I Miss Anime

I seriously do, don't get me wrong, series is still my number one choice of entertainment, but anime brings something else, they give you imagination, something that you thought would never happen in life, while all dramas gives you is emotion, but it's still down to earth, real, something that you can relate to, i seriously don't know how you could relate your life to anime, but you could give it a try i guess..

I guess one of my favorite anime's has to be Bleach, cause it's the first anime i saw, my cousin kinda introduced it to me, i wasn't into anime's at first, because of the language barrier and you have to read off it, but the English translations is actually good, sometimes even better than drama's. But i kinda hate bleach sometimes cause it feels like it never ends, oh wait, it still hasn't, but most anime's are like that, while dramas are much more easier to relate to cause they are by seasons, where as anime's are all the way, there's no stop, they keep on going, but i'm putting it all behind me.

Usually i would only watch like comedic anime's, i'm not really into those serious stuff, but that's the thing about Bleach, sometimes it's so funny that i would drop on the floor and laugh (not really), and sometimes, it's serious, and you're just confused, well not really, but i never find anime's that would make you wanna cry, okay maybe some, but i think if you wanna cry, Korean movie's the way to go, aahh.. so many memories, i cried like 6 out of 10 korean movies, well not really cried, but made me turn to tears, they just good good emotion going on, especially at the end, i mean they build you up in the beginning being funny and all, and then the fight starts, and when one of them starts to realize and wanted to apologize after realizing they're mistakes, one of them turns out death and he felt guilty over his mistakes and cried, okay i'm just imagining a scene, i do that sometimes.. funny i'm not writing my own stuff..

Maybe i should try writing stories, but i need like an inspirations, like the source of the story, i mean i could use my own, but that would just be a biography, i mean i've tried, but i never finished any of it, just had a good idea, lame beginning and stop, i never spend more than a day writing a story, usually just an hour or two, come to think of it, i need to find those notepads, maybe there's something left for me to do after all..

Well.. that's about it, i'm not really a creative guy, just a lazy guy who's lazy to explore stuff that could actually benefit me in the future as to where i'm living in the current present is just making me not doing anything cause if i do something, i don't really know, aahh.. that's not long enough..

Well...

I'm So Lazy Right Now

Woo.. even though the holiday is only for a few days, i feel like it's been a month, i slept like 10 hours, people usually sleep for 8 hours, but i did kinda sleep late in the morning, yeah i got some problem.

Just that lack of activities makes me feel like there's nothing else to do so i'm spending most of my time playing the computer, which incidentally makes the statement kids nowadays are like zombies staring at the monitor the whole day.

Well, not for long, if i succeed to become an innovator, i'll make drastic changes, no more will we live staring at a monitor, no more will we suffer in blurry eyes, and much more to come.

I don't exactly know what to do, but i'm feeling like an interactive programs where we can interact with each other through virtually, i mean it would be cool, but it would also cost lots of money, but then again, that's kinda the point of innovation, spending lots of money to make great innovation.

Well.. i'm just bored right now, even though it's raya and merdeka, man i have no spirit, i've been feeling like this since the past 2 christmases, seriously, i'm not doing anything right now, yeah i hate being at home.

Well, i'm gonna be her for a few days left, so, let's make the most of it..

Testing Out New Broadband

Okay, this post might actually be interesting if i actually take photos and describe what the photos are, but i'm too lazy to do that, but i'm thinking of another concept for a blog, actually just making new post on my old blog, my cashmiera seems doomed, but i have an idea that will solve both my solution for that blog, well first of all, that blog is supposed to be about taking photos everyday and post on it, but that didn't go so well, and i have another idea which is suppose to write stories on my blog to test my creative writing skills, turn out i don't have any, it's kinda hard when you're actually trying to do stuff, but one of the most accomplishment that i'm proud of happens when i'm not trying, like people say i'm funny when i'm not trying, but when people say that i'm funny, i feel like it's my obligation to be funny, and that's when it all fall apart.

Anyway, my idea is to kinda take photos and try to make it look like a story, i mean that would be awesome, i can cross 2 things off my list, kill two birds with one stone, walk and talk at the same time, you see where i'm going right? but i gotta hold it off for a moment, cause i'm really not in a blogging mood right now, maybe because it's raya, not that i celebrate it, but i've been blogging none stop last week, so i feel like i'm giving it all last week and not keeping some for this week, maybe after i come back.

And now, testing my new broadband, it's not the fastest, but it's functional, i can live with waiting few seconds, i think it could be a lot faster if it wasn't for my modem, the modem kinda broke and it's not functional, not really broke, just that the USB is dented, what's up with that? i just applied the broadband, but i have to say i'm satisfy with the speed, cause it's a lot better than Celcom, but i don't know if it's any better than digi, cause i still feel like Digi is faster, but Digi don't have reception at where i'm studying, so that's kind of a bummer.

And i'm gonna change the modem this friday, and fix my teeth, my root canal procedure isn't quite done, i can feel my teeth falling apart, not really my teeth, just the plasters the doctor filled in my mouth which is not suppose to stay longer, but i think i might have to do another root canal after i come back for the end of semester, cause he showed the x-ray of my teeth, and the teeth that's currently have like a big hole which is where the blood flow was stuck making my teeth hurt and smelly, but on the other side, there's another one, but it's still small so he didn't do the procedure, but i kinda have an idea as to why my teeth happened like that, i don't know how to say it..

But a few months ago, i actually have my teeth done, but it was odd, cause when i breathe through my mouth, i can feel a little bit of pain when the wind came in through my mouth, and if it was cold, it would hurt even more, so i think, over time, the pain kinda go away, and it's like it rot over there, i think there's like a hole that weren't completely sealed off in my teeth, i mean that's just my guess, but i did mention it to the doctor before, and i couldn't remember what she said, but she didn't checked on it, i mean i'm just saying, i'm not pointing any fingers.

But i'm kinda scared if the second teeth actually happens faster, cause i don't know if there's any dentist at Mukah, and i don't know how to go back after you go to the hospital cause i don't see any bus stop around, and i don't know how to walk alone..

Well that's about it, my broadband seems fine, so i'm just gonna use my wi-fi..

Stuffs

Finally, accidentally really, i finally bought a monitor and a broadband, pretty much i'm very satisfied with it, probably blog about it later, now i'm just taking it all in, i mean it's awesome, sure it's pricey, but i think it will benefit me in the long run.

I know i said that i won't buy expensive stuff, i don't think this count as one, cause, i mean it's still expensive, but it doesn't cost thousands of bucks, it's.. okay lah.. so-so, i was kinda 50-50 buying it, but my dad insist, my dad doesn't really care about money, he care about happiness, as long as it makes me happy, he'll buy it, but that kinda worries me a little bit, cause price comes in the form of happiness, i don't really know what it means.

But money can't buy happiness, maybe not in actuality, but for the time being, it's the only way that we know how to make one happy, well i'm quite happy i have to say, i mean it's a big bad screen, not really, it's only a 21" LED monitor by Samsung, i guess i really like the fact that it's LED and it's in FULL HD, i mean i've always wanted to try out full HD, cause i always see Full HD motion which is life-like, that triggered me at first, i just hope that me buying this monitor would help me experience it.

I mean it's really awesome, i know i sound like i'm bragging, but man.. i thought that it was kinda dullish, cause when i saw it, the person who's testing it is using Windows XP, somehow windows 7 makes it better, and i'm thankful with VGA, cause even if you don't have a HDMI source, you can still use it at Full HD, cause my laptop doesn't really have any HDMI slot, but it does have an AGP slot which supposedly make your computer graphic card better, but i still haven't found how to actually make an external graphic card, My laptop is actually kinda like the first version of the Sony Vaoi Z series, the new one, just cheaper, and not really functioning, cause i don't have the drive, i don't know if Sony is planning to sell the drive, if they are, i might be in luck, cause it contains graphic card, blu-ray reader, i mean it's really awesome..

Well.. that's about it, probably gonna blog later today, just gonna sleep, cause i'm still sleep deprived.

iPad Makes Grown Man Look Like Kids

Just a funny thing i saw today, there was a guy, probably late 30's and he's using his iPad as he walks, i don't know why, but it's kinda funny, it reminds me when i saw kids playing their Gameboy, DS, all other handheld, but usually it's kids who are too focus on their handheld to be focusing on walking, and today, i saw a grown man, well except he's using an iPad, but it's still funny when you think about it.

I'm not pointing fingers, just saying that it's funny.. okay okay.. it's funny i get it.. but finally i went to Karamunsing, and i was rather disappointed, there was AOC monitors, but the model that i'm searching for is nowhere to be seem, now i'm feeling like there's less hope for me to actually buy a monitor, i don't think i'll be able to buy a monitor, maybe in the next few years.

I'm still sleep deprived!

Sunday Morning Rain Is Falling

No.. it's not actually raining, just a verse from Maroon 5's Sunday Morning.

Speaking of Sunday, today is in fact Sunday, and i didn't go to church, i guess i couldn't if i wanted to anyway, it's not like in Mukah, if i was in Mukah, i could bring my friends, okay lately i've been comparing KK to Mukah, cause i have nothing else to compare to, if this was America, nah.. i can't even improvise..

Anyway, this morning took me by surprise, i actually still haven't sleep, couldn't sleep last night, anyway, my mom called me at 6 in the morning bringing me to Gaya Street, which is located near KK i guess, it's kinda like farmer's market, though i seriously never been to a farmer's market, but i imagine that Gaya Street is kinda like farmer's market, or probably is farmer's market.

Didn't do much, just looking around, and saw lots of potential for a DSLR shot, yeah.. too bad i didn't bring my camera, not that i would've taken any picture anyway, i'm still shy i guess, but one day i will, i saw some sweet spot, the first thing i notice were the leaf, i could like focus on to that leaf and leave the market as the background, i don't know that's just my interpretation.

I guess i've been blur, literally, cause i don't usually use my glasses, but today i wear my contacts, yes i wear contacts, talk bout it later, and i've been seeing so many clear things, things that actually amuse me, nothing funny, just taking me by surprise.

So.. after like half an hour walking and sweating, finally ate breakfast at Fook Yuen, i don't know why, but my parents seems to love that place, don't get me wrong, i love that place too, the food is not so awesome, and not so bad, it's just right, but my parents has been going there too many times, like they don't have other places to go to, when in fact there's actually lots of places to go, but i don't even know..

But i haven't still gone out yet to find my stuff, just going out looking at irrelevant stuff, lots of girls though, and lots of grandma's, haha... yeah.. that's enough, i'm finally falling asleep right now..

Probably The Shortest Post Ever

Hey guys, not much has happened these few days, don't really have anything to talk about.

So i guess i'll just study a little bit and try to get an early sleep.

Other than that, see told you.. shortest post ever..

Okay but seriously though, i don't wanna leave it like that, that's like juvenile to do a post like this, but seriously though,i have nothing to talk about, nothing has come to me yet..

So yeah.. sorry bout that.

Another Unproductive Day

Yeah.. someone get me outta here!

Dude.. seriously, i'm out of my mind here, i don't even know what to say in this blog..

Well.. let's go into another direction, cause, enough of me being boring in the house the whole day, i don't wanna like spread my dullness over the internet, but seriously though, i think my soul is dying slowly.

I kinda feel like when i was a few months ago, soulless, lifeless, like i'm better off.. nah not gonna finish it, but i'm probably gonna study, there's a test coming up, i just lost focus of what i should do cause i'm so into buying stuff that i forgot what's important.

Well, if no one's gonna teach me this week, i'm gonna teach myself, i'm gonna be my own lecturer, i'ma set my own projector and be like a lecturer while i stand in front of an empty crowd explaining it to myself as i sit down taking notes, so it would be like me being a lecturer and a student changing back and forth.

But on a relatively interesting side of the mode, yesterday i watch this series called Auction Hunters, it's actually on the Discovery Channel, it took me sometime to get to it, cause there were lots of show like it, there was Pawn Stars, Storage Wars, but i finally got to it, i mean it's a little bit exciting to see, how they turn junk to gold, not literally, but they made money out of unclaimed storage that they bought in an auction, i don't know if they actually do that in Malaysia, but it would be kinda cool, i mean some people actually make a living out of those, but one thing bothers me is that, why is that storage unclaimed? i mean is it like purposely? or are they dead? they kinda failed to mention it, but i guess it's not important, but i'm really curious to find out, cause i know i won't be able to sleep if i was the one selling the stuff for profit off a dead person stuff, i mean that's just plain wrong.

But it's exciting to see like, how they turn rusted stuff into new, i mean that's incredible, like heavily rusted, probably unusable, and suddenly, like it's new? that's awesome i have to say.

The Third But!

Actually it isn't relevant, i'm kinda into watches, i mean i saw this one watch on the internet and i kinda feel like i wanna buy it, i mean it's not expensive, but if i actually buy it, it would be the most expensive watch i ever bought, like currently the most expensive watch i ever bought is mostly 50 bucks, okay there were one time when i bought a hundred bucks worth of watch, and i didn't use it, but this is just too awesome, it's a Tag Heuer Monaco watch, it's a replica, but good enough, i seriously can't afford the original Tag Heuer, the original cost like a thousand bucks if i'm not mistaken, but it's kinda cool, it's big, it's metally, it shows time!.. of course that's not convincing, but it's a watch, that's like the only thing that i can use..

Going Vegetarian By Going To KFC!

Okay.. that's like the third time i write my title, mainly because my stupid mousepad keeps closing my browser...

Anyway, i know that KFC might not be the first place for vegetarians to get their food, but hey, i'm only like 30% becoming vegetarian, i still eat meat, just not as much, but i went to KFC just to buy coleslaw, yeah.

My parents really eat late at night, i don't even know what to say, usually i would probably be asleep right now.. probably

But honestly KFC is like the only place that opens 24 hours that serve vegetables, i mean i don't know, i can do nothing but assume, cause my parents don't really know much place of where they serve vegetables other than my mom cooking it by herself .

But seriously though, it's been a while since i ate vegetables, actually that's not true, i just had it a couple of days ago, and i had coleslaw yesterday, but i miss vegetables, mainly because it's easy to eat, i mean you don't have to use your finger to eat it, you don't have to get it all oiled up just to eat it, and the best part is that it's actually good for your digestive system, all i know that meat does is give you energy, but who needs energy when you can have proteins and lots of vitamins?

Yeah, not the best words to successfully influence people to become a vegetarian.

I'm not a vegan though, though i don't really know what the term vegan really means, i'm still understanding what vegetarian means, okay maybe i'm not wholly vegetarian, maybe i'm an omnivorian, i don't know what...

But anyways, coleslaw are okay i guess, and i actually starting to like coleslaw more than whipped potato right now, oh yeah that reminds me, i got a new word to spell potato, Powtaytoh!

Yeah,i don't know if PowTayToh is gonna catch up or not, i actually haven't finish my coleslaw, cause i'm currently writing, but i remember the best coleslaw are from Giant, too bad they don't serve coleslaw anymore, i mean they were delicious, they're coleslaw are kinda long instead of shredded like KFC, they're just tiny pieces, and Giant coleslaw are kinda thick rather than KFC which is watery.

I just can't wait to go back to Mukah and eat more vegetables!

Oh yeah, that reminds me, i was suppose to write a post about my parents ruining my holidays by not bringing me out and instead leaving me at home the whole day while i know that they're busy baking cookies and all but that is no excuse for leaving your son inside the house doing nothing cause he's been studying for a whole month and a half and he deserve going out for this few weeks that he has because he might not have a lot of time to go out and see stuff on a regular basis but he still deserve seeing stuff, i don't know, was that long enough?

I think i might start photoblogging right now, oh wait.. my coleslaw is half finish..

maybe some other time.. till then..

Something Shocking!

Okay, as you all know, today was the day that Steve Job left Apple for health reason, he left the position as Apple CEO which is really shocking really, never in a million years would i thought Steve would do that, and now, the CEO of Apple is the COO of Apple which is Tim Cook, i don't really know him that well, just hope that he could lead Apple as good as Steve did or maybe even better.

Now, i may not be a supporter of Apple, by that i don't mean i hate them, just that i don't buy their stuff every single time they came out with product, cause unfortunately, i don't poop money, yeah.. that joke is getting old, but seriously there are people out there who are die-hard fans of Apple, those are the real supporter.

Hate of like Apple, they have made changes through out history, and just recently, they became the most valuable public company that surpassed Exxon.

Yeah.. don't really wanna talk anything bout that, what i wanna talk is my experience which is really strange that it lead to this occurrence.

First of, there was this Symbian Belle by Nokia release few days ago, so i watched, and i was amaze by how many positive feedback left at the comment, i felt good that even though Android and Apple are the top dogs in Smartphones these days, there are still a lot of people supporting nokia, but then i read another comment which says that the keynote speaker weren't as good as Steve Jobs which i have to agree, there was this British guy who had live in Hong Kong for 20 years, i mean it was a little boring, cause he talked about the history of Nokia phones, which people are just really eager to see the new phones which are the Nokia 700, 701 and 600.

After seeing the phones, i immediately search for Steve Job keynote speaking on youtube, i mean i watch his Keynote when he launch the iPad 2, that was an incredible moment, i mean i wan't there, but yeah, still incredible, i remember waiting till like 4 or 5 am just to see it, cause i was really eager to see the iPad 2.

But last night, i watched his iPhone 4 keynote, which is a little bit long, like almost 2 hours, i didn't finished it, but i was halfway through, so a little bit curious, i went on Google to find anything about the iPhone 5, but none interest me, so i went on like a website which i don't usually go, it's called techcrunch.com, i mean i honestly never been to that site. And that was where i was shocked, the front page says "Steve Jobs Resigns As Apple CEO", then i thought to myself, this must be a hoax or something, that can't be true, i mean why would someone who build like an empire so hard and made it successful and leaves? but i went on to more tech blogs such as Gizmodo and Engadget and they say the same things, and i don't really know what to feel, it was just strange.

But i read about it, and i really like one of the comment that one people gave, saying that he's kinda an anti-apple, but he respect apple for what they've done for the technology industries, which i really highly agree, yeah, but i think it's a really sad day for Apple.

I really felt strange that it led to me last night, i seriously can't sleep, then i found out about this, i don't know why i feel strange, it's not like it's affecting me in any sort of ways, but still.

My Phone Is Dead

Seriously gonna make this one short, if i could..

So.. my phone has been dead, not actually dead, but sometimes, i have a lot of alarms, and when it rangs, it kinda drains all the battery of my phone till it's dead.

I mean i don't mind so much if i was back at Mukah, but my dad has been, kinda mad that i'm not picking up my phone, not that i did it purposely, but sometimes my phone is on silent mode, and sometimes my alarm drain the battery, so it kinda.. dead.. so i can't answer his call.

It's actually like this, i live in a 3 storey house, so it's kinda hard to call me whenever my parents need to call me to go out, needing my help, or if there's fire going on! nah just joking.. so they kinda just called me on my cell.

I remember when i was a kid, when i truthfully didn't hear when my parents called me due to hearing songs on my speakers on headphone eventually leading me into not hearing them when they call me, so they would.. like scold me, asking my why i did not answer them, well to be honest, i didn't hear them, i mean honestly, how would you respond if you couldn't hear, it's not like i did it purposely, but yeah, they did make some point, if there was a fire.. i would probably.. err yeah.. let's not finish that..

But at least i'm getting a new phone, i wasn't actually planning to get one, but i got one, there's not much that i could do right? yeah.. just that.. waiting is a bit of a pain in the.. not finishing it..

I just hope when i get back that it's there, so i can finally taste the power of Android OS on a cheap device, i don't care, i seriously don't care, all i care is that i don't spend thousand of bucks at once, on things that i know at some given time will have a better version of itself, i'm okay knowing that i bought a cheap stuff, and even if there's better stuff, i didn't waste on em, just that i waste my money on something that's... yeah i don't know what i'm saying.

The way i see it is that i'm spending money on something that i'm actually using, i think i could use an Android OS device and a qwerty device, cause i've been wanting to write on my phone so long, just that i haven't been able to do that properly with a stupid qwerty phone that isn't able to use right now, with resistive touch screen and tiny keys, yeah.. i'm gonna write so much on that phone just when it arrives.

Okay, that's short enough right?

I'm Consistent!

Yeah, i'm consistently blogging these past few days, well, i'm just gonna blog till i can't blog no more, who knows, maybe some unfortunate.. yeah i don't wanna complete that sentence.

Today, nothing much, man i hate being in the house all day, i mean i'm still resting, still can't eat properly, but my teeth doesn't hurt anymore, but all i ate is porridge.

Like seriously porridge, then i asked my parents if i could have KFC, yeah they were kinda worried for me at first, cause of my teeth, but i said i just want some coleslaw and whipped potato, i seriously initially wanted to buy that at first.

But man, it's really hard to resist temptation, i end up, eating 3 pieces of chicken, and a large coleslaw and whipped potato.

Here's the thing, my parents don't know where to eat vegetables around town, so i have to buy at KFC, true story, but i end up eating chicken, which is a mistake!, now i'm all full, and.. actually i'm just full, and i don't wanna.. probably gonna starve myself till sunday..

Yeah, i seriously hate being at home, cause i lack movement, if i was at Mukah, i'll be walking to class and i'm gonna be consistent, but here,.. it's a little bit hard, but i'm not gonna let that be my excuse, i'm gonna find a way, i'm not sure, probably gonna walk around the neighborhood tomorrow, cause i'm so friggin bored at home... no i cussed..

Anyway, buying KFC, yeah i seriously hate.. i mean if my dad went and bought it, i would probably not eat chicken cause i specifically say what i want, but that did not happened, so waiting in line, there's this lady in front of me who's taking so long to order, i don't know why, but i just kinda like a mild smile, but i was having like a stomach ache at that moment, but still for no apparent reason, i smiled, and thinking of what to say for my ordering.

After probably 20 minutes, i don't know, that lady was just plain weird, she show her galaxy tab to the cashier, i don't really know what she's showing, probably some promotion or something, but finally she was done, and it was my turn to order, and i speak english!

Yeah, i was kinda anticipated of what i was gonna say, actually i don't usually speak english if i was about to order, but it started at Miri Airport i guess, when we were ordering food at Marrybrown, i kinda speak English to the cashier, i don't know, i guess it's kinda like challenging yourself, i mean i don't get to speak english too often, so instead of waiting for time to speak english, i just find people to speak it with, i don't care who they are, if they can respond to me, i'll be happy with that.

But the weird thing is that she understand, sure i gave some signs with my hand, but other than that, the order went perfectly, i didn't have to repeat myself, she didn't ask me to repeat myself, i mean that was a little weird, but i'm a little glad, i'm glad i did that, cause i don't think we speak enough English these days, i mean it's not about showing off, but it's practice, yeah that sounds dumb..

I see groups of people talking in english, while i'm just quietly sitting from afar eavesdropping on them, hoping so much that i could join, i don't know.. i guess i miss being in a crowd of people, or probably i never have been in a crowd of people..

I'm just wasting time so that the food will digest properly.. that's gonna be the last time i ate KFC!, probably not, but in a really long time, i guess i just need to taste chickens to remind myself how much i actually hate it, i mean not chickens, but eating too much of them, i'm actually hurting right now, i mean if it was me few months ago, i probably wouldn't mind, but i'm trying to change myself here, but yeah.. last time, just that i'm not eating properly these few days making me feel like i need fast food to make me feel better. But it didn't.

Now i'm listening to some strange songs.

Stuck... At Home!

Okay, it's been a while since i've been at home, 4 days to be exact, and i haven't stepped out yet, not once!

Okay, there's a few times, but that was to see the doctor, i don't think that count as going out, i mean i haven't even seen what type of monitor they have to offer, so i can make up my mind which one to pick up, other than that, i really wanna see how much KK has change, if there's one thing i like about life is that progress.

Karamunsing Kompleks is kinda, i've heard that it's like dangerous to be in there cause of the building, i mean i can't say i'm surprise, they like expand so much, and they still expanding it right now, but i don't know, i can't confirm if it's true or not, cause i also heard it from other people.

But other than that, Karamunsing Kompleks is a great place for tech geeks, might not offer as much as Low Yat Plaza, but at least you won't get headache and you'll be able to narrow down your choices, have you been to Low Yat Plaza? i mean how?? if i actually buy an expensive stuff from there, i don't think i would be able to make up my mind, there's so many shops there to go in, i literally can't go in each of those shop, in a day, i might need like a week or a month.

Sometimes less is more, i'm still getting to that, but that's just what i'm understanding and applying it to here, also i'm finding that my words without cussing is kinda boring, maybe i should find some way to make it interesting, now we all can't keep cussing now can we?

Yeah, i'm so bored.. that's actually my status update on facebook, true story.

But other than that, i don't know, it's not like i could drive myself to go out now can i? oh wait, don't i have my license? yeah, now i just need a pair of.. man i seriously can't say it, but it would be funny though if i had say it, anyway what i was about to say is "I just need a pair of (something round that people use to play in soccer) which i already have, i mean it's joke, come on lighten up, but seriously though, i'm not that brave, even so, yeah my driving license is a waste of time, i haven't drive in 3 months, i don't really feel anything, while some people feel like they're away from drugs when they're not driving for that long, and they'll be, "Give me my car!, i need to drive my car!" though i never actually seen actual people doing that, but that's how i would imagine they would be.

That might not even be true, so i'm not judging people, oh, my long time mission, taking a bus to go to the city, yeah, if i could actually find a bus around here, it's not like i live nearby the city, which i actually am, but it's still far, maybe it would be easier if it's KL, i mean they have all forms of transportation, like Taxi, busses, LRT's, KTM's, Monorails, what do we have? trains..

Yeah, but they have all those is because they're population is more than us, i don't know how much of that is true, cause the last time i check sabah is pretty much bigger than KL, just under developed, i mean seriously, you look at sabah and you will feel it's somewhat big, but not in the city, totally not in the city, but if you go at some random Kampungs, you'll find that there's plenty of space, by space i mean large field that grows tall grass. But in KL, it seems big cause it's actually developed, and you won't see any tall grass growing in some random field, probably football stadium, i don't know..

Finding things to talk about..

Keyboard, okay last one i promise, since i'm stuck at home anyways, so there's this site called Superbid.com.my that offers large variety of stuff that you can buy, well not actually but, but bid, but after you win the bid, you're actually buying that stuff, but sometimes actually more cheaper price, and even cheaper if you're not counting the shipping postage, cause the shipping postage is ripping us off!, i don't know, can't believe i payed 30 bucks of shipping postage for a tiny box.. when i payed for 10 bucks for other tiny box..

I mean that's seriously awesome, i know i know, it's an apple keyboard, but not entirely, it's actually kinda like a replica i guess you could say, and it has like blue indicator which indicates if your locks are on which i think is pretty awesome, but it does use USB to connect to the computer, currently it's costing 16 bucks, so 16 bucks plus 8 bucks is 24 bucks, the original price is like 48 bucks.

Why i want it?

Well if i do go through this buying monitor she-bang, i'm gonna need a new keyboard, cause my old keyboard (Which cost for 20 bucks) is kinda slippery, not on the front, but at the back, and it annoys me so much, cause seriously, it does not have grips, ooh, that reminds me to get a grip, not on life, but on the keyboard, but other than that, it might look cool to have an apple keyboard, yeah, we buy things for showing off, aren't we all?

Haha, okay that was great, but i think i write more than enough, let's safe some for tomorrow now shall we. Yeah, i'm trying something here, i don't know if it works or not, but if it doesn't i'm sticking to the original.

Habits

Okay i'm gonna make this snappy cause i haven't actually take my bath since i went to the hospital, so yeah.

Anyway habits, what are habits really, it's like some annoying thing that sticks with you whether you want it or not, some people like to smoke, some people like to torture people, some just.. i don't know..

I don't really have a bad habits, i don't smoke, i don't drink alcohols, i don't drink and drive, i don't go late at night and come back i the middle of .. err almost sunrise.

But i do have a habit, which is eating, i mean it's not wrong or anything, i mean every one eats, tell me one person on this living earth who doesn't eat, and i'll do nothing really, cause that's an interesting fact, how, i mean seriously how, do you survive without eating? i mean i've tried it, but even i have to eat a little bit, i can't not eat nothing at all for a day, actually i succeed, but that's not important.

So going back home, err.. man it's a little bit hard, so i'm happy that i'm losing weight, but i'm also worried that i'm gonna gain it back, cause most of my weight comes from my home, i mean not literally, but you know what i mean, i mean it's just that i can't really control myself here, if i was in Mukah, kinda like less strict, not that i can do anything i want, just that my mom can't force me to eat, yeah i like to use the term "Shove it through my throat", yeah i'm being over-dramatic, my parents never shove anything through my throat, if anything, my mom took a toothbrush and poke it through my throat for me to puke, it's not as it seems, she actually gave me a wrong medicine, which is actually for adults, but at that time, i was still a kid, so she need me to puke it out, i mean what is she suppose to do? make me imagine disgusting stuff so that i would do the puking all by myself without any toothbrushes?

So yeah, i have this problem, cause i seriously think i'm gaining weight without even trying, i mean i have to eat, i can't not eat, i have to say i've been eating regularly, and healthier, no not really, last night i almost finish a plate of fried noodle, and it was oailay (Oily) i just wanna pronounce like it's disgusting or something, and i have like two chickens, but i can't really eat chickens now can i with my teeth hurting, oh yeah, that was yesterday, then i'm still right!

Yeah, but today, i ate nothing but vege, but that was for dinner, but i didn't wanna eat dinner in the first place, but i'm taking medication so i can't not have an empty stomach, i don't know why, does having an empty stomach while on medication makes you better faster, you know because you stomach absorb all the medicine more quickly, i don't know, no one ever clarify me about that. But i did ate like porridge for breakfast and lunch, it was McD porridge, i don't think i have a choice, they provide the fastest porridge you can find in less than 15 minutes, seriously man, porridge takes some time to cook.

And i'm just eating it cause i'm sick, after i'm done being sick, i'm gonna eat nothing but vege, speaking of vege, my mom cook like this cabbage added with eggs, and man they were delicious, i might even say it surpasses egg plants, i mean seriously, i feel like i can't get enough of it, and now it's raining..

but yeah, i ate nothing but vege for dinner, and i have to be honest, i think i'm getting a little hungry, but i'll just drink water afterwards.

So yeah, was that short enough? don't think so, so i'ma take a bath, and i'll see you later, have a good one, good night, and have a pleasant.. err anything that you're currently doing.

Now My Mouth Is Numb!

I don't think i can blog very well today.. but i'll try.. for the sake of blogging! not that i'm hating this, i'm loving this in fact, just that i'm a little sick, not sick of blogging, but actually sick, my mouth..

Okay first of all, waiting was like an hour thirty minutes,due to my reference letter being expired, i did not know anything about that cause my mom handles it.

Didn't really do much in those hour, just keep looking at the television.. kinda bored, but then there's this indonesia show that's playing at 2.30pm, i don't really like it, but i really like the song, it's by D'Masiv called Jangan Menyerah, i don't know why, but it sounds familiar, but then again, a lot of D'Masiv song is similar to other song, kinda like they stole it, but not really, it's just their version.

But after that, i read a magazine, it was Time, actually, okay it was boring, but i shouldn't say that, cause i actually read it, i mean i never read something like that, cause Time magazine is kinda like grown up magazine, and i'm still in the middle, i mean i kinda do progress quickly, i mean i still remember during my teenage years where i buy magazines like K-zone, Gempak and Utopia, then i stopped, and buy tech magazine which i'm still into right now, like Stuff, T3, and others, but now, i think i'm gonna change again, i mean i tried Reader Digest, but it's not my cup of tea, maybe i'm not mature yet, but i actually read Time magazine, it was about the FDA under drugs or something, like giving pass approval of drugs that actually increase the risk of heart failures, see i read it, but i didn't finish it, cause after hours of waiting, my appointment with the doctor finally caught up.

So i was in the room, and was asked with what problem am i facing, so did the usual, told him that my front tooth is killing me, just less dramatic, i actually practice of what i was gonna say before i went in, while i was waiting in the room, thinking of stuff to say like, i can't eat, i can't sleep, i can't do anything.. yeah, but didn't really talk a lot, haha, at least i got a chance to speak english, he actually talks in malay at first, but then i talked English and he followed.

After that, he took an x-ray to see the problem of my tooth, it's kinda like he already knew the problem, even so, he need the x-ray to explain to me, he explain it really clearly actually, i understood it, and know what he was gonna do to my teeth, so i kinda trust him.

After he explained, i thought we were gonna do the treatment in another day, turns out, it was today, so yeah, i was just scared because the previous procedure didn't have anesthesia, but today they finally gave me, so it kinda hurt at first, but later it became numb, till now. I can't feel my lips.

He actually did it very well, i thought it was gonna hurt because he have to drill my teeth to do the root canal, but when he drilled it, i was kinda surprise, cause i don't know if he was actually drilling my teeth, cause i didn't feel a thing, but there were time when i did feel a little hurt, so he asked me to raise my left hand if i felt any mild discomfort, so i raised a couple of times.

The procedure didn't really take long, he kinda do like a scrubbing, like a sandpaper through my teeth, but thankfully, there was anesthesia, i can't imagine how it would be without anesthesia.

After that, they fill it with, err, the thing they used to fill teeth with.

And now, my mouth feels numb, and i'm eating painkillers like candy, no not really, that's just an over exaggeration.

So yeah.

Eating Sushi

Wow..wowowowo.. okay.. i know this probably is my millionth post of the day, but i'm sorry, maybe i'm paying back for all those days that i didn't blogged, not because i didn't want to but, because i can't, because there's no internet connection, or maybe privacy, i think sometimes privacy is a lot better than internet, but it's best when they're both there, like i can't even do my blog when i'm in my friends room knowing that they're they, i don't know.. maybe i'm still uncomfortable letting people know about my blog, cause i still feel scared getting criticized or something.. but hey, that's just me.

So yeah, this even actually took a long time ago, before i went to Mukah, actually on the way there, but it kinda took 2 days, cause for the first day, it was from KK to Miri, and on the second day, it's Miri to Mukah, which is a total of 2 days, cause i find it hard for people to drive around for 24 hours straight.

On the way to Miri, my uncle actually talked about this sushi place, he asked us to tried it before, but my parents were mistaken it by Subway, cause subway is actually pretty awesome, so they kinda wanted to try i guess, anyway this sushi place is actually in Brunei, see a guy like me don't usually eat sushi, cause sushi mostly contain raw fish, i don't know i'm just saying, cause those are all the thing i've seen from television, raw fish and ridiculously spicy green paste.

Anyway, yeah, the first time we didn't actually buy it, but after some experience with japanese food, i mean it's okay, it's not that horrible, the only thing i'm worried is getting a stomach ache, and with the disaster, it's kinda scary, i mean maybe the food would be contaminated or something, but i don't think that it would be easy, i mean just because it originated from Japan, doesn't mean they actually brought the food from Japan, maybe it just means that they used the style from japan but use the resource from local products.. err don't really know what they mean, raw meat?..

So with we we're with my uncle when my parents wanted to send my to college, so yeah, they ordered Sushi, don't really know what they were called but there were plenty, i think it was like 60 bucks, which of course is kinda expensive, but then again, it's not usual for us to eat Sushi, i only remember eating Japanese food that my dad bought from a cold storage cause it looks delicious to eat, but my dad didn't actually finish his, and i kinda ate one, it was this like pulut with chicken and seaweeds on top, it was cold, but it was okay i guess, it wasn't that bad, so that was kinda my first experience, but a long time ago, i actually eat Sashimi, it was a salmon if i'm not mistaken, it's kinda raw, it wasn't actually cooked, but i was surprised, it was soft, i mean usually fish would be hard to eat, that's actually why they prefer to cook or steam a fish rather than eating it raw.

And my other uncle kinda dared me to put on some sauce, i didn't really care at that time, he just wanted to see my reaction, so i put on the sashimi to the sauce, it was this black sauce, i really didn't know what's in it, i just wanted to prove him wrong, so i ate it, sure it tasted kinda weird, kinda make me wanted to pinch my eyes, but i stayed cool, i can see from they're face that they were disappointed, but yeah that was one weird sauce.. kinda spicy too..

So after buying Sushi, we went to my Aunt house in Miri, and for the first time i had dinner with my family there, i actually had a dinner there once before but my parents weren't there, so on the table it was me, my parents, my uncle and his wife, and my aunt little sister.

I was kinda being awkward, cause i'm not good with new people, by that i mean my aunt little sister, i met her several of times, but i didn't actually talk to her, i don't know why, i mean i'm.. okay.. maybe i do like her, but it's not like i could do anything, which explain why i'm awkward around her, but more strangely is that, i seriously can't stop staring at her, is she beautiful? i guess so, so yeah.. i kinda do like her, but every after time i would sort of forget her, but every time i see her back, it's kinda hard for me to forget her, oh hey, why am i talking about a girl?

Anyway it was dinner, and we kinda have a shortage on plates, so we used the styrofoam tray and divided it, i divided mine with hers, still i was awkward giving it to her.. and i was kinda scared to talk at the table. Okay sushi.. this is really making me uncomfortable.

Sushi turned out to be a surprise, man sushi actually taste great, like for the first time of my life, i tasted the real taste of sushi, and they weren't bad, in fact they're actually great, there were this like rice rolls, there were tempuras, and lots of other things i don't really know what i'm eating..

Actually i don't really have anything much to talk about sushi, just that i feel weird around girls i kinda like, i guess we're all like that sometimes aren't we? when we see that girl that we like, and we feel so powerless, and there's not a thing that we could actually do because of.. well for me, i don't actually know how to approach girls, even if it was a simple hello, man i have issues..

Yeah but i have a plan, if i'm not a CEO or working in a big company making a good living, or married, or being in prison, or making my dreams come true, or making music, or making movies, or being a popular blogger, being a vlogger, or anything that i wanna do by the time i reach 30 years old, i think i'm gonna go like backpacking or somewhere for 2 years, i mean that sounds like something that would be fun, going into a remote place, like learning all over again, that is if i'm totally free and not doing anything, that's like Plan B, Plan A is what ever life throws at me.

Err.. maybe not so much of a plan.. anyways..

My First Jailbreak

A long time ago.. my dad bought an iPad.. not much to tell..

But for the longest time, me and him have been downloading free apps from the app store which is some what okay, but not totally satisfied, and for the longest time, people have been talking about jaibreaking their i devices such as iPad, iPhone, iPod touch... and honestly it seems great..

But today.. i finally jailbreak my dad iPad, it actually sounds easier than it sounds, and people are actually making money of this jailbreaking stuff... seriously, hundred bucks per jaibreak i saw people offering their services in mobile phone shops, but honestly, i'm a newbie right here, after some searching on the web, i did it like less than 15 minutes, and honestly, it's kinda easy, i mean it's not even medium.. i just thought that it would be hard, that's why it took me this long.. i'm even considering Android because of this, cause with android, you could actually search from google and then transfer it to your android device and install it..

But with jailbreak, i just found out right this moment, all you have to do is install few applications, and after that you could download it from that applications for free, how it works, even though there's a price stated, but actually after you tap download, they would give you a bunch of links which is all free to download, and you can search practically anything over there and it's free, i mean i have only download like 6 applications so far, but i know i want to download more than that.

But i still believe that these are just for product testing, not meant for piracy or anything, but honestly, applications are expensive, but i can understand why, people spent countless hours, months, years perfecting their games, applications, err something that goes along the way, and honestly they probably can't put a price on those long hours, so a little bit of price comes, but still people refuse to pay, but honestly, i'm not paying because i actually don't know how to, cause they're using the US currency.

But yeah, it's kinda like testing the product before actually buying it to see if it's actually worth buying, cause sometimes when you're not testing stuff, you could find yourself filled with regret after spending a lot of money on things you might not actually like.

Okay yeah, i guess i'm kinda proud of myself, cause i did it by myself, without my uncle, nor my cousin, or anyone else, i'm a successor yeah!...

Kinda pumped up there, but i guess it's good, cause i'm a little bit sick right now, and it's good to have a positive energy, and i'm typing as fast as a dog chasing after a cat right now, but i think i'm gonna take a nap, cause after a short day at home, i mean working.. i should rest to celebrate this momentous afternoon.. see ya

I'm Feeling A Lot Better!

I know that my blog post lately has been.. oh how should i put this delicately.. weird.. yeah it's kinda like i'm on mood swings lately.. but seriously though.. i'm feeling a lot better.. thanks to the drugs.. not that i'm taking any drugs that are illegal.. by drugs i mean medicine.. but i bet you all know that... i'm on painkillers and antibiotics... panadol (paracetamol) has no effects on me anymore..

Just hope that i won't addicted to it.. kinda like Dr.House is addicted to Vicodin.. i'm losing sense of what i should be talking about.. i got something.. but maybe i'll save it for later.. for now.. let me savor this moment where i'm feeling less pain.

Other than that.. not much to say.

I Can Barely Speak

Yes.. i am very much indeed.. still sick, well... now it's becoming harder for me to speak since my upper jaw is kinda numb, not really numb, just that i chose not to move it, cause whenever i move it, it hurts, so the movement i made is less till it kinda became numb, so i can't really speak.. i'm only talking with my lower half of jaw..

Good thing though.. what? there's no good that can come from this.. seriously though... i have nothing good to tell you.. except maybe tomorrow i'm gonna see a doctor!, i mean finally.. i don't know.. my parents are kinda weird..

Other than that.. seriously nothing!.. can't really think of anything right now.. usually i would make stuff up or find something on the internet to talk about.. i guess the pain on my teeth is preventing me from doing exactly that.

Oh yeah.. just found out that my dad was kinda unsupportive of me getting a new monitor.. like i told him that i wanna buy a monitor.. and he say "For what??" .. you already have a monitor.. something like that.. and i'm like "My laptop screen is small, and all the kids are making fun of me cause i'm big but i own a small laptop".. screw.. oops.. i didn't finish that sentence.. but seriously though.. i think it would be an advantage for me to have a 21.5" full Hd Monitor!

Like seriously.. i could enjoy surfing,watching movies, doing my work, on a 21.5" monitor..

Okay.. here's how the whole thing happened..

So.. there's a lot of seniors at our campus using a PC instead of laptops.. and it's kinda demeaning even though they don't really mean to do it..and like most of us.. we feel like noobs only using a laptop when it's really backwards.. when a really long time ago.. people could afford a PC but don't have the luxury to afford a laptop.. but now.. everyone has a laptop.. but no one choose a PC because it's big.. and a little bit hard.. i mean you could do a lot of stuff with a pc.. mostly customizing..

And a lot of my friends are dreaming.. drooling of making a PC of their own.. so i kinda tease about buying an iMac.. i mean if you really wanna show off.. why not buy an iMac.. cause that's something that i haven't seen around campus.. so a little bit more.. the thing caught on me.. cause if you're gonna spend thousand of dollars on a PC.. why not buy an iMac? i mean iMac are awesome.. i've only used it once.. actually i don't really know why they're awesome.. maybe i'm kinda deceived by people over the US.. cause they're all using it.. then after realizing that it's expensive.. i kinda cut it down.. instead of buying an iMac.. why not a Mac Mini.. i mean all you have to do is buy a Monitor.. it's simple enough.. furthermore.. Mac Mini is actually small.. it's even smaller than my laptop.. but founding out more.. it's actually doesn't really.. err.. powerful enough.. i mean not on the processors.. it looked pretty decent enough.. but the graphic card.. ergh..

So then.. i saw a friend of mine using a Monitor.. which achieved to fool me to actually thinking that it was a PC.. so yeah.. not really a new idea.. kinda like me stealing.. but still cool..

But now.. i don't really know if i'm gonna buy a monitor in these 2 weeks.. but hey.. even stranger things had happened..

I'm Getting Lazy!!.. And It's Only The First Day

Huarggggghhhhh!!!, man i seriously can't stand being lazy.. i just wanna do stuff, i mean i feel so good going to class and doing presentation, but now i'm sick.. laying in my bed.. listening to music.. and mostly watching youtube like... i can't say bad words.. Huuuaaarrrgghhh!!! but seriously though.. i've been missing a lot of updates from youtube especially from Wong Fu, KevJumba, Community Channel, Ryan Higa, there's lots more.. but those are my favorites!

Anyway.. we're suppose to have an assignment anytime now, and tomorrow will be my second time skipping class, i don't know if it counts as skipping class when you can't physically attend that class when you're thousands of kilometer away in another state, can you? i mean seriously not that fair, and this friday happened was unintentionally, i was sick and can't sleep, i wanted to go to class, but my teeth started hurting that night before friday, Huuaaarrghhhhhh!!! (In case you don't know what that means, that's my letting my depression out, cause i can't say bad words) anyway.. yeah.. i kinda missed school already.. the good thing is that i don't feel bored during class.. usually i used to look forward going back to my dorm room before the class even started, or thinking about what food would taste good in my mouth, but now.. not so much, i kinda like class right now, especially when there's only 5 class so it's a lot easier for me to focus on stuff..

But seriously though, i came here for a reason..to resolved unfinished business!!, no.. but i just wanna look around town, maybe a stuff or two, seriously need to find a monitor.. may not be able to afford a PC, but may be able to fool some people.. haha, at least i was fooled.. I feel like i need to buy a lot of stuff.. not expensive stuff anyway.. no.. i'm done with useless expensive cra... oops.. got you there didn't i? yeah.. but i'm a little worried about my usb ports cause i only have like 3.. but i found an alternative, there's actually a 7 USB ports selling in Lelong, might wanna buy that, but there's a more awesome than that, a belkin stick or something, it's a stick that has 7 USB ports that's kinda looks cool, but it cost like 120 bucks, why i need 7 USB Ports?

1.Mouse

2.Broadband

3.External Hard Disk

4.USB Speaker

5.Cooler

6.USB Fan (Not the same as cooler)

7.Other stuff that i can't name right now..

I guess i need to take another look at my list.. i seriously can't wait for my phone!! Huaaarrrghhh... when are you gonna arrive?? well it's suppose arrive this week, to bad i'm not at campus to take it, well after holidays then, i mean qwerty keyboard, i've been wanting one since i was like.. i don't know.. few years ago i guess.. but i did tried a qwerty keyboard on my friend phone, it was the Nokia e71, it's kinda difficult cause the keys were so small, and i had to look at it for the most part cause i am not used to it yet, but my phone that has a qwerty keyboard looks a little bit bigger, and it's round.. hope that i could do some blogging, facebooking, maybe even start twittering on that phone, but i don't think that it supports 3G network.. cause i bought it for 200 bucks.. and guess what? it's a china phone..

But the good thing is that it use.. Android.. i've been wanting one for quite a long time i guess.. i nearly bought the Xperia X8.. but i didn't.. i guess a cheap phone is better than expensive useless "The C Word"..

Okay.. that's about it..

Okay.. i got some ideas to do.. well for one.. i wanna have one idea a day.. and kinda like implement it, and do like a percentage to see it's progress.

Other than that.. i wanna do like a foundation, it's called Make A Move Foundation, but i don't really know the first thing to make a Foundation.. okay maybe not a foundation.. cause i just found out that foundation is actually a charitable organization.. i kinda wanna make like a seminar for people on how to start doing something.. thus Make A Move!, i mean seriously.. entrepreneurship, but i don't consider myself as a successful entrepreneur, i'm not even an entrepreneur, but i wanna help people, cause i think that's what i do best, and i wanna raise the number of rich people in Malaysia so that we can eliminate poverty.. is that a good enough reason.. okay maybe not rich.. just a good living.. cause life is too short to live in poverty.. kinda feel sad..okay bbyezz

I'm Still Sick!.. But Getting A Lot Better

Well.. yeah.. it's still there, i don't consider being okay till it's all gone, but all in all i feel a lot better than i did before, have to thank my parents though, cause i don't know what i'll do without them, i know they're not some curist or anything, but they really did their best to comfort me and try to get rid of the pain away, i know i don't appreciate them that much, i don't really know why, i guess i should change my attitude.

I mean i'm grown up now, i can't really blame everything on my parents now can i?, and i'm living independently some more..

Well.. i just hope everything is gonna be okay, and i seriously wish that my teeth will not fall off..

So.. i've been listening to new songs lately, there's this one song i really liked, it's by Andy Grammer called Keep Your Head Up, it's a really cool song and uplifting, it just makes you feel good and feel that everything is possible, have a listen to it if you're feeling down, i know that it raised me a little bit..

Other than that, William Fitzsimmon, at first i thought he was a metal singer cause he was bald and have a really large beard, but turns out he's an acoustic singer, his song is actually mesmerizing, even though, i mean his songs is kinda mean something, it's a rare thing that artist do these days, anyway his songs that i listen to all day is "Beautiful Girl" and "Fade And Then Return"

Well.. i'm gonna enjoy these songs, so peace out!

Back Home And Terribly Sick!

Yeah.. i post the same thing on facebook, cause that's the only thing on my mind right now, but i a little better after washing my mouth with salt water, a little.. not a lot, from 10 to barely.. 9.5, it just feel numb, but i know that the pain is still there, man my english is getting worse..

Yeah i realize that, i just need someone.. i barely communicate in english, but the good thing is that i try my best, and to be honest, i'm pretty proud of myself for getting out of my fear of public speaking, i wished that i could have conquered that fear earlier, if not, i wouldn't been in this mess.

So i'm back and sick, not a lot has changed, except that i'm still sick, i'm gonna brag about it till it disappear, unfortunately life doesn't really work that way, but fortunately, i lost 10KG!! like seriously, i mean i kinda anticipated it, but seeing it with my own eyes was like, wow, did i really just did that by myself? i mean i'm kinda proud of myself.. again, sorry, i'm not proud of myself too often, so i'm kinda sucking to it as long as it's still here, but seriously though, after all the blood, sweat and tears, nah, not really that bad, i just used that phrase because i'm used to watching the biggest loser, but seriously, i did it by myself, doing nothing, like seriously.. i didn't do anything, well.. except for changing my eating habits, i stopped eating more rice, chickens, oily foods, i guess it really did payed off..

I used to look forward to breakfast,lunch,dinner, now i'm looking forward to losing more weight i guess, i mean if i could lose 10Kg in 1 and a half month, i guess i could lose some more, actually my goal is to lose like 40Kg after the end of the fifth semester, i have to say the progress is looking bright, and my uncle and his wife were kinda shocked after i came back, cause they said i lose my weight, well, i did, and i'm proud, yeah.. i'm never getting old to saying that.

But now i'm sick, can't really celebrate much, except laying in my bed and get a lot of rest..

Today..

Was kinda worried at first, i mean there weren't any bus around 7 am in the morning, and there weren't any signs, cause our bus was leaving at 8 to Miri, but slowly, a sound of an engine started to roar, we hoped that it was a bus, and it really was, but we had another problem, not really a problem, except that we're waiting altogether with other people that's going to church, so it's kinda hot at the bus, and we waited for like half an hour, and i was sweating a lot which made me feel uncomfortable, but then the bus started to move, probably the most incredible feeling i ever felt before, there i was my sweat all over my body, and just as the bus started to move, the wind blew directly to my face and it felt cold, that was like the best 15 minutes of bus ride of my life.

Even stranger, now that the road to Mukah is better, it still takes 8 hours to arrive at Miri, mainly because the bus stops a lot, So there were a lot of stop, and to be honest, every pit stop i went and pee, cause i was sick, cold, and unable.. i couldn't even eat with my teeth hurting.. At first i didn't really wanna buy any food, but then i saw my favorite vegetables, which is Eggplant, i don't know why, but that's my favorite vege, actually i have a lot of fav vege, so i bought it with rice, and it cost 4 bucks! for a vegetable and rice, i mean seriously?? that's seriously expensive, i mean am i eating a horse?

The after 8 hours of excruciating movement in the bus, it was really.. a bumpy ride.. my friend wanted to go around Miri before leaving for KK, but at last, we end up going to the airport to wait for hours, but the weird thing is that we payed 30 bucks from the bus terminal to the airport, but the meter clearly states 21 bucks!, seriously, he even added 10 bucks initially to the meter.. we're we scammed? i don't know, don't wanna think about it.. don't really care about money, but that's insanely expensive! i mean it's not really that far, i mean i would understand paying hundreds of ringgits from KLIA to KL, but this is Lutong to Airport!, seriously!

But overall.. ok la.. then suddenly, there's actually a Marrybrown open at the airport, before that there wasn't really any fast food restaurant opened at the airport, and most of the restaurant opened there were seriously inconsiderately belly cutting expensive.. like 7 bucks for a cake! and 12 bucks for a Nasi Lemak! seriously..

Marrybrown was actually okay, it wasn't really expensive, but it's kinda medium to expensive, i mean 11 bucks for 2 pieces of chicken and fries with drinks? that's kinda the same price for a dinner plate at KFC. And i bought porridge due to my inability to consume food properly, i actually finished eating the porridge, but i barely touched the chicken.. cause it was hurting my teeth, but i really had a great time surfing on my phone, but i had to open my laptop, cause it's more proper that way.

Didn't really do much.. just surfing.. downloading songs, the usual, facebook and what not.. then the flight went on, nothing much really happen.. boring flight, overall it was an okay trip, except for the part that i was in extremely excruciating pain in my mouth.

Well.. i'm gonna rest now... see ya later.

Living Under A Rock

I have to say, it's not as bad as it seems, i mean i've been away from the internet for a little while now, but i still occasionally surf using my friends laptop, but mostly because i was buying stuff online and i have to check up with the people.

Currently only one of my stuff has arrived, which is the Beats tour earphone replica, my phone is still nowhere to be seen, oh well, i guess i just have to play it after the holidays. About the earphones, well they're not the worst i've ever used, but they're not the best either, but seriously, it's not that bad, but if i had realize that it cost me 70 bucks, i would've gotten the sony desktop monitoring headset which cost for an extra 8 bucks which looks kinda like beats solo headphone, oh well, i guess i was a little eager because the stuff originally cost for 600 bucks, and here's my chance to try a mediocre one, even though the quality might not be the same, but i have to say, the packaging is seriously awesome, even for a fake one, it's seriously something, maybe i'll do a review on it someday, maybe during the holidays when i have a proper internet connection.

Speaking of internet connection, i might be getting a maxis postpaid broadband, cost my friend use one here, and it's actually pretty fast, fast enough to share it with people, well i'm going solo anyway, other than that, i might buy a lot of stuff, don't know if my parents would approve of that, maybe i'll use my birthday wish.. hope that it's still works.

Nothing much has happened, except for more presentation, i've been doing presentation till i was bored, it's one thing to be scared to do a presentation, but now i'm a little bored of it, cause i'm doing the same thing, which is translating my slide from english to malay, cause i'm the only one who does my slides in english rather than malay, not because i'm copying and pasting it, but simply i understand english better than malay, some words in malay i don't even understand, guess that's how weak i am.

Seriously, it's been boring, well at least one thing has change, my friend kinda gave me like a chance to text with a girl, i never actually text a girl before, okay i did, but it didn't really last that long, but this time, i was kinda being my friend i guess, since he didn't really know how to text in english, cause the girl who texted him is texting in english, i guess that's an advantage on my part, even though the girl might not know i'm the one who texted her, oh well, at least i'm getting an experience on how to text a girl, so far i'm not learning so much, except that "Haha" and "Hehe's" make the tension go away so that people might not find you boring, but other than that, i'm really having a tough time finding stuff to say to a girl, cause to be honest, i don't really know what a girl likes to talk about, i mean, i can't seriously talk about boys, cause that is just plain weird, i mean i don't know, boys might be a topic that girls might be into i guess.

So am i ready to text a girl, actually no.. i don't even have a girls phone number, even if i do, i don't think i have the guts to actually say hi in messages, i don't really know why, i guess it's the fear of rejection, not that i've been rejected before, but it's kinda scary seeing what people go through after they got rejected, i guess what i'm trying to say is that i rather be alone than get rejected, but that's not going so well for me now is it?

I guess we all have to get rejected once in a while, i mean it's impossible for a person to get rejected so many times, i don't even know what i'm talking about right now, it could be girls, college application, other stuff maybe.

Going back, yes.. one more day and it's finally going back time, i might be skipping class, but i don't really have a choice, cause our holiday is only one week, and the only way to make it longer is to.. sadly skip class, i mean it used to be 2 weeks of holiday, even 3 weeks, i seriously don't know why they changed it to a week, i mean that's kinda weak.. and lots of people are not going back cause they feel like it's not worth it because it's only for a week, and it's a little bit sad that they're not able to see their families.

Aargh, i almost forgot, i've been having this tooth ache, i feel like ripping them off my jaw, i seriously have no idea why it hurts, even after eating 2 tablets Paracetamol (Panadol) it's still hurts, i thought that i was gonna be a hillbilly or something.. you know front tooth missing.. it seriously hurt and i can feel it moving which is kinda scary, i mean i just turn 20, i don't wanna wear a fake tooth.. it's too early to me..

But seriously, why does our teeth decay, i mean i know the source is because we're lazy.. but seriously, even with brushing teeth, it's still decaying.. i wish they can implement something like a coating that can last for a month that could decrease the chances of our teeth decaying so that our future generation won't lose their teeth before they hit puberty.. now we all know how much kids like to eat candy.. even as a grown up, i still enjoy the occasional candy, but sometimes when i eat candy, i don't even know why i'm eating it, i mean it's candy!, you're suppose to be done with they when you were a kid.

So that's about it, don't know if i'll be sleeping tonight, i haven't actually sleep yet,it's 5.30 in the morning, the sun hasn't rise yet, my class is at 8 am, maybe i'll just sleep for a little while..

Okay here's why i haven't sleep, first of all my teeth hurts like.. you know that word, i'm trying to refrain from using bad words, so bare with me now, i seriously can't sleep with that annoying feeling of hurting in my mouth, and it worries me that i might be losing a teeth, other than that.. there's so many F*****N mosquito biting my legs, how the ***l am i gonna sleep with me scratching away my itch.. okay maybe some bad words, but at least i censored it..

Okay, gonna try and sleep now...

Waiting On Stuff

I have to say that it is a major pain waiting for online stuff to arrive, see it's not as similar to what you've experience when you're actually buying things from a regular store, here's the thing, in regular store, you would pay upfront and the stuff is yours, in online store, you have to pay through banking in the money, and then wait for it to come.

It's been weeks and my stuff hasn't arrive yet, for some reason, it's stuck in Sibu, and i have another problem with my other stuff, i haven't got a reply from the seller, though i have much faith in them, but my patience is running low, but i did get a response from the seller, he says he's in China, so he's back today, so i'll just wait tomorrow to text him, cause i text him a lot, i just want my stuff!

Other than that, things are looking great, i'm gonna go back this saturday, i thought that i was the fastest to go back home, turns out, there's other people going back on the 18th, unfortunately, i will be missing 2 classes, but my lecturer says it's okay, i have to use my 20% quota, which means i must attend 80% of the class, if i'm lower than 80%, i can't attend the final examination, okay to be honest, i never skip class, and i don't know, here's the thing, i mean it's a little bit unfair, cause i'm using my quota when i really can't attend class, cause i'm halfway to KK by that time, but other people who don't attend class really take advantage cause they're still there, just that they're lazy to go to class, believe me, if i could still be there and go back on the same time, i would go to that class, let's just hope that i won't skip any class this semester..

Well, there's a lot of people bringing in their pc right now, and i'm not much of a PC guy, cause PC is big, unportability, cause a lot of money, seriously i don't know why people use PC, but most people use PC because they need power, to play games, as well as turning on your PC for 1 whole month, see i don't see any reason as to why i need to turned on my PC for one whole month, i just do regular surfing, watching movies, work.. etc.. unless i'm downloading, then it's a reason to turn on your PC for one whole month, but see, i'm not at that stage yet, if i could live off internet without a quota, maybe i'll consider buying a PC, but here's the thing, i've already bought a PC, in fact, i bought a PC before i actually bought a laptop, but i'm thinking of buying a Monitor, most monitor these day are pretty cheap, i saw a 21" cost about 300-400 bucks, last time i bought mine cost for 700 bucks which is pretty cheap at that time, it was a 19" X2Gen monitor, yeah the name is a little bit weird, it's kind off a Malaysian brand, but before that, my dad actually bought a CMV monitor which cost thousands of bucks, actually, just a thousand, but it's a little bit better than mine, but now i'm thinking of buying a monitor, cause my friend actually bought a large monitor, well not actually large, just big, and at first i though, he used a PC, but a closer look reveals that it's actually plugged in into his laptop, i mean that's genius!, well the only reason i want to buy a monitor is because my current laptop screen is actually pretty small, 11.6", you can see stuff, but a lot of people complaint that my laptop is pretty small, and i've been made fun off.. being a big guy who use a small laptop, zzzz, i just don't want you to be shock when i brought my Vaio!, okay enough dissing, but seriously though, i think buying a monitor will definitely benefit me, and i have it all planned out, now i just need to ask my parents permission if i could actually buy a monitor, i know.. i'm still a kid..

But there's actually an advantage of that, see, i have seen a side of me without my parents permission, all i see is me wasting money on things i don't really need, and when my parents actually gives me permission to buy stuff, it's still seems like a waste of money, like those money could actually be used for a better spending, so yeah, but i think this will definitely benefit me in another whole level, if you can't beat them, imitate them, don't join them..

So yeah, that's about it.

Last Day Of Broadband

Today will be the last day for my broadband, as i have only activated it for only a week, i don't know if i would be activating it any time soon, so if you don't see any latest post, it's okay, i'm not dead, just unactivated, but hopefully after i come back from the holidays, i would have a new broadband, i wish i could live off of internet, but it's so dang hard, why? i don't know, but i should really quit, i think online shopping is catching up to me, currently i spent RM320 bucks on online stuff, well i spent about 60 bucks for 2 mouse by gigabyte, and now i'm about to buy 2 more product, a china phone that uses android and a beats tour earphone replica which cost 200 bucks and 60 bucks respectively.

For the android phone, i don't know, i don't usually buy china stuff cause i know how terrible they are, but i'm risking here, cause i want an android phone, but good android phone these days cost a fortune, not really, i remember the days when mobile phone price could actually make you feel depressed, now, it's just better and less depressing.

But seriously though, i want an android phone, so i'm buying like this cheap android phone that has a resistive touch screen which is crappy, but i really like the android os that they implement on a china mobile, i don't really know how it's gonna work, but it looks so good, seriously.

That's the black version which i initially wanted, but it cost more cause more people bid on it, so i got the white one.. which is less attractive but functions the same.

I read a review about it, and overall it got a positive review, good functionality, normal battery life, the only downside is the screen, is that it's too small.

Next up is Monster Beat Tour by Dr.Dre, which is the Replica version.

But it looks exactly the same, i don't know about the quality though, i'm just prepare to know that it's not gonna sound as good as the original Dr.Dre beats, but if it's sound better than my sony earphone that i'm currently using, i'm satisfy with that, not saying that my sony earphone is bad, but if it's as good as it is or much more better than the sony earphone, i'll be satisfy, cause i'm quite satisfy with my sony earphone, just that i want beats so much but don't really have money cause it cost so much, tour isn't really my first choice, if it was me i would buy solo hd, but the cheapest i could find is 600 bucks, oh well, it's on my 5 years plan anymore.

I kinda feel like i broke my deal for 5 years, but never mind, i made a new rule, to not spend more than 400 bucks, which my main point is top reduce redundancy, which is to buy too much expensive stuff and not use it.

But with the stuff that i've already bought, i'm pretty sure i'm gonna use it, well, we'll see how it goes, i can't really guarantee anything, might blog another one after this one, before 9pm cause that's when my internet expires..

Aargh, why can't internet be free, i wish i could make a free based internet with much more faster speed than we got with our current paying internet..

L.I.F.E

Lack of Interest and Failure to Execute..

The Day After 6th Of August 2011

First things first, I went to church!, finally after weeks of always missing, feeling sleepy, unable to wake up, but i made a commitment to wake up and go to church, well, if i wasn't woken up, i don't that i'll go to church, but fortunately, my friend woke me up, and i feel like i'm obliged to got to church, since i haven't been to church, oh for how long.

Didn't do much, church was kinda awkward, i feel like i don't belong there, well not because i've sinned too much or anything, it's just that i haven't been to church for a really long time, and i kinda feel neglect to go to church, but what makes it awkward was that the mass was in Bahasa Melayu, i can't pray in Bahasa Melayu, i don't know the words, i mean it's the same, but i was taught in English, so how would one adapt to one changes when one is already been taught that way, and the weirdest thing happen, the church black out!, i don't know why, but i just find it weird, i never been to church that blacks out.

But all in all, it went well, then we went to the town, to look for food, the Mee Kolok was rather salty, my friends didn't really liked it, i though they were suppose to be salty, so i didn't really notice anything, but yeah, it's not my favorite one.

Nothing really interesting happened, but i just bought my first contact lens, never in a million years would i thought me be wearing a contact lens, just that last night, i got to talk to my friend about contact lens, i thought that it would be hard cause i saw one of my friend who is really new screaming cause he couldn't get the contact lens to get in his eye, but last night another friend told me that it was actually easy, just that you have to get used to it, and so i bought it, trying to prove me wrong that it won't be that hard.

But i was wrong, it was hard, especially for the first time, i didn't really know how to put on a contact lens, but i really have to thank my friend for guiding me through it, it was so friggin clear, but it kinda bother my eye a little bit, cause i feel like there's something in my eye, well to be honest, there are things in my eye, just that i feel like how i would usually feel when there's something bothering in my eye, just with super clear vision, and i found out the degree of my eyesight is the lowest amongst my friend, i guess i should feel lucky that my eyesight isn't really that damaged.

I'm gonna try it out tomorrow, to see how different it would be wearing lens and spectacles, other than that, nothing really happened today, just another boring day, but i would have to say, i am a better version of myself than i was last week, i went to church!, i hope to continue it next week, cause i have another mission ahead of me.

Okay, sorry for making this long, usually i would go to church just to actually listen, but most of the time, i end up being bored, so i feel like i don't really know why i'm there, and more importantly today, when there's a language barrier, i wanna find a reason for me to keep coming back to church, i need that reason so i could actually go to church every week, so that i don't care that i'm wasting 4 bucks every week, that i don't care that i could spend hours in front of a computer, but i can't spend an hour to church?, yeah, those are the things that i hope to eliminate.

So yeah, that was my day after 6th of August, or better known as My Birthday! Happy Birthday to myself, yeah.. i'm that sad.

6th Of August - It's My Birthday! And I'm Asleep

Yes, i'm 20!, i'm 20 years of age, i'm hitting the big two-o.

I should be celebrating right? yeah, but don't think any celebration would be happening anytime soon, maybe when i come back home..

I guess i wanna write about my past experience of preparing for a birthday party, there's like a couple of steps in preparing a birthday party, lemme see if i could remember and get it right.

The steps includes:

-Planning for the date of the party

-Planning for what type of foods to cook

-Listing all the ingredient to buy

-Going Shopping!

-Buying party stuff like soft drinks, snacks and others

-Preparing For The Food

-Decorating

-Cooking!

-Prepare the utensils and foods on the table

-Filling The Water For Drinking

Okay, i guess the process could be long, should i explain each of these steps? okay maybe i should since it's my birthday and all..

Planning For The Date Of The Party

-Usually people would choose for the date of of their actual birthday, but due to unexpected circumstances, birthday nowadays are celebrated during the weekends, i guess it doesn't really matter when you celebrate your birthday, as long as you're celebrating it for the right reason, by that i mean not get hammered up.. which a lot of people chose to do on their birthday, I'm gonna get drunk tonight!, just joking..

Planning For What Type Of Foods To Cook

-Before you actually start cooking for your birthday party, you need to know what type of food you're gonna cook, and most importantly if you invited anyone who could not eat some food, or maybe allergic to it, planning for what type of foods to cook can also save you money by not overbuying ingredients or buying wrong ingredient for the wrong food.

Listing All The Ingredient To Buy

-So now you know what type of food that you've decided to cook, the next step is to list out all the ingredients you'll be needing to cook that type of food, and make sure that you're picking the right ingredient.

Going Shopping!

-Shopping!, well probably the best part of preparing for a birthday party, well, not really, it could be havoc or chaos sometimes, but shopping is one of the most important aspect of preparing for a birthday party, i remember i got sick from drinking way too much free soft drinks that i get from shopping, and the worst part that it actually happened on my actual birthday, cause my birthday party was held in advance.

Buying party stuff like soft drinks, snacks and others

-This is actually under Going Shopping, well if you just wanna held your birthday party, just buy soft drinks and non-alcoholic beverages, but if you invited alcoholics to your party, you might wanna buy beers or lagers, or pilsner, i don't know about you, but, i never experience bad drunk people during my birthday party.

Preparing For The Food

-This part is crucial, well not really, just that you have to wake up really early to prepare the food before you start cooking, prepare foods like unfroze the chicken, cutting vegetables, doesn't seem much, but it's a long process..

Decorating

-My dad usually do the decorating, but mostly it's just balloons, and color lights. I don't really have tips to make an awesome birthday party decoration.

Cooking

-Probably the best part in preparing for a birthday party, mostly cause you'll be able to test out the food that's ready to eat. But i never really done any of the cooking, usually would leave that to my grandmother cause she's a really good cook.

Prepare the utensils and foods on the table

-After the foods done cooking, now it's time to prepare it on the table along with the spoons and plates and cups.

Filling The Water For Drinking

-This used to be my job for my party, which is to fill water into a pot for people to drink, but nowadays people would easily choose water drinking cup which is a drinking water in a cup which only need you to penetrate a straw at the top and it's done.

Well, that's my birthday party preparation experience, not that i'll be doing anytime soon, aah, another bad news, just found out that there's no ticket back home, but it's fine, cause my parents have connection, not really, just that my aunt works at a ticket agency, well i don't really know what's gonna happen, i might have to skip a class.

So yeah, that's it, i'm gonna roam around the dorm for a little while. See ya.

I'm 20 Years Old

Well, it's half past 12, and it's officially 6th of August, i didn't realize it cause i was playing a game, but the good news is that i won!

I guess kinda my present for my birthday, winning games, yeah i don't actually have plans for tomorrow, it's not like i could celebrate anyway, most of my friends will be away, attending a driving seminar, rehearsing music for church.. etc etc.

I don't really know what i'm gonna do tomorrow, probably study or play games, or watch some movies or series, can't believe that's how i'm gonna be spending my birthday, well, i only hope that i'll have my birthday party when i'm 22 years old, so i'm gonna give it another year for me to not have a birthday party, once i'm 22, i'm gonna celebrate my birthday like i just don't care, actually i had a little plan, to go to Malaysia's Las Vegas, if you don't know that, it's Genting Highland, i mean what better way to spend your birthday part in some remote location where it's cold, where there's rides and theme parks, and mostly Gambling!, i'm not big on gambling.. yeah right, actually i plan to return once again, cause last time, actually i did won, okay i guess it was a good memory, but you know.. but for this time, it's official.

Maybe i'll just bring my parents and my uncle and his wife, i wished i could bring all my family, but mostly i travel a lot with them, so it kinda make sense, and maybe spend a whole week in KL, see stuff, man, that would definitely make my day, and maybe see my cousin whom i haven't seen for a really long time, seriously, it's a birthday, it doesn't necessarily have to be a party, maybe i'll just do some birthday shopping, or just waste some times just cause it's my birthday, okay that's it, i'm planning my 22nd birthday in Genting Highland and KL.

But if my plan backfired, i guess having a gathering at my house or a restaurant is okay, i don't ask for much, just people getting together, eating and celebrating, i don't do really do drinking and karaoking much, but a lot of people spend their birthdays doing exactly that.

I missed like 3 or maybe 4 birthdays, so when i'm finally have my birthday party, i want 4 cakes, each for the year i missed, i don't think it's a problem since my mom and dad actually bake cakes, of course i'm not gonna eat it all, or maybe i just make some innovation, a 4 flavored slice birthday cake, kinda like Splitza, you know? how they split 2 pizza, with 2 individual taste.

Well, that's it for my birthday, i mean unless tomorrow changes, i'm gonna go ahead and take bath and maybe watch some show, then sleep.. till the morning burns my face off.

I Need A Doctor!

Wait, lemme put on the song as i write this.

I don't actually need a doctor, i'm pretty sure most of you have already heard the song, i don't usually hear rap songs, especially when it's Eminem that's singin', Eminem used to mock other people in his song long time ago, but recently, it's like he's change, but one thing unchanged is that he still curse, i don't know if that's actually a problem, cause most rappers rapped, but the most obvious change is the way he raps, now i'm not a pro at rapping, but if you hear most of his rap songs on his new album, it's kinda an uplifting song i guess, but one of my favorite songs is I Need A Doctor, even though it's not actually his song, he's only featured in it, but still, that's one hell of a song, and with Skylar Grey as the vocalist, you can't go wrong there.

I didn't actually like the song at first, cause i thought it was Rihanna at first who was singing the chorus, but after months, i found out that it was actually Skylar Grey, to the untrained ear, you would actually guess it's Rihanna sang the song, well cause, Skylar Grey actually wrote a song for for Rihanna to sing on one of Eminem song, it's really famous, it's called "Love The Way You Lie", so i guess anyone could've made the mistake.

The song is pretty much about Eminem talking about Dr.Dre, how he help him through his career, that he believe in Eminem when everyone was having doubts, i actually did a little research on Dr.Dre, if i'm not mistaken, Detox will be his last album, and Eminem kinda push him to finish the album which was taken 10 years to complete, imagine that, most people would wait that long for a movie.

Okay, i have to be honest, the song contained a lot of cursing, so when i actually try to rap along i have to stop for a while to not say those words, i don't curse, i mean i try not to curse, actually i don't really curse voluntarily, and i rarely curse involuntarily, actually i don't even know why people curse, i just don't get the point of saying bad words, well that's just me..

Haha, rap, yeah it's been a long time, i think the first time i try to rap a long to a song was Black Eyed Peas "Where Is The Love", wait, i think it was Linkin Park, but most Linkin Park songs contains rap. Yeah, i still don't know how to rap, i mean i'm just following the words, but Eminem raps with feelings, i mean recently, during his old days, he raps with feelings too, but it was kinda scary, have you heard his song "Stan"?

So yeah, that's about it, oh yeah, 4 hours till my birthday, i don't know what's gonna happen to me, guess i'll just sleep..