So for the past two blogs, I’ve posted bout things that im good at and things that I’ve used to do, this time im gonna write things that im terrible it, maybe it sounds terrible, but it’s something, and maybe one day, im gonna turn it around and make it right.
First of all, im a person, as with everyone else, but i don’t have social skills, so far it has been hard to speak with someone random and finding friends, things might have been different if I have a brother or a sister, cause most of the time im alone at home, no one to talk to, no one to share my thoughts to, so everything for the past 18 years of my life, I have been keeping it to myself, not that I have a lot to tell to someone, but it might be better, or maybe Im the one who could help them…
So all my life all my friends come and go, for the past years none of my friends stick to me like glue, all of them fade away like the wave on the beach. Actually that’s a perfect metaphor to describe me and my friendship with most of my friends, they come and they go, then new friends go, but the tend to go someday, somehow.
So one of the terrible at is making friends, it’s not them that’s terrible, but it’s me, not saying that I always find terrible friends, but more that im a terrible friend to them, I used to have a best friend when I was at primary school, but it our friend ship broke when Britney Spears came along, might sound funny, but she the source of why we’re not friends anymore, it was the time of pop, so yeah, at that time I used to like S club 7, but not anymore, cause im old now, but once in a blue moon I listen to their song, just to remember how it used to be, so me and him used to like S club 7, that might be the reason why we became friends in the first place, then Britney Spears came along so he like Britney more than S club 7, so that kinda pissed me off.. then I let it go, end of friendship, nah that’s not how it went. I wish I knew though.
Then there’s Secondary school, I made a friend accidentally, sounds weird doesn’t it, but he actually became one of my good friend, who was always there and a really good person, this one didn’t involve any songs misunderstanding, we became friends when i intrude most of his conversation with his old classmate, who was my old school mate, but i only intrude to separate them, cause my old school mate wasn't very nice to me when i was at primary school, so i sort of tried to save him from getting bullied, P.s my old schoolmate left the school for some reason, he got bullied back, haha payback's a (blank), serve him right, just because he was a teacher son he could do anything, guess not when your mama wasn't in secondary school, okay might sound mean, but he was really mean not only to me, but the rest of the class, he was arrogant, rude, and proud.
So bout my friend, got lot's of memory when i was in school, one of them was when i was copying his math answer and we got caught, the both of us for doing homework class, i was lazy, but he didn't deserve what he got, his book got taken by the teacher, and it was all my fault cause i didn't do my homework at home, so there we were in front of the teacher, so the teacher ask us to apologize to her, so we did, he did it perfectly, but mine was rather weird i guess, the teacher say my apology didn't sound sincere, Wth is that suppose to mean??, the only reason it might not sound sincere is cause maybe i don't apologize much, not that im a bad person, but i rarely done anything bad to ask forgiveness for, so it was either that, or nothing at all, but hey i tried my best to apologize...
I'm not really a bad person, but sometime i could be annoying, sometime i can really pissed them off, it's not my intention, but i can't help it, it's a disease.. seriously, till now i still have a problem with my friends, but mostly cause they pissed me off, so i sort of got into a fight, but wasn't real i guess, since i didn't get punch, but i did get to see his face all red and full of hatred towards me, but there's lots of people fault here, there's three person involved here, so here's the scenario, my friend hide my food after i had drag my ass down to buy the food, and down again to wash my friggin plate cause there's usually no water, then i came back with my food gone, so i've searched for like 5 minute, so at last i've found it, so i hit my other friend, cause he didn't tell me where it was, i hit him three time, then i kinda push him a little bit more till he punched my face, so yeah all of us were wrong i guess, mostly me for hitting a friend, so that's what makes me a terrible friend, can't imagine if my friend was a girl, seriously don't wanna hurt her, then again i have none, so can't hurt a girl haha..
Other than being a terrible friend, im really terrible at public speaking, i'm really nervous cause i don't speak to alot of people, and my voice isn't loud cause i don't speak to alot of people, but here's what weirds me out, people who know me longer can hear exactly what im saying, people who knew me shorter kept pardoning me to repeat what i've said, my conclusion is, get to me know me a little longer and you might just get me. But in all seriousness, i can't do public speaking flawlessly, from most of my public speaking, all the lecturer's and the teacher had asked me to higher my voice, kinda wish there's a microphone that i could use... but i guess it's important, cause for future references, if i went to an interview, or giving a toast to one of my friends wedding..
Another thing im terrible at is speaking with women, i get nervous around them, but i can still speak, but slurly, even saying hi is a lil bit difficult for me, they say hi with a smile and i just wave and walk very quickly, yeah im shallow, there's one time when a girl talks to me, i just speak to her normally, but my hands and my legs were shaking strongly, seriously i need help!!!
For this week, i've listen to new songs and old songs, new songs would be The Afters, my first time heard of them, so far two songs from their EP sounds really good, called Light Up The Sky and Runaway, sounds really good, hope their song go out on radio. Other than that is Mike Posner with Cooler than me, the song sounds really cool, with the beat and the way he sings, seriously nice song. Old songs, kinda missed Vertical Horizon, one of them is Best i've ever had, i remember when i was a kid, my cousin would sing that song, so there's a bit of memory for that song for me, reminds me the time when i was with my cousin, when i was still with them, the time i wish i could go back...
Other old songs are Gin Blossom with Til i hear it from you, old song but seriously awesome song, my cousin introduce me to that song, and been loving it eversince, the guy however have a weird voice, you can easily mistaken him for a female, just like Justin Bieber, Wallflowers - One Headlight is nice too, though i had no memory of it, but still a nice song, ~Me and Cinderella, Put it all together~, yeah nice song...
Hope i'll make it church tomorrow
With every day, there's night, the day that brighten us, and night's that darken us, with sun that shines over us all, and night darkens us all, can't say moon, cause moon still have a light, just not as bright as the sun.
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