wasn't really a gathering.. i mean.. the food was Fried Rice and CupCakes.. well i guess we should be thankful that there's food.. but there's still tomorrow.. plan didn't go as plan cause my other uncle got sick and they couldn't really cook food for the gathering.. hope you get well soon uncle..

And that's pretty much what happened to me before Christmas..

Happy Holidays!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

The Days Go By

I think it's pretty obvious that a day has 24 hours and an hour has 60 minutes and a minute has 60 seconds.. well that's as far as i can narrow it down..



But seriously.. 24 hours is a long time.. just imagine standing for an hour is enough to understand how long an hour is.. but sometimes.. an hour can be too short when we're doing something that we're enjoying like watching movies, spending time with love ones, or just talking in a great conversation.. but take all of those away and what you're left is an hour of silent loneliness..



One of the things i hate is waiting.. i seriously can't stand it... even more if there's nothing on me.. by on me i meant like stuff that can kill some time like a phone, or an mp3 player.. those are the thing that normally keep me busy during those long hour waiting for my parents or someone to take me... imagine waiting for someone and you don't know exactly know how long they're gonna be there.. and you're just lost in time and it's stretching and feels too long and sweats starts dripping from your face and your patience is running low and you're thinking of all these negative emotions.. well those we're the feelings i get a long time ago when sunday school has ended and waiting for my parents to pick me up.. during those time.. there's no mp3 player or phones.. actually there is.. but it's all low quality..and it's pretty boring to use..



But then again.. even if 24 hours do seem long.. but sometimes.. when a day is approaching let's say an exam or a big presentation is coming up.. time can't be more slower.. yeah i don't know what it is.. but the panic just drive's you crazy and then it's time.. just like that a snap of a finger..

But the day is bound to come anyway.. so instead of feeling stress bout the days that are coming.. think bout the days after it.. i mean it's over.. all those worrying are for nothing.. and in the end everything's gonna be fine..



Well here's what i do when i'm waiting for my parent's or just hoping for some terrible event to end.. well first of all.. just know that no matter what it is... it's gonna be over in due time.. cause let's face it.. you're not gonna be there forever.. and nothing last forever i guess.. just imagine you're in your bed lying away from the misery you have encountered for the whole friggin day.. cause it's coming...
Here's another thing what i do when i'm waiting for my parent's to pick me up.. i try to visualise myself as the driver and imagining the routes that i'm taking and where i'm turning left or right.. well it doesn't always work.. but it's a time killer.. but i do tend to imagine driving faster cause i can't wat any longer... my legs are killing me and my face are starting to melt..

2 Days Till Christmas
Happy Holidays!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Missed Or Not To Be Missed?

Well.. there's a lot of things i missed.. like watching Movies.. and not in Laptops or Television.. like in real Cinemas where they actually show the Movies from Film Reel.. i mean it's great watching Movies in the cinemas causse it's big, it's comfy, and it's great cause you'll be watching a brand new movie or maybe the latest.. and the Screen is friggin big.. well one thing to prevent is to watch a movie in the cinema by sitting on the first row.. i did once with my cousin cause the tickets we're running out and the only seats available was in the front row.. and we went anyway.. and it's just horrible.. sure it's bigger.. but you can't actually see the movie.. cause you have to stare it all over the place and the heads are bigger.. but i think it's awesome if you're watching an action movie.. if like a car explodes.. it would look like the car explode in front of you.. who says you need 3D to enjoy three dimensional movies.. just go sit infront of the Screen..

The last time i watch a Movie in a cinemas was with my uncle at One Utama KL.. and it was a good Movie.. it was the A-Team.. i was actually wanting to see the Karate Kid.. but the A-Team was actually great.. it's funny, it's action.. mostly it's humorous.. hope there's a sequel..
Weird thing bout my uncle is.. he took me to see a movie before.. it was Percy Jackson.. and he saw the movie before.. so he slept in the cinema.. i mean how? i can't even sleep lying in my bed without putting my hands behind my body.. and he did it while sleeping with speakers blowing from both sides of his ear? i think that's amazing.. if you're looking for a place to sleep if you're out of town.. just go to the cinema to enjoy 2 hours of peaceless sleep... i don't know it works for my uncle..

I also missed watching movie with my cousins.. well there's nothing specific that i missed but i like hanging out with them.. and it's been a while.. since i hang with them. they're busy with their jobs and i'm just waiting.. well it's hard to get together now anyway.. cause i can't drive... i mean it would be great if i can drive.. caues my cousin usually takes me to the cinema.. if i can drive.. i just take my car and meet them at the cinema.. well that's not happening anytime soon..

Astro.. yes it's undeniable.. but i do miss Astro.. watching something new.. different.. well i'm sick of DVD's and i need to watch something.. I just wish they have like broadband.. like you can watch it on your laptop or something.. which doesn't require you to buy the decoder.. or a TV.. you can just stick it on your laptop and enjoy.. if it's not your way.. you can always buy a VGA cable and stick it to your TV.. i mean it's not that hard.. but in the age of Technology.. i think portability is great.. Come on most great things right now are portable.. Exhibit A.. Laptops.. Broadband.. i don't exactly know what broadband means.. cause people always says that the USB stick is Broadband.. but when Streamyx offered it, it's actually regular lined cable phone.. so is it broadband or wireless broadband.. and the mother of all Tech.. well probably.. The iPad.. that's like the most portable thing ever.. i mean i get it why it's an alternative to a Netbook.. sure the netbook is practically a laptop.. but can you touch it? i mean literally.. that's what the iPad offer.. you can actually touch the web by using your fingers on the touch screen.. instead of using a mouse or mouse pad..

Well.. let's hope someday that Astro do build something like a Wireless Broadband USB stick or maybe some other companies... cause i can't wait longer.. even if i want an Astro.. my parents would give excuses like.. they're not watching it and they would be paying for nothing... well so much for hoping..

Happy Holidays

Last Christmas

Sure.. i may take the name of a well known song.. but it's not about love.. cause it's lame..
Anyway.. last Christmas..

I remember.. it was just after finishing the first semester of College.. and it does feel good going home for the holidays.. seeing your parents talk bout your experience in College..

I missed last Christmas.. cause i spent in My dad's home town? what do you call it anyway.. cause i wasn't born there.. so i can't call it my home town.. but i do have memorable memories there..

Lahad Datu.. the place i call home.. well not home home.. just a home for my heart.. cause that's actually the one place that is able to gather my whole family for Chrstmas.. i mean just the thought of them going that far from KK to LD is a lot.. taking time to spend with your family is something that we should and make tradition of.. that's a long journey.. talk about 8 hours.. that is if you're driving fast.. last time my mother drove it took exacty 12 Hours to get there... and that's actually the exact amount of time you need from Mukah To Kuching.. All in All it's worth it..

Weird thing bout Christmas in Lahad Datu.. even though it's Christmas which is a Western holiday i guess... but we had Malay foods which is Rendang, Curry Chicken, Fried Potato's and lots more.. but that was for the mid day course.. oh yeah.. i forgot.. during Christmas all we do is eat.. i mean it's pretty hot to do anything there anyway.. so most of the time we would eat and sleep.. yeah that's one way to spend Christmas..

But last year was special i guess... cause my dad attended the ATI course for six months.. and suddenly he became like this amazing baker.. i didn't even know he could cook, sure the ocasional eggs.. but ever since he started that course.. he was baking cookies, cakes, pizza's, making soup.. and last year.. he made Pizza's.. something we never had for Christmas before.. and it was home made.. Pizza is a delicacies in Lahad Datu.. cause there's no Pizza Hut at Lahad Datu.. and everytime my cousin came to KK they would always eat Pizza Hut.. and there's the incident which my dad cooked mushroom soup and put something too much and all the people who ate the soup ended up stomach aching and going to the bath room a lot.. there's was something like herb which he shouldn't put a lot.. but all in all the food was great.. it was memorable...

Hmm.. what else happened last Christmas.. ooh yeah.. i got my First Laptop... well for the first semester.. i used my dad Laptop which is a Compaq.. which is a big mistake i guess.. i mean buying ta Compaq laptop.. at that time.. i just cared for a cheap and a fast processor.. cause Pentium 4 sucks.. cause it always lags and the transferring rate is pretty slow.. so over the years i finally convince my dad to buy a laptop which is the Compaq.. big mistake.. cause.. that laptop is actually expensive.. about 3K.. and only for a Core 2 Duo processor.. if we saved that money and buy some laptop at this time we could've get a Core i7 processor.. well what's done is done..
Okay not only that it's expensive.. but it's also hot at the left palm rest side.. which is where the hard drive is located.. and it's pretty uncomfortable when you're using it.. cause it tends to get how after few minutes.. and more weirder.. people do complain bout HP and Compaq which is under one roof... well at least i learned something..

So i bought my first laptop.. at that time i didn't even know i would be getting a laptop.. so we looked around on Christmas and i saw the Sony Vaio F series which is incredibly big i guess.. 16.4" and most laptop was 14" and my friend just bought a 15.6" so i guess it was big.. then i asked my mom if i can buy it.. and weirdly.. she agrees.. she never normally agrees to buy anything.. she always says stuff like "How many ears do you have" if i was insisting on buying a phone.. or "You should wait cause it's only gonna get cheaper and better next year" .. but then my uncle said something.. but that was after i bought the laptop which is " So when would you buy one?" but i got it anyway.. my own first laptop.. well i'm still using it.. in fact i'm using it now.. but i never bought it to college cause it was big and heavy.. it's pretty big and hard to bring around.. Of course there's the alternative..when i was planning on buying the Sony.. my uncle suggsted that i should buy the Mac.. well i don't think i'm ready for that.. sure the Mac is great.. but honestly i don't really know how to use that thing.. and more honestly.. i think it's just to show off.. okay.. the Mac is envious.. and if i bought it then i might actually be able to work on building an App right now.. but that's for later i guess..

So i bought my laptop.. and i brought it to Lahad Datu.. well first of all i don't know what to do with a Laptop except watching Movies, Listening, Surfing, Downloading.. i mean there's more that i could do and should do like .. Programming, err... Networking?.. and .. yeah i'm out..
Long story short.. i didn't do much with my laptop there.. erggh..

Ooh.. Last Christmas they made this Avocado Ice Cream which is the Avocado being Blended like milk and being filled in a long tube plastic and frozen in the refrigerator and it tasted great..
yeah not so much bout that..

Well my dad told me yesterday that there's actually snakes in the home in Lahad Datu which freaked me out.. cause i never saw a snake before and i hope that i won't ever see a snake in my life ever.. i'm terrified of those things.. those things can actually kill you.. well that snake got killed.. but now i'm having second thoughts about spending Christmas there.. what if.. i can't even imagine it.. well that's pretty much what i remembered happened last Christmas..

Happy Holidays..

Friday, December 17, 2010

Stuck

So.. i've always been saying that i'm doing something lame.. cause that's i am.. and writing a post seems to be harder than usual.. this is like my third time trying to write.. the last two seem a little bit lame so i decided to write a new one..

And.. my plan for these few months didn't exactly go as plan.. and yeah i am stuck.. i don't know what i'm suppose to do.. everyone is out there working.. and i'm here sitting on my chair facing my laptop 24 hours.. okay that's not possible cause i also watch televesion so give or take 12 hours? yeah most probably..

But here's the thing.. it's not like i wanna be stuck.. i just have no idea what to do.. my uncle said he's gonna give me a task but still.. i'm stuck..

I think being stuck is really bad for me.. cause i can't really write.. think my post has been decreasing eversince i got back.. i can't even write crap nowadays..

Okay.. so what's new?
err... seems that people has been using Windows Phone 7 on shows.. like Hawaii Five-0 and Smallville..
It's great isn't it.. i mean they've been gone for quite some time now.. there was time when Windows rule the Smart Phone operating system.. but back then.. Windows opponet was Palm and.. it wasn't really big at that time.. but now.. Wow can you say?
It's a little obvious that people has been using the iPhone for quite some time.. and it does sicken me.. well mostly cause i can't have it.. well let's diversify..
There's also Android.. which has been the iPhone competitor for quite some time and it's also known for being the fastest rising Operating System.. and it has also replaced the Windows Mobile platform which has now been renamed Windows Phone.. WinMo or WinPho.. Still stuck with Symbian.. oh wait.. i stop using that now.. actually using a crappy phone.. don't think i need all those fancy gadgets.. but it's nice to know you own them..

Well Christmas is coming and there's not much in it for me.. here's what i'm up to 7 days to Christmas..

I got no..
-Christmas tree
-Christmas Presesnts
-Christmas Wish
-Christmas Plans..
and last but not least..
-Christmas Spirit..

I think it's gone..well i can't search for it can i? but i did try to revive it by listening to Christmas songs.. but doesn't seem like working.. still feels the same..

Remember when you we're a kid and Christmas was coming and you we're so friggin happy cause you know it's gonna be good.. well it's gone for me right now..
I don't even know where i'm gonna be this Christmas.. how sad is that.. most people know where they're gonna be on Christmas.. with their love ones.. their families.. friends..

Well.. look on the bright side.. i made it through the year.. though it has been a sucky year.. but.. nah.. all my hopes is dead.. just have to look forward..

Life used to be more simpler than this isn't it?.. like when i was a kid.. all i want is grow up and go to work and not be stuck at school with bullies and teacher.. but now growing up.. it's the other way around.. you wish you're stuck at school.. you wish you hadn't grown and give yourself a hard time with work and all that..

Yeah... Growing up sucks.. especially when you don't know what to do.. seriously i do prefer being in school.. cause you know what's gonna happen.. you stay bored and you go home bored.. okay not so much.. but it's better than now.. i don't know what forward is gonna bring to me.. well i don't wanna know.. all the good stuff has been taken anyway..

Happy Holidays!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Addicted..

No.. i'm not addicted to anything bad.. or is? i don't know.. i'm not really addicted to bad stuff like alcohols, drugs or anything bad.. seriously.. it's nothing like that.. it's just that i'm addicted to an online Game call Maple Story.. and the weird thing is that it's not even that fun.. sure i was addicted to it when i first play it.. but now... there's nothing that i feel like i'm addicted to it.. last time i was addicted to it was because i was chasing my cousins level.. didn't even sleep.. and whenever he didn't play, that was likely my happiest time.. knowing that he would left behind.. but still, right now.. he's not even playing.. but there's still something that's reeling me in to the game..

Okay.. for the past couple of days.. i have been playing the game till 7am.. usually the longest i've last was till 4 am and that was from watching series.. yeah.. it's obvious that i'm addicted.. well, i'm planning to stop anyway.. but then again, there's not so much i can do.. it's not like i'm working.. eventhough i should.. hmm, funny thing.. even if i wanna work, the office is pretty much closed since it's christmas.. i didn't even know that they can do that.. so i'm not working till next year.. for the mean time, i'm busting my brains out what to write on my report.. mostly lies.. let's face it.... i can't write crap on that book.. i have no experience what-so-ever on working.. the only time i worked was probably when i was watching after my uncle cyber cafe which is closed now.. and that wasn't much of a working experience.. there's the waiting in the chair waiting for customer buying coupons for the computers..

But seriously.. there's something i've said in the past that it's really haunting me right now.. is it coincidence or just pure crap.. but it is weird.. like this working thing for example.. i remember i swore to myself that i will never work.. just planning to get rich... yeah.. it's seriously haunting me right now.. i'm not working eventhough i'm suppose to be working... then there's the other thing where i say i didn't want a girlfriend... who knew that would be a good thing... well i didn't, back then, i'm just scared that my money would be gone.. most people spend their money on their girlfriends.. hence.. their broke.. well.. i don't know whether to regret that or be thankful.. still thinking..

On my free time.. well.. let's face it.. i can't do crap.. just watching series al over again.. and for the third time.. i'm watchin Friends again.. the whole 10 season... i've watch the whole 10 season 2 times before.. and yeah, it's a very funny show.. even though it's over... well at least there's How I Met Your Mother.. the resemblence of the show is uncanny.. seriously.. i think most of the things in HIMYM is mostly taken from Friends.. i mean it's there, it's obvious.. only there are differents.. but not so many..

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Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Can't Sleep

This is one of the wonders of life.. well i don't know what i'm talking about.. i just can't sleep.. i don't really know why.. but i'm so friggin glad that i got my song back.. it's my Christmas songs.. lost it when i didn't really care bout it.. cause it wasn't Christmas.. now that Christmas is getting closer... it's like i have the deepest need to recollect all the songs that i've heard on Christmas.. surely Christmas is one of my favorite holidays.. but other than that.. what makes it so special is the songs.. the songs usually put you in the Christmas mood.. I remember listening to Yahoo radio station.. it was playing Christmas songs... they we're sentimental and really take you to the good old days where people was just humble and kind... and peace offering was every where.. yeah i missed those... i did tried to find songs that are like that.. but it's too hard.. the closest thing i got is Christmas Jazz... but i like it.. there's this song which is The First Noel played on Piano.. it's a very sentimental song... but i lost it.. tried to find it but can't... but still got one Compilations left.. it's called Christmas Catastrophe... it's pretty great compilation of Christmas songs that we're covered by bands like Jimmy Eat World, Mew, The Raveonettes and so much more....

But my favorite song on that compilation has to be Christmas by Death Cab For Cutie.. it's actually a cover song from Mariah Carey and My Chemical Romance did a cover of her song as well.. but i prefer Death Cab For Cutie version cause it's slow and it does get you in the sad mood of christmas.. it's very pleasing indeed.. which My Chemical Romance version failed to show.. but still like them though...

Well Happy Holidays...
Heard this on Friends.... Merry Christmas And Have A Crappy New Year..
Yeah.. that's endearing...

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I Think My Dad Is Psychic

Feel slow.. like real slow.. i used to write lots of post, but i don't seem to do lots now.. well normally i would do a post bout my past.. my present doesn't come along too often.. well here's another blast from my past..

When i was a kid.. my dad really freaked me out.. well.. in some way.. it's like he could mentally read my mind.. so for a while i was convince that he can read my mind and i was careful not to think anything bad... yeah but that was a long time ago... but here's the thing that made me convince that he could read my mind...or maybe just know when i'm in trouble.. maybe it's one of them what you call.. instinct..

Well first of all.. it started when i was a kid.. i was watching television in my cousins house and there's this KFC ad with a radio? i can't really recall what it is... i would usually spend my weekends at my cousins.. cause i don't really have any brothers or sisters.. and my parents we're working.. and they sent me to my cousins place.. even though they used to torture me.. but somehow.. we got over it.. so the ad.. when it was evening.. that's when my dad usually picked me up from my cousins place.. and i seriously want the thing.. with the KFC.. and when my dad picked me up.. he bought just those.. coincidence? yeah nothing strange yet..

Then.. when i was a little bit older.. i was going back home.. and my other cousins we're living at my house as well.. but i was already finished schooling.. and they we're still in school.. and i don't really remember.. but i was at home locked with no keys.. i was actually outside of my house... but the lock was strange.. it wasn't really locked.. it was halfway locked.. so i tried to open it.. but it was just a failure.. there's nothing i can do bout it.. a lock is still a lock.. so i waited.. hoping that someone would save me... then just a couple of minutes later.. my dad came back home.. with KFC.. it's like he knew i was in trouble and hungry somehow... yeah it was strange... how did he knew i was locked outside when he's at work... yeah till this day i don't know how.. maybe it's god telling him somehow... well if it is.. thank you god.. well, i haven't actually thanked my dad for that.. though i never really told him bout it...

That's pretty much what i can remember bout my dad.. hmm.. maybe the KFC helped me remember them..

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The Working Experience

Today was the first day that i started working.. or so i thought... yeah.. so much for working.. all i did was wait for hours in the lobby.. waiting for hours hoping to get some kind of insertion of teaching or at least do something.. but nope.. all i did was sat on my ass for hours waiting for something to happen.. well, i didn't did it alone... my uncle was there.. actually, we we're waiting for him to do a presentation on SES.. don't recall what it stands for.. anyway hours went by... at one time i was bored.. i hold my breath and use my phone stop watch to see how long i can hold my breathe... i remembered bout the lungs expanding.. so i started with 30 seconds.. then i longest i last is 45 seconds.. normally i would burst to get some air after holding a breathe that long.. but i didn't guess it's not practical to burst getting air.. yeah i was bored....

And the sad thing is that i was actually pretty excited to go to this presentation.. only be let down and disappointed.. i learned nothing.. well at least there's something.. i let the sun burn me in the morning.. and i woke early today.. considering that for these few weeks my waking time was 2PM, well i haven't been sleeping well for the last few weeks.. usually sleep at 4am.. i can't even sleep even if i wanted to.. i wish i could sleep just by sleeping.. but no.. you have to wait to sleep.. seriously.. i don't know bout you.. but i have this routine before i actually go to sleep.. i would turn around and find a comfort spot... feeling that soft side on your bed.. then i turn around some more.. after that then i get to sleep.. i don't why i can't sleep like normal people do... and the other weird thing i did is put my hands on my back.. like physically stopping my blood from flowing.. that's the only way i could sleep... i did try not doing that.. but i can't sleep, and my feet started getting numb..

Yeah so much for a first day..

Monday, December 6, 2010

Epic Songs

I don't really know how to describe it.. but these are few of the songs that i think are epic.. it's not like the song is the best song of all the songs out there.. but there are some part of the songs that made it sounds like it is... anyway here's are few of them

Beyonce - Halo
Yeah... i think it's the first epic song i've heard.. the song is great.. what made it epic.. it kinda sounds like the song is being played in an empty room and the echo just rise in every part of the room and filled up to the ears which made it feel roomy.. it kinda feel the acoustic of the song is really wide... i can't describe it properly.. but that's how it felt listening to the song..

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone
This song is not generally epic.. but it's in there... it actually kinda sounds like Halo.. then again.. the composer of the song is the same as Halo... both great song.. but i just think Halo has more epic in it..

OneRepiblic - Secrets
This one is new.. it's a little strange than the others.. cause it started with the cello.. but after that you can hear and feel the dynamic is similar to both of the song.. then again.. this band is none other than the composer of the song which is Ryan Tedder.. he does make pretty good songs..

Hans Zimmer - Time
Now this song doesn't really has any vocals in it.. but i think this song is the most epic of all.. heard it at the end of the movie Inception.. which is really touching and the moment really goes with the song... and it's one of those song that can really touch your feelings.. and it seems that i'm not the only one.. i went to youtube and checked out all the comments and most of it says it's a touching song...

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Saturday, December 4, 2010

Dreams

I don't know... it's been a while since i had a dream.. but i think i might have a dream.. but it didn't feel as real as before.. it was a short dream i guess.. Dreams used to feel real for me.. until that one moment when you're disturbed and realized that all of it wasn't real... I remember one time when i was a kid... i got chased by a Vampires.. they we're all over town and seem to be killing everybody... then they found me and kill me instantly.. of course it was a dream.. after they killed me i'm still alive.. yeas but it did felt real.. and i'm panicking in my dream... but i didn't even realize if vampires we're real or not.. i just followed my dreams..

Well this one is different.. this one does not involved killings or vampires in my dreams.. but sadly it's short.. anyway.. i don't know where i am in this dream.. and i don't know who i'm talking to, but i was talking to a girl.. yeah i don't get a lot of dreams like that.. we talked.. but only for a few moments.. i only know she knows how to play the piano and sing.. wished i could ask her more, but what can i do.. it's a dream.. soon after that i woke up.. and found out the clock was showing 2PM... it can't strike 2 o'clock cause it's a digital watch..

But i have a similar dream long time ago.. but i didn't talk to the girl in my dreams.. just saw her standing there..

I can't help to wonder.. can she be real?, i wonder if i asked for her email would i found her on Facebook? well it would be creepy anyway if i did..

See how bored i am?..

END.. Happy Holidays

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Crime Shows

Okay, my last post was a little bit depressing.. i hope this one makes up for that.. probably..

So lately.. i've been bored.. same old same old.. should be working now... but hey, i still stayed up till 4 in the morning.. opening up my eyes.. observing.. more of watching.. observing kinda sounds weird..

Yeah.. i've been watching shows lately.. since there's no Astro.. have to thank the people who created DVD, if it wasn't for DVD's i don't know what i'll do...

Anyway.. there's a couple of shows i've been watching.. and it's related to Crime... i don't know if you've heard bout this... it's about criminal who get ideas to do crime from crime shows.. i think that's just absurd.. i don't think crime shows reveal too much for one to do a crime.. seriously.. sure there's the idea.. but they don't exactly show you how.. maybe they do.. but they also show you what happened if you do those crime... i think those criminal should focus on what's gonna happen on them rather than doing the crime.. i don't know anything about crime.. the only thing that i'm close to a crime is probably lying to my parents.. and it's not even bad stuff. mostly bout things that i'm lazy at and i just say ya, even though i haven't done any of it..

And.. Crime shows.. i tried CSI and i was into them for a moment.. but then it got bored.. of all the CSI.. my favorite is CSI: New York... there's just different and it's a little bit uplifting than Miami and Las Vegas.. But i'm not gonna talk bout CSI.. CSI is boring i guess.. sure it's the hottest crime show of them all.. but there's a lot more.. i don't know if they're better.. but i like them.. shows like Psych, Monk and the latest i'm seeing is The Mentalist...

Psych..
it's a pretty good show.. it's about a guy and his best friend solving crime and pretending to be a psychic.. it's actually entertaining and funny to watch... every time he solve a crime he pretends to be possessed or something like that and start telling how the crime was commit.. also the cool thing about that show is how he does it.. i think there's a similarity about the show to Monk.. cause it's all about Keen Observation, it's where you take a look at things and you remember it.. kinda like photographic memory i guess.. but it's even cooler.. let's say you walk into a restaurant.. and then memorize all the shirts people wear.. and see if you could identify how many colored shirts there are... and the rest are just black and white.. see it's difficult.. gonna try that one later.. and the way he does the Keen Observation on the show is, the thing that's important got highlighted.. i don't know if any of these thing in the shows are real.. but it would be cool if you have those abilities... at least you don't have to cheat at test and exams anymore.. all you do is remember..

Monk..
It's a pretty old show.. and i don't recall a lot.. all i know is that the guy name is Adrian Monk, he lost his wives.. and he's been helping the police even though he's not a police but he's solving lots of crimes.. and he has OCD, it's funny to watch cause he's scared of everything, like heights, germs, and he's always correcting and reorganizing stuff like messed up magazine.. all sorts of crap.. yeah...

The Mentalist..
i'm only on episode 2 now and i don't really know what's going on.. but the show is.. can't say it's great cause nothing great has happened yet.. can't say bad, cause.. yeah.. nothing bad happened yet.. but it's not as entertaining as Psych.. but i'm kinda feeling that there's a similarity here.. of course, Psych is pretending to be a Psychic.. but there's also something about Psychic aren't real being said on The Mentalist.. but i prefer Psych over the Mentalist cause there's this thing in Psych where they highlight which kinda show his ability to sense important stuff.. in Mentalist.. there's nothing yet.. nothing that would impress bored people like me.. and say stuff like... hey that's awesome.. yeah now i'm just out ...

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Eleven Down, One To Go..

Wow, it's been a year.. can you feel it? can you seriously feel it?, i don't even know what i feel.. But seriously though.. the year does end fast.. first it's january.. and.. snap it's december.. it's been a year.. and i don't recall anything special happen.. it's not like i won a lottery, i didn't save anybody from harm.. i do however.. oh wait.. that's gonna be in a couple of years..

It's Christmas.. oh wait it's not.. wait it is.. nah.. uh.. not for another 22 days..
Yeah.. Christmas.. i'm seriously fond of Christmas.. i used to love Christmas eve since i was a kid.. who doesn't anyway.. i mean.. presents, foods, family, a lot of other things.. well the greatest part of Christmas is the presents.. but nowadays.. barely get any... and ever since i've grown up and stop receiving presents, kinda felt that Christmas has been falling apart.. it's not like how it used to be when it used to be.. i mean sure, we still get together.. we still eat.. but it's different.. you're not happy as you used to be when you're a kid.. and i find that odd... well probably you do stop believing in Santa Claus.. i don't know how many people in Malaysia actually believe in Santa Claus.. but the people in America seriously believe it.. well mostly kids.. well i did on my behalf to believe it too.. until i found out that, there's no snow in Malaysia.. cause it's friggin hot all the time.. and wait, we don't have chimney, how the .... is Santa gonna give us our presents.. yeah... it's pretty obvious.. and strangely.. i don't think parents in Malaysia even try to make their children believe in Santa Claus.. here's what my parents did before Christmas.... put the present on the Christmas tree... that pretty much gives off..

Well.. ranting isn't gonna do anything good.. just wanna find other stuff to do on Christmas other than the usual.. seems pretty bored right now..