1st Of August

Since there's nothing left to do.. i think im gonna go ahead and go 5 days through my whole life for 19 years as a tribute to myself, all the good and the bad memories i had since i was a wittle baby... so let's start, 1st of august, one of the many things in my life is music, i love music so much that i actually think that i might died if i don't have it. I can totally imagine what my life would be without music, it's not that hard, it's me sitting there, alone, with no one, life less, nothing to do, with nothing to say, nothing to curse, nothing to pick on, just me, here's what i'll be if there's music , still same but much less pathetic... anyway, there are 3 things that i go if i wanna get myself some music, kinda feel like im talking bout drugs here.. anywhere, the three things are my phone, my mp3 player, and my laptop.

Here's what it is, my phone is the most useless thing i've ever used, im not talking just for music but for the whole damn thing, i don't talk, just to my parents, i don't text, seriously i don't, and the only time i used it is when there's not a good internet connection and if my mp3 player died for some reason..
yeah that's my social life, totally blank, can't help though..
My mp3 player, use it a lot during travel, really brightens up the mood a lil' bit, lately been using it to sleep, kinda like my special remedy of lullaby, but the first night after a really long time of not using it, i actually got a headache from using it, not now anymore, i remembered, i use to sleep well when i'm listening to music when im asleep, but now just headache, and tired.

My laptop, for my personal experiences with various type of music, my main important thing i guess, just hope that it won't died and failed me, seriously im scared now, 2 of my friends laptop crash somehow and the price to repair it is half the price of a new laptop.. WTH, i don't wanna waste my money on things that has already broken, waiting for Acer Ethos, question: When the hell are you going to go out?? yeah still suffering...
Anyway, it's my whole database of music, of course i don't listen to all of them, but when i feel bored i do try to listen to weird, funky, ambient, synthpop, owl city type of music, seriously into grunge. Only few bands i know that are good, don't listen to a lot of grunge, but some of them are good, like It's just vanity, okay maybe not the best, but it's still hearable, and our very own Disagree, like this band for a long time, even bought their tape, which i lost now, and Crumbs is my fav track of their whole album.

Went to songmeaning and found out that one of Dashboard Confessional song called The Widow's peak is actually a song about the Hurricane Katrina incident, but lots of people thought that it's a song about couples that broke up and got together again and grew stronger, well i think it's more of the Katrina cause it makes more sense cause he did mention New Orleans in that song, and that song is good, kinda like how he sings and the way the guitar is picked.

Somehow i feel that if i scream loud enough, my soul would come out of me.
Still believe that if i scream when i'm in pain, it would just go away.
Well i scream for no reason and it helps me all the time with nothing.

"If life was easier, it wouldn't be called life"

Random note time!!

"Strange name are given for strange reasons"
"The stars shine brighter when you're with me"
"I feel small when im talking to random people"

Gonna end this with
"I've got a feeling if i sang this loud enough, you would sing it right back to me"