Pavlova

So yesterday a relative sent out kinda strange looking food to our house, i mean my dad told me it was pretzels so i was okay, i've had that before, so then when the actual thing arrive, it's actually strange, i thought it was some kind of big biscuit or something, but it's not, it's actually called Pavlova, it's kinda like a cake, but it's actually a big sized meringue with cream and fruits on top of it.

Pavlova turned out to be a surprising taste of a cake, i've never actually had a pavlova before, it's actually named after a Russian ballet dancer named Anna Pavlova which i think is awesome, so how does pavlova taste? it's kinda like wafer my mom describe it, but it's actually kinda crispy, and when it's inside your mouth, it sort of melt away, and it's really sweet because of the fruits, there's actually lots of fruits, but only strawberry, blueberry and grapes, it's actually delicious, now i'm not a cake eating type of guy, but Pavlova might seem like a cake, but it's different, it doesn't have that soft texture you normally got from a cake, and the cream sort of mixed with the meringue once you got it inside of your mouth, and the sweetness comes naturally from the fruit, i sound like a fruit critic i know..

So i've done a little bit of research of myself by searching on youtube and googling it, at first i thought it was a trifle cake, due to it's cream and fruits, but i was wrong, come on, don't tell me you've never been wrong before, but anyways, turns out it's called pavlova, and the strange thing is, after talking to my cousin, actually more of listening, i don't do much talking, she really got my parents interested in baking a pavlova, because apparently there is no pavlova selling here, reason? it's astonishingly expensive, it's kinda like a cake, without the price of a cake, coming in to secret recipe and finding out 7 bucks for a slice of cake kinda makes my head pop a little bit, and 80 bucks for a cake? i mean seriously? we used to spend like 50 bucks on cakes, and that's only for birthdays, yeah it's strange i know, so Pavlova is sold for a hundred and fifty bucks, and if you can't read that the numeral is 150 bucks, i mean seriously?

But it's kinda hard, but not really to make, i mean i saw youtube videos, and i kinda feel like i actually wanna make pavlova, and i've gotta be honest, it's really good, and if you have a chance to go to KL, you should look for Pavlova, and i'll guarantee you that you won't be disappointed, but if you can't spare a hundred and fifty bucks, you can always log on to youtube and learn how to bake it yourself, i mean a hundred and fifty bucks is a lot of money, but i guess it's kinda worth it sort of, well we got it for free, so i can't really brag about it, but i don't really have much time to bake a pavlova, actually i never bake anything in my life, actually i did, but i failed, i remember trying to bake orange cookies, yeah i have no idea what i'm doing, i kinda like mash up some cookies and put some orange juice in it, i seriously forgot how it taste like, but i'm pretty sure that it's not even hard, yeah i'm not a baker, but this Pavlova thing really got me hook, kinda remember like the time i was hook on buying Speedstacking, but that was kinda disappointing, but anyway, life goes on, and i'm trying this Pavlova, maybe not now, but later in december, and maybe i could serve it as a christmas dish, and maybe actually make a profit by baking pavlova, cause seriously, last night was some kind of awakening, i mean there's no pavlova selling in KK, so that's kind of an opportunity, so yeah, maybe i'll become a pavlova baker, or maybe i just make the little one, the meringue, cause i'm not totally confident with myself in making stuff that big, so yeah, pavlova, even the name it self contain the word Love without the E, you get what i mean..

1402

Yeah, weird title right? It's the number that i got for waiting for the doctor, yeah, mentioned it at my last post.

Anywaysssssssssss

Wow, actually,

Probably,

Maybe,

Just a little,

No but seriously though, it went well, like there was supposed to be 3 procedure, but i only had 2, cause i'm on a time sensitive position, but i'm thankful that it could be done early.

Not a lot done, they just took the last temporary fillings, so they could filled in a permanent fillings, but the strange thing is that, when he drilled my teeth, i didn't feel a thing, i didn't even realize that the dentist was drilling, yeah the dentist changed, though he did mentioned it the last time, but strangely, the same doctor was still there, only he was assisting, anywaysssssssss..

Like seriously though, i didn't feel a thing, like the only thing that's telling me that my teeth is being drilled, is the fact that there's a burst of water and white over my face, like i didn't feel anything in my teeth, which was strange, but okay i guess, i didn't even use anesthetic, so yeah that was strange.

So after they drilled my teeth, getting rid of the temporary fillings, they did something strange, they put like a lot of little sticks, much more little than a toothpick, i think they were trying to use it to get rid of the excess i guess, they put in so many and take it out after a while, it was seriously strange, and they didn't really explain to me what they were doing, so i was like, okay you're a doctor, so i trust you.

So after several sticks in my mouth, they finally pull all of it, but then, the use something like a metal, that has this long iron but really slim, slim as the mini stick, but then he like burned it and quickly put it on my teeth, i have no idea what he was doing, it was really weird, but other than that, i took an X-ray to see if the sticks were connected?

But the bad news is that in 2-3 years, my teeth will be.. err.. how should i say this... i don't know, it will not be good, and they ask me to put in a crown so that it would hold to the teeth, but my mom says it's expensive... so i don't know, maybe i should just wait for a genetic research that could rapidly grow a brand new teeth! yeah sounds awesome..

I'm Hungry

Mainly because i can't sleep, i kinda realize this a while back, whenever i sleep really late, almost in the morning, i will feel some kind of hunger, which automatically makes me look for food, but i actually already ate, in fact, i did look for food just a couple of hours, can't believe i ate chocolate, for the longest time i've been staying away from chocolate, it comes to me in this dark night, but seriously though, i tried to sleep early, like lots of time, but i can't seem to sleep, even when i turned of my computer, i got my phone by my side, then realizing surfing on my phone is annoying because it's slow automatically makes me wanna turn on my computer.

I really wish my writing means more than just for me, don't get me wrong, i started writing because, err what was the reason again? actually i don't recall, yeah, but now after reading so many articles from many websites, i wish i could be one of them, the one writing those articles, yeah.. i've had some ideas, but don't think that it would be coming out soon very much enough, mostly the feeling of scared, i'm not a risk taker i'll admit that, but i believe, doesn't seem convincing does it.

Just a late night blogging, can't find anything interesting on the internet, youtube seems to be dull right now, all my subscription - Watched!

Anyway, i think youtube is like my third generation of television, it used to be astro as the first generation, and then i evolve into internet, but wasn't into youtube back then, after a while, after having a proper internet that could load youtube videos really fast, i finally get the hang of subscribing, i used to thought that having to subscribe to other people channels meaning you have to pay, and the fact is that i just found out recently, well not like just now, but couple of years ago, actually, maybe few months ago, after KevJumba, then i really get the hang of subscribing to other people channels, ironically not a lot of people subscribe to me, well that's a terrible joke, cause i'm not a vlogger, actually i don't have to be a vlogger, i could just make skits, but that would require me to actually act, the truth is.. i don't know how to act.

Ironically, i always imaging when i was a kid that i would be in a scene, nah.. hopeless child shenanigans, but now it's a bit easier, a bit, not a lot, i mean sure you don't have to act for a television, i mean youtube is pretty good enough, i bet there's more people watching youtube more than they watch television, but the truth is, television is still mainstream, and youtube is.. only when people have proper connection.. you see my point.

Not that i haven't tried the vlogging thing, aargh.. saying this just makes me frustrated, i can't even lift myself up, yeah, i'm having doubts, but i'm getting better, i'll get there in a while, i did it with my presentation, not the best, but i'm getting better, i'm getting good, i probably even start a trend, before i actually present properly, people were like reading off the projectors which seems kinda boring, but i was more shallow compare to them before, but then i decided to change, i need to change, it's for the benefit for me in the future anyway, so then i started presenting properly, not being scared and all, and i have to say, it kinda payed off, i'm not scared anymore when i'm presenting, i'm not shaking, and i'm actually talking in front of the class, and for all of my presentation that i did this year, i haven't heard from a single lecturer that asked me to speak up, cause before the fifth semester, lecturer always asking my to speak up, see i'm.. err what's the word, generating? no, i'm evolving?, something better, i'm progressing, yeah..

Wow.. late night blog, well i'm just.. err.. yeah i guess that's just much about it, i still wanna eat? don't think my parents approve of me eating instant noodles in 3 in the morning.

Oh yeah, that reminds me, i have a doctor appointment tomorrow, in 9 in the morning? i still can't sleep, oh why can't i sleep in this hollow place? should i continue? i shouldn't, i should probably sleep, maybe i need to take a pill or something, i remember when i was sick and my mom make me eat medicine and that i would fall asleep right away, maybe i should fake being sick in order to get medicine so i could finally fall asleep without trying, cause i'm err..

okay i'm done, trying to sleep here people, which doesn't explain why i'm still typing, okay STOP!

The End Of August

Well, August is pretty much dead, yeah.. and so am i.. inside..

Anyways, August, has August been a great month for me? i kinda have to say yes just because it's my birthday, but nothing really happens on my birthday, but the thing is, nothing can ever bring you down if it's your birthday, i mean it's the day you were born, and you're getting older each year, and by the year you happen to age one more year, you made a mark, a passing for another year of your life, you should be thankful, appreciate, err.. what other words that is connected to being gracefully thankful for giving us life each and every day.

But seriously no, near to the end of August, i had a painful experience, my teeth, my teeth actually hurts and it's scared me to.. well not death, but that would make it more dramatic, i'm just scared that my teeth will be pull out, and my front teeth is missing, i don't care much about looks, but i don't wanna lose my teeth, i mean you were born with that, i don't wanna lose something that i was born having, well except for hairs, i mean hair grows back eventually, even though it hurts having to cut it each 2-3 months, but it's something that's mandatory as a student studying in government college, but i heard my lecturer saying if you're going on a private college, they don't really care, you can go to class wearing normal t-shirts, you can go with long hairs, you can not go to class if you're feeling lazy, all i'm saying is that you have more freedom if you're in a private college, i mean i grow up watching movies that just happens to have a private college, cause i don't see anybody having to wear shirts with collars, cause most of them actually wanna wear them.

But most of those movies include drinking, fornicating, drugs, i guess it's not all good.

Oh yeah.. i'm out of topic, was suppose to talk about my month of August, not really much happened, just bought tons of stuff, even though i didn't want to, but it's just cheap stuff, i'm just thinking if i'm going to make it not buying expensive stuff for 5 years, i'm gonna have to buy small things, but i have another rule, to accommodate me not buying expensive stuff for 5 years, here's the rules:

1.It can't be expensive

2.The price range is below 500

3.actually, i haven't thought it out, i just made that rule like 5 seconds ago.

Anyway, yeah stuffs, i bought an earphone, mouse, and a phone that is yet still have not arrived, i mean seriously?

But no, August was a great month, i get the hang of a new eating habits, i actually could lose weight in times where i didn't believe in myself, just that i may gain my weight since i'm back home, but not worries, in a few days, i'll be back to my usual routine, not eating and stuff, i mean not literally, just not eating bad stuff, like eating too many, stuff that has blood, i have to be honest, i wanna try being a vegetarian, but, i mean i made it like almost 4 days without eating meat, but i guess it's kinda hard, i mean you get the signs when you're feeling weak, but the other thing is that i'm just starting, so i guess it needs time to get used to.

My plan for going back, to lose 20-30 Kilos, i manage to lose 10 Kilos in a month, i'll be there for another 3-4 months, so i guess i'm good, i'm just scared that if i do manage to lose that weight and when i come back home, i'm gonna gain it back...

So i have another plan, in December, hopefully it's the time for semester end break, i have 3 destination that i might be going, as it has been far too long since i last travel for my own benefits, i mean the last time i travel was to Kuching i guess, but that barely counts as travel, that's like a field trip, but it's fine, at least i get to reminisce the moment i used to have in Kuching, well not really.. but i do plan to go somewhere i'm familiar this December, cause last December was just awe-so..ful, see what i did there..

Anyway my top three choices is and reason for is:

1.Lahad Datu

-Mainly cause i do miss it a lot, i mean it's my favorite childhood place, and i do miss eating Nasi Kuning and Sotong, but other than that, really looking forward spending Christmas there again, and maybe even New Years

2.Kuching

-I mean the first time i went there, i made a promise that i have to go there again, cause my first time going to Kuching was an amazing experience, i mean never would i thought there existed a place like this, actually it was fine, but it's really a momentous moment for me, after ending my exam, my mom have like a training there, so we stayed for 2 whole weeks in Kuching, exploring the city, buying stuff, eating, it was just an enjoyable time, and i'm looking forward for that history to happen again.

3.Kuala Lumpur

-Probably my first time riding the Airplane, who could forget their first time riding and Airplane, all clueless, To me KL is like to see how great our nation has evolve through these times by seeing their buildings, their cultures, innovation, and mostly, shopping i guess.

The first time i went to KL, we stayed at our relatives house, i mean i had a great time, it was a small place, but it did just fine, i don't really remember a lot, but we went to a lot of places like the Petronas Twin Tower, The Menara KL, going to Genting, i hope i'm not wrong..

but we went to KL like lots of other times so the memories is kinda mixed..

I still remember walking down the streets, and there's lots of hawkers selling barbecued chicken, it was kinda odd, cause you don't see stuff like that in KK during that time, and there's the first mall that i've been to, which is Sogo, but probably the biggest mall at that time i've been to is Mid Valley, i mean at that time, it was just so huge, i remember buying like a coloring pack by Faber-Castell, not really lots of memories..

So yeah, that's my plan for December..

I Miss Anime

I seriously do, don't get me wrong, series is still my number one choice of entertainment, but anime brings something else, they give you imagination, something that you thought would never happen in life, while all dramas gives you is emotion, but it's still down to earth, real, something that you can relate to, i seriously don't know how you could relate your life to anime, but you could give it a try i guess..

I guess one of my favorite anime's has to be Bleach, cause it's the first anime i saw, my cousin kinda introduced it to me, i wasn't into anime's at first, because of the language barrier and you have to read off it, but the English translations is actually good, sometimes even better than drama's. But i kinda hate bleach sometimes cause it feels like it never ends, oh wait, it still hasn't, but most anime's are like that, while dramas are much more easier to relate to cause they are by seasons, where as anime's are all the way, there's no stop, they keep on going, but i'm putting it all behind me.

Usually i would only watch like comedic anime's, i'm not really into those serious stuff, but that's the thing about Bleach, sometimes it's so funny that i would drop on the floor and laugh (not really), and sometimes, it's serious, and you're just confused, well not really, but i never find anime's that would make you wanna cry, okay maybe some, but i think if you wanna cry, Korean movie's the way to go, aahh.. so many memories, i cried like 6 out of 10 korean movies, well not really cried, but made me turn to tears, they just good good emotion going on, especially at the end, i mean they build you up in the beginning being funny and all, and then the fight starts, and when one of them starts to realize and wanted to apologize after realizing they're mistakes, one of them turns out death and he felt guilty over his mistakes and cried, okay i'm just imagining a scene, i do that sometimes.. funny i'm not writing my own stuff..

Maybe i should try writing stories, but i need like an inspirations, like the source of the story, i mean i could use my own, but that would just be a biography, i mean i've tried, but i never finished any of it, just had a good idea, lame beginning and stop, i never spend more than a day writing a story, usually just an hour or two, come to think of it, i need to find those notepads, maybe there's something left for me to do after all..

Well.. that's about it, i'm not really a creative guy, just a lazy guy who's lazy to explore stuff that could actually benefit me in the future as to where i'm living in the current present is just making me not doing anything cause if i do something, i don't really know, aahh.. that's not long enough..

Well...

I'm So Lazy Right Now

Woo.. even though the holiday is only for a few days, i feel like it's been a month, i slept like 10 hours, people usually sleep for 8 hours, but i did kinda sleep late in the morning, yeah i got some problem.

Just that lack of activities makes me feel like there's nothing else to do so i'm spending most of my time playing the computer, which incidentally makes the statement kids nowadays are like zombies staring at the monitor the whole day.

Well, not for long, if i succeed to become an innovator, i'll make drastic changes, no more will we live staring at a monitor, no more will we suffer in blurry eyes, and much more to come.

I don't exactly know what to do, but i'm feeling like an interactive programs where we can interact with each other through virtually, i mean it would be cool, but it would also cost lots of money, but then again, that's kinda the point of innovation, spending lots of money to make great innovation.

Well.. i'm just bored right now, even though it's raya and merdeka, man i have no spirit, i've been feeling like this since the past 2 christmases, seriously, i'm not doing anything right now, yeah i hate being at home.

Well, i'm gonna be her for a few days left, so, let's make the most of it..

Testing Out New Broadband

Okay, this post might actually be interesting if i actually take photos and describe what the photos are, but i'm too lazy to do that, but i'm thinking of another concept for a blog, actually just making new post on my old blog, my cashmiera seems doomed, but i have an idea that will solve both my solution for that blog, well first of all, that blog is supposed to be about taking photos everyday and post on it, but that didn't go so well, and i have another idea which is suppose to write stories on my blog to test my creative writing skills, turn out i don't have any, it's kinda hard when you're actually trying to do stuff, but one of the most accomplishment that i'm proud of happens when i'm not trying, like people say i'm funny when i'm not trying, but when people say that i'm funny, i feel like it's my obligation to be funny, and that's when it all fall apart.

Anyway, my idea is to kinda take photos and try to make it look like a story, i mean that would be awesome, i can cross 2 things off my list, kill two birds with one stone, walk and talk at the same time, you see where i'm going right? but i gotta hold it off for a moment, cause i'm really not in a blogging mood right now, maybe because it's raya, not that i celebrate it, but i've been blogging none stop last week, so i feel like i'm giving it all last week and not keeping some for this week, maybe after i come back.

And now, testing my new broadband, it's not the fastest, but it's functional, i can live with waiting few seconds, i think it could be a lot faster if it wasn't for my modem, the modem kinda broke and it's not functional, not really broke, just that the USB is dented, what's up with that? i just applied the broadband, but i have to say i'm satisfy with the speed, cause it's a lot better than Celcom, but i don't know if it's any better than digi, cause i still feel like Digi is faster, but Digi don't have reception at where i'm studying, so that's kind of a bummer.

And i'm gonna change the modem this friday, and fix my teeth, my root canal procedure isn't quite done, i can feel my teeth falling apart, not really my teeth, just the plasters the doctor filled in my mouth which is not suppose to stay longer, but i think i might have to do another root canal after i come back for the end of semester, cause he showed the x-ray of my teeth, and the teeth that's currently have like a big hole which is where the blood flow was stuck making my teeth hurt and smelly, but on the other side, there's another one, but it's still small so he didn't do the procedure, but i kinda have an idea as to why my teeth happened like that, i don't know how to say it..

But a few months ago, i actually have my teeth done, but it was odd, cause when i breathe through my mouth, i can feel a little bit of pain when the wind came in through my mouth, and if it was cold, it would hurt even more, so i think, over time, the pain kinda go away, and it's like it rot over there, i think there's like a hole that weren't completely sealed off in my teeth, i mean that's just my guess, but i did mention it to the doctor before, and i couldn't remember what she said, but she didn't checked on it, i mean i'm just saying, i'm not pointing any fingers.

But i'm kinda scared if the second teeth actually happens faster, cause i don't know if there's any dentist at Mukah, and i don't know how to go back after you go to the hospital cause i don't see any bus stop around, and i don't know how to walk alone..

Well that's about it, my broadband seems fine, so i'm just gonna use my wi-fi..