I might have mention that English is my favorite subject, mainly cause i always get good result on my English paper, and i didn't even have to study for it, seriously not braggin but it's just weird, how that's the on;y subject im good at, it's like that's the only subject that im best at and the others, i'm horrible, especially math, i never passed that paper, and here i thought i never passed a math paper as long as i lived, well i just past 2 math paper for the past 2 semester and luckily for the third semester there is no math, but even in college i still maintain my English subject atleast an A- which i got for the past 2 semester which really bug me why can't i get a flat A??, have to do with Public Speaking, yeah not so good at it, im nervous bout it, can't speak at a proper tone while im doing it and mostly i'm just horrible at it. Like when im trying to speak my voice just sorted out, i never knew i could make so much sound in one sentence... it's not like im speaking, but it's still my weakness though, i can't speak english perfectly as the American do which is my biggest problem, i would be just happy if i can speak it at a proper term, might worth something to me one day, i see these people who speak English so well, and i envy them why can't i speak like them, mostly cause i don't use English regularly, wow i've answered all my question... still i asked myself.
Anyway i wanted to take english tuition when i was in Form 3 or 4 but my parents said that im already good at it so why should i take a tuition, well im good at the subject but im not good at the speaking part... Seriously if it wasn't for this Networking diploma, i would take TESOL in OUM, cause that's the closest i can get to a proper English education, but it takes 4 years just for a Diploma and RM20k for the whole course. Yeah it's a lot to be asking, but i just figured i could do so much with that, i could write a book, i could write lyrics, i could write a screenplay, so much i could do, with Networking i'm just stuck at being forced to find a job, if i study English there's lots of possibilities for me, i could be a teacher, a Lecturer, a Radio DeeJay. Yeah seems hopeless now, but as they say be grateful for what you have, cause once it's gone you're gonna miss it. I guess i should cherish for what i currently have..
So the other day i went out to well outing, can't say city cause it's not really a city, so town, yeah i went out to the town, and it's really refreshing, kinda washing my eyes cause i haven't been out for three weeks straight, so just one day i end up losing 60 bucks, yeah it's a lot, mainly i buy stuff that i use like shampoo, soap and tooth paste, and i know i swear i would never buy another magazine, but it was just tempting, Stuff magazine was on sale, that magazine rarely sold on that store, they do sell it but not always, so it felt like an opportunity and i ended up losing 20 bucks, so much for trying, really lost a lot of money, although i got some but just didn't feel like spending in all away, even though it's just a town, surprisingly i ended up more than when i was in the city, of course there is the occasional laptop buying, but it's once in a while.
So there's gonna be ICT week on my college, and there's gonna be fast finger competition, so i think im gonna compete again and try my best to beat the crap out the last semester winner.. well i've been practicing. Then there's Raya, not a muslim, so not celebrating it but im going home cause there's been a lot going on in the dorm, if you know what i mean, and i don't wanna be one of them who's gonna witness it, i scare easily even im strong inside, but story still spooks you sometime, and with the way i heard it, it's just plain scary. Like how all the people went back so the block is gonna be plain black with no lights, lots can happen when it's dark and i don't wanna be a part of it.. im not gonna!
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