The Day Before 1st Of August

Okay, i'm just writing this out of spite, to be honest, this blog will not mean nothing at all, oops, was that straight? i'm kinda confuse, what i mean is that this post will have no meaning, i mean i'm just writing.

So tomorrow is the first of august, it's pretty obvious why my blog name is 6th of august, cause it's the date of my birthday, to be honest i'm a little freak out, cause i'm turning 20!, i guess i freaked out a lot in the last couple of months, well i just can't believe that i'm gonna be hitting 20, it seems like yesterday i was still just a kid, running around in a field of grass and drinking orange julius, well not really, that's what childhood description i got from watching movies.

Well no, my childhood, don't really remember a lot, just that i have a lot of fun with my cousin, personally they're like my brothers and sisters, even though i'm an only child, they always made me feel like i have siblings, even though they gave me a hard time growing up, but once we're all grown up, we're pretty close, and now we're more mature, we're on our separate ways.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, i'm tired of feeling sad of being away with my cousin, it's not like i could do something to have that moments back, playing guitar in the front, playing ping pongs.

So, i'm thinking of making my six days of august an annual thing, i did it last year and i'm thinking of doing it again this year or.. next week, aargh, i still can't believe that i'm gonna be 20, i'm gonna be old, it's just that i never even have my teen hood, and i'm already skipping to adulthood? it's a little bit unfair, but then again, life was never fair in the first place.

Well right now i'm currently working on my presentation for tomorrow, it's safe to say that i'm not scared of public speaking anymore, now i'm focusing on giving a good presentation, i have to set my flaws aside and think of the important stuff, which is a good presentation gives you good mark, and also it will really help me in the future.

I just have to raise my voice a little high and speak a little clearer, i think i know what i want to say, it's just that something inside me is making me avoiding to speak what i really want to say, and instead i panic and i stall, right there, with no words.

But, i read somewhere is that the only reason you screw up is because you're having a negative feeling that you're gonna screw up, so instead of thinking that you're gonna screw up, think of actually succeeding and giving the best damn (sorry for my poor choice of words) presentation you could possibly give.

So, yeah i'm gonna work on my presentation right now and i'm gonna stop here, just one more blog that i have to update, if you wanna see it, go ahead to brightlightfightnight.blogspot.com

Going In First

I don't know why, but recently i'm always first, now being first doesn't necessarily mean bad, except when you're the first one to go to present, i mean it's not such a problem if i'm good at presenting, but to be honest, actually i think i'm able to present, just that a little part of me is still a little scared to speak in front of a class, or like most people know it as fear of public speaking, i've been dealing it since i was in school, but now, i'm facing trouble with speaking clearly, i'm still a little scared going in front, but at least i wasn't like when i was in school, which i really hesitate to go in front, but this time, there's no avoiding it.

Well, for the first class, some unfortunate luck made me pick a random number, and surprisingly that number was 1!, at least i'm a little prepared, i don't think i did a great job, but i did great, sure i stucked for a little while, but hey, i'm no pro, i'm still learning, i guess i really want to explore how to actually give a presentation, what i learned is that you have to know the stuff before you actually present, other than that, it's like you're giving information to people, so that's kinda important, and the most important thing is to be prepared i guess.

So today, more surprising stuff happened, i have a team that i picked out of spite, not really my crowd, but hey, i'm trying new things, don't know if my risk would be worth it or not, anyway, my team was the first to go next week!, we have to present something about supporting agency, well the good thing is that i don't feel any pressure right now, but i'm on it, i'm gonna try to do it tonight, and then i'm gonna finish it tomorrow, then i'm gonna prepare myself and give on good presentation.

I guess this is like a turnover for me, i always like going last, because that means i don't have to rush over things, but now i guess it's kinda good for me to go first, at least i can't procrastinate. Well i'll try my best and see how it goes.

And it's been a little hard to post stuff this time around, i don't have a proper internet, and all the internet i used are either crappy and slow or fast, free but some part of the internet were blocked.

So yeah

Bloggin' Early Mornin'

Well, it's safe to say that the internet here sucks, just can't really measure how much it really sucks, i'm not even sure if this would be posted up, so many posts i've tried to post but failed due to disconnection.

I'm thinking of buying a broadband, actually, i might have bought a broadband if it wasn't for my debts for Digi, well that wouldn't have happened if i haven't put all my trust in Digi, well i kinda took it because it was fast, but regardless of how fast it is, it wouldn't work if your place doesn't have the reception for the broadband which kinda suck, then my mom wanted to apply me a new broadband from Celcom, but due to my debt with Digi, it wasn't possible to do so till my debts were clear.

I kinda glad that i didn't take the Celcom Broadband, cause my friend is actually using Maxis Broadband and it looked much faster and stable than Celcom, how fast? He bought a wireless router to share his internet connection, that's how fast it is, but sad thing is that my place couldn't reach his connection, and now he's having trouble of some kind with the sharing part.

But not to worry, i won't be having this problem sooner, i hope, my room mate is actually buying this thing that actually boost the wi-fi signal so you could get wi-fi connection even if you're place doesn't really reach any wi-fi connections.

I kinda wish that they would make some kinda of internet broadband that when a large group of people are actually consuming it, the speeds actually goes faster rather than going down, i mean that would make much more sense for people to use a broadband, the more people use, the more faster the connection becomes, not becoming slower and making people depressed over unopened page which is excruciatingly ridiculously bugging the hell out of me.

Recently won a bid for 2 mouse by Gigabyte, i don't really know if i actually need 2 mouse, but i definitely need a mouse, my current mouse shows signs to be worry, or is it the battery, but even when the battery is changed, it still won't work, but thankfully, after some time it comes to it senses and goes to work again, should've bought a backup mouse, but never mind, i shall have 2 more mouse.

Well i guess that's about it for now, don't really have school till 10.30 am, feeling like sleeping, oh well, we'll see how it goes.

Turning 20

I don't know how many times i did this post, maybe i didn't, maybe it's all in my imagination making me think that i've already done this, well for whatever reason, i'm doing it again.

Seems like only yesterday i was still a baby, i don't remember a lot of things from when i was a baby, except the fact that i was locked up in a car, some other time, but other than that, i remember when i was a kid, i would spend my days with my mother watching television, there was this cartoon about this big shoe and a lot of characters was living in it, i don't really remember the name of the show, but i think i enjoyed it, there was also that time which i only remembered through a picture where i organized my toys on the table, it kinda seems cool, i used to have so much toys, and now they're thrown out, and i think i might have been confused for a little while, when i was a kid, i don't know why, but my mom and i were fasting, i couldn't quite get it at that moment, cause i wasn't allowed to eat or drink for some time, i might have thought that i was a muslim, but i didn't know anything about religion back then, and now i'm growing up, turning 20, in college, away from my parents, and finding meaning in life.

I guess writing has been the only thing that keeps me going, no matter where i am, what time is it, i'm always writing, maybe not everything in this blog, but i do write other times, i kinda wish that my writing have some meaning for it like it's worth something rather than just writing to let my so-called feelings out.Sometimes i think that i don't have any feelings, and it does kinda scares me, but if i don't have any feelings, how do i explain me feeling nausea after going for a ride in Genting Highland Theme Park, and feeling scared when i feel like there's paranormal things going on, or maybe feelings scared that i would be scolded by my parents if i did something wrong. But there are other feelings that i'm incapable of.

Psychopath

I used to thought that they are killers, but some of em' are, some of em' aren't, but i know that they're actually a manipulative people, other words, they don't feel anything, they don't feel love, they don't feel pain, they don't feel remorse or guilty, it's kinda cool, but it's scary, cause they can really act and what's worse is that, they're controlling us somehow, they're actually smart, that's where the manipulative parts kicks in, but most of them are kind of a killer, the easiest example to see is Dexter, if you have ever watched that show.

Changing topics, so turning 20, i kinda feel like i need to do a list of things that i need to be done before i hit 20, cause i'm turning 20 in less than a month, if you need help trying to figure out when is my birthday, it's on the URL, kinda named my blog after my birthday. One things for sure is that i'm not gonna celebrate my birthday, probably just sulk in my room waiting for seventh august to come, to me it's just another day, i know i'm suppose to celebrate my birthday, but i haven't celebrate my birthday since my 18th birthday, i guess i should celebrate a little bit for the fact that i made it to 20 years of life, most people who are hitting 20 seems to celebrate it, yeah but it's easier for them than it is easier for me.

Yes, i'm one sad human being, but maybe it's genetics, maybe i'm altered to be sad, like there's no amount of happiness that can change my mood. So, i'll stop here before i say something stupid.

My Internet Is Dead!, Yet Somehow I'm Still Online

Internet really sucks, okay, that's a strong judgement, but i'm trying to cut back on playing internet, but i don't think it's working, even when i don't have internet, yet somehow i found ways to get connected, maybe i should just limit my use of internet rather than cutting it off totally, it's just absurd to cut off internet from your life, but i wonder how do people live before the internet, i mean they still survive, i wonder if someday, hopefully in the distant future, we could survive as well without internet.

Renting Cars

I've been renting cars with my friends for 2 times now, and yet i haven't drive once!, i might be a little skeptical when i've said i didn't wanna drive, now that i'm seeing an opportunity to drive, i'm not even driving, i'm not making sense right now cause i'm a little tired, i feel like i had a long day even though it's just 11.40 am.

Feel tired doing assignments last night, even though i'm not the one who did it, and presentation, i have to say it was boring, like i was the only one trying to do a presentation, not saying that i'm good or anything, i'm probably.. the worst, yeah i don't do so well on public speaking, at least i don't read totally off the projector, i've cracked up my head trying to figure out the words that i want my mouth to say, i may have stumble a little, at least i tried to do a presentation, not reading from a friggin projector.

Yeah, class was boring, didn't study anything.

The InternView

Yeah i know the spelling is wrong, but maybe i should make a new word, InternView, Interview for interns, for the last 7 months, i've become an intern at my uncle company, more like a sleeping intern, i didn't do crap, i kinda wish i did, but i didn't, and i had to make a load of crap during the Interview i had today, i was a little nervous i guess, after spending minutes of walking a far, i should really buy a pedometer to keep track of steps i've taken today, feels like 4 maybe 5 thousand steps, those we're a long way, and those stairs weren't friendly, and i arrive with sweats all over my body waiting in a hot temperature room.

All in all, it went well, i manage to make her laugh a little bit, yes my interviewer is a girl, i would say she's pretty, but she's also married, it's not like i could do anything even if i wanted to, due to my inability to talk and socially awkward, i'm incapable of doing anything, i can't even tell a girl i like her even if i want to, like seriously, how? how do you tell a girl that you like her? saying "I Like You" what's that suppose to mean? that's the dumbest thing i've ever heard.. crap..

No i don't like my lecturer, i mean i don't hate her, this is screwed up.. anyway, she's also my mentor, so she helped me a lot in terms of helping me fix my report, and giving me pain to edit all those things out. But it's for the best at the end, i'm not sure how much i got for my points, but i tried my best, i don't i could do more even if i wanted to.

And now i'm washing all my clothes!, nope, not that i haven't wash my clothes for weeks, in fact i wash my clothes every single day, except for my pants, not my shorts, but my pants, cause it's too heavy and hard to watch, so i decided to wash it every week, but still on schedule to wash my clothes every day, i don't know what is it with people with washing clothes, i personally like washing my clothes, manually, cause there's not washing machine here, i used to miss the privileged to have a washing machine to wash my clothes for me, but now it's time for independent, so far i don't have any problems with washing clothes.

Yeah, i'm sleepy, but wash my clothes first.

Going Class

It's the first class of the semester!, well not quite actually, we already had our first class last 2 days ago, but it's more of an introduction rather than class, that's what i like about the start of the semester, the fact that we don't have to start learning right away, but there was this one time on the first semester when we we're handed out our first assignment on our first class, yeah, everyone thought it was crazy, but we did it anyway.

It's just a little bit hard, this room somehow making me lazy and i'm pretty sure it's about the heat, i can't even wake up on time, and my eyes are always sleepy when i'm actually waking up, but after a while, the heat starts to go away, one thing i hate other than sweating is waking up in my own sweat, i don't know why i do that, it's like and uncontrollable disease, but i guess it is much better than having a sweaty hands, read about it, and i kinda feel poor to the people, can you imagine having sweaty hands, and not those normal sweat you get from doing too much work, but it's kinda like water flowing from your hands, i mean it's a little weird, but there is a treatment for it, well i don't know how to react, so i say things, okay i'm sorry.

Taking bath, i mean it's not like the bathroom is bad or anything, but the water is pretty slow, the one thing i used to love about the toilet on college dorm is the pressure, i feel like i'm taking a bath on a fire hydrant hose, but now all of it is gone, but weird thing is that inside the toilet where people actually poops, the water pressure is actually strong, but i'm done taking shower and washing my clothes in toilets, it's not as delightful as it sounds.

I don't know what's wrong with me but i know there's something wrong with me, i haven't quite chose my words good these past few post, i mean normally i would come up like something different to say and use other words instead of the overusing words that most people use, just that i don't watch a lot of things these days, nor do i read magazine anymore, i guess those are some part of my life that's easier to learn, without even trying i learned some new words and i know how to use them, but not anymore, and i can't even watch them anymore cause i know it's the main thing that's failing me all this time, it's a little bit time consuming but at the end, what you'll get is not what you can buy, but if it was between studying and watching, it's losing because at the end of the other end, it doesn't really have any value.

I don't know what i'm talking about, just saying my mind out loud, yesterday was a little surprise, there's this site called Superbid.com.my, which let's user bid for stuff that they might be interested, i must have bid like a dozen of stuff, but end up losing all of them, all in all, i have to say that i'm a little relieve, but it's fun bidding at stuff that you're imagining that's gonna be yours, but sadly that didn't meet mine expectations, but my friend did won though, congrats. But here's the catch, it only happens every wednesday, so if you wanna try your luck, go on ahead, but be warned! it's addicting, well unless you're rich then i guess okay, but people like me who don't actually crap money, i don't even have a source of income, i wish there's something that i could do to get money, i don't know why, but i used to hate money, i think of money is this thing that destroys all of us that makes us greedy, but at the end, it's just a piece of paper, but a paper that has a worth, but it's not like we can't totally use it, cause we kinda depend on it, because the whole world use money to buy stuff for a living, unless we could find some alternative source for money, then i guess we can live off without using money, or maybe we could start back the thing that started it all, Barter!, i don't really know if people are still actually practicing barter, but it would be cool, i mean i could trade my mp3 player for a sack of rice, okay i'm kidding, i'm not gonna do that, but you see my point.

So class is about half an hour, so i'ma take some bath, under the blazing sun, yeah not really, i'm just delusional.. okay. this is where we part.

Bored To Death

I don't really know if it's scientifically proven that feeling bored could actually cause death, but it's like a terrible feeling when you don't have anything to do and just wander there for a really long time.

Lately that's how i feel, bored, not because there's nothing to be done, actually i'm starting a new semester so it's gonna take some time before the actual studying begins, but waiting for it is a little bit boring, cause i've wasted a lot of time not doing anything, so i'm really eager to study and get my head filled with stress, but i'm just stuck in this room with nothing to do.

For the longest time i feel bored, i know i'm bored when i walk around the dorm for no reason, maybe just to get air, clear my head, but it's friggin bored, i just wish there's something to do around here, actually i could play sports with my friends, but it's not like they invited me or anything, oh well, even the internet connection is slow, but playable, but it gets frustrating when i'm trying to play online game when i'm hitting the same friggin monster for half an hour!

But Maxis broadband seems to be very fast, too bad i have debt with DiGi, they've been calling me like hell, and they're not letting me apply for a new broadband at other telco which is really weird, i didn't know that they could actually that.

My problem with DiGi is that they're new, so they're pretty fast in known places, but in places like mine which is less known to most people, it's not really fast, i don't think it's even usable, so that's my reason for not paying, why should i pay for something that i'm not happy about, i barely even use the broadband, cause it would just make me more frustrating waiting for the page to load, and now i'm paying 18 bucks a week for internet, at least it's better than DiGi, i don't really blame DiGi, personally they're pretty fast, but because they're new, so they haven't quite expand through the nation, so i don't know.

Maybe i should stop playing the internet, i know i know, the internet is such a big part in our lives, but i don't wanna waste my time with slow internet, i rather do.. i don't know but something productive, like getting out, i'm really starting to see what internet is turning us into, staying in our room and not getting out, i mean that's what most kids do these days anyway, including me, i feel like changing, but it's not gonna be easy letting go of internet, i mean internet has been part of my life for such long, internet was there when my parents didn't pay for Astro, and i found new ways, learned new things, bought stuff, mostly everything through the internet.

Okay, it's gonna be hard, but i don't think it's gonna be impossible, i guess i have to look at it in another way, guess the simplest solution is to see it as a gadget, like most gadget like phones, cameras, laptops, they change fast, like you won't have the same thing if you buy it this year cause they're without a doubt will change next year, the fastest change rate of evolution is without a doubt technology, as they say technology is always growing.

So here's my way of looking at stopping playing internet, in 5 years, there's probably gonna be more cheaper and more faster internet connection being offer to users, but i guess i can't totally stop playing internet, i just have to spend less time on the screen and more time on the streets.

Oooh, interesting thing, and i just found out about it today, so 3D is like 2 years ago, but 3D has made a big impact to our everyday life, every technology is changing to 3D to make us feel more realistic to watching content on our computers, but the problem is it cost a hefty amount of cash, other than that, there are other concerns like health, but today i found out 4D, i thought that 3D was like the end, and they're just probably gonna work on holograms, but 4D is really weird, but i see what they're doing and it's pretty cool, 4D is actually similar to 3D on the visual and audio part, but here's the kick, you could actually feel from the movie, i've read at an article that 4D movies let's you feel the kick from the movie, but not really hard, as well as smells from movie like burning or rubber, Transformers.. Other than that, the chairs will also shakes to make the viewers feels more real into the movie.

It's actually cool to see that, but i don't think that we'll be having 4D technologies in our homes any time now.

Crappy Chewing Gum

So, i'm not really a chewing gum enthusiast, but i do like a long lasting gum, which i never had until i knew that such things do exist, so i just bought a stick of gum, well not a stick, but a mini pack of gum that hold 5 sticks of gum, you know the Wrigley's Chewing Gum, they used to sell it 70 cents, and now they sell it for a buck? well times do pass so fast.

Anyway, i timed it and it only holds the flavor for a mere 9 minutes, but there's actually a gum in the US which is called Stride Gum, or Stride 2.0 which i'm really eager to try, cause they said it's the long lasting gum in the world, i mean probably, i'm not entirely sure, but that's kinda awesome, although it might be bad for your health, but the long lasting thing is friggin awesome, i mean just imagine going on a road trip and just had one gum from the moment you left till you arrive, that's friggin awesome, too bad they don't sell here in Malaysia, i do hope they sell it, cause i want to try it.

But there is this other gum called 5, i've tried it before, and it's pretty decent, it's kinda like Clorets gum which has those mint seeds, but instead of seeds, they have this explosive seeds of taste, which is also awesome, Wrigley's don't have those, but i haven't actually time them for how long they last, but i'm pretty sure they don't really last that long, probably slightly longer than the Wrigley's gum, maybe i should do a chewing gum review, hmm, that's kinda awesome, maybe someday.

So yeah.

Sem 5 Update

And so it begins, another semester of studying, head cracking, staying up late to finish up an assignment, the whole nine yards if you will.

There are few changes that's noticeable, like the road, other than that, there's a new spot for where they sell stuff, it's like a shop, probably because it is a shop, but they don't call it that.

Well, the room is a little bit hot, and it's seriously hot, it's massive heat is impeccable to resist, not that i'm cooking eggs or anything like that, but it's tremendously hot, i say hot a lot cause i don't know any other words for hot, or just simply lazy.

My work is not completely done, i still have some work to be done, nah that's not good, i still have some progress to be made.

Yeah, i'm skipping things, funny thing, so i just got back my printer and it was working after changing the cartridge, but then we went to sibu and came back, and last night, i wanted to print some stuff, and turns out my printer didn't work, i was kinda worried that it won't work, but later today, my friends had a look at it and they fix it, the cartridge actually pops from the inside and it's stuck and unable to move which causes the problem with the printer, but they ripped it off and fixed it, i'm really glad i have a printer, cause that means, i doesn't have to be a hassle to print my documents, on the other hand, you will get massive request for your help, don't get me wrong, i'm all in for helping people, but who's gonna help me at the end of the day? yeah that didn't make sense, but i'm sick of doing good deeds and not getting something back that's good, kinda makes me feel that my good deed is actually worthless, anyway.

So yeah, not much has change, another year and it will all be over, i wish. and hope so, i don't know.

The Road Taken

Yeah, i might have changed the title from a poem i think by Robert Frost called The Road Not Taken, i read it in high school, and i didn't get what the poem means.

Anyway, i'm back here in Mukah, which leads to my title, Mukah is well known for, well i don't really know what it's really well known for, but i could tell you for what they're not known for, it's their road, the first time i went here the road was rather, probably the worst road i've ever encounter, it's all gravelly, but the good news is that after 2 years, they are able to complete it, so now, the road heading to Mukah is smooth and silky, i don't really know how silky applies to it, but at one point i saw the road was shining, it wasn't even raining.

Back here, it's a little bit relaxed, not like the first or second semester where we all are rushing to do apply ourselves, and i have a little bit more freedom since my parents are here with me, like i could go out to town at night, i've never done that in the 3 semester that i'm here.

My reports are magically done, and there's a minor adjustment that has to be made, but other than that, it all went well, then we have an interview which is gonna happen on the 11th of july till the 26th of july which is a really long time, and i just saw the subjects that we're gonna be taking for the fifth semester, and for the fifth semester we only have five subject which is okay, i was kinda expecting for four subject, but seems like it's not gonna happen anytime soon, even on the sixth semester we're gonna have five subject.

At least, it's not a lot like previous semester, but the thing is that, even when they're not a lot, but they're gonna get harder which is my concern cause i'm a person that can't take too many at a time, and just when i got one thing done i'm gonna start slacking, maybe i should look at it as if i'm winning the lottery or something you know, being done, and making more things done.

Bought a printer cartridge today, it has been so long since my printer hasn't print anything, so i decided to buy a cartridge, plus i have a few documents to print, and another 100 pages to print. I suppose i should do it now, but i'm stiil on the internet trying to download some drivers from the printer since i didn't bring my cd driver with me.

So yeah, that's what's happening with me lately.

P/s

- Finally got a room on the 1st floor!

Building Up

I'm on my final hours being here, well, i'm leaving for college soon, and i still haven't done my work, though this is the last, but still lots of my friends have already done, done, printed and ready to go..

I'm still on the process of writing, yeah it's pretty bad, i have serious issue with procrastination.

Just hope that i could finish it by tonight, cause tonight is the last night that i'm gonna be spending time at my house, the last time i'm gonna be procrastinating, the last time, well i can go on and on but that would be a little boring now wouldn't it?

It scares me a lot, that i don't think i can finish it, cause i have literally 4 chapters to write, and it has to be more than 50 pages, and i'm only starting with the first chapter! ranting about my work isn't gonna help me is it? i wish it worked that way. But at least i won't have carpal tunnel..

And the other part, there has been a lot of construction work going on around my house lately, and i think it should bug me, but the sound doesn't really bother me that much cause my music is much louder than the banging sound that they make, but it's when my house trembles, it literally shakes, now i know how it felt if there's ever an earthquake, just less scary, cause if it was an earthquake, my house would probably be torn, it's just a little scary that my whole house shakes, and i don't know if it's safe, kinda feel dangerous, and i don't know should i complaint or something, cause i'm a little concern for my safety as well as the safety for my parents, but they don't seem to be scared by it.

Well another six months and it will all be over. Aah, another six months at college, hopefully it won't suck, oh no, i'm not gonna let it suck this time, i'm not even gonna let it step foot in my door, i'm not even gonna make it reveal itself, for once in my life, i want everything to go okay, not perfect, just okay. And the best part is that i'll only have 2 semester left, then off to university, that is if i get credited in my BM test, and i'm leaving my old life, being sleazy, lazy, practically everything that's bad, trying to change myself here, i'm growing up, i don't wanna act like a kid anymore, but i also don't wanna act like an old dude, just a little mature, it's about time.

It's just that, there's no one that could show me those way of being a better person, just have to find out myself, if i have a brother, at least i could like get advice from him or something, but it could turn the other way, of being a bad influences to me, i've seen some brothers around, and yeah, they're kinda a bad influence to their siblings.

I'm really gonna miss the internet, cause i know i'm not gonna have internet connection there, it's not even worth trying, cause i've tried like a gazillion times, but at the same time, it's not gonna make me lazy like these 7 months that i've spent my time doing, but i don't know how i'm gonna blog over there, well that's what notepads are for, but it's like gonna be 2 more semester left, than freedom!, well not really, i'm probably gonna apply to a university or something, and this time, that place better have an internet connection!, it's not like i live in the internet, just that, it gets boring when there's nothing to do, ooh i see it now, so that's how we because lazy, the internet, well i'm gonna live like some caveman or something, and play sports or go jogging in the evening, probably, there's like a low chance of me doing that, but that would really fill the void of my free time, and maybe i could like study for once, cause i've never studied really really good, i seriously wanna feel how it is to be smart, cause it looks like their life is kinda perfect, get to go to good school jobs, me, well i'm on their way too, just slower.

Anyway, i'm back doing my work, breaks over.